Monday, November 21, 2011

Guest post: schizophrenic sociopath

From a reader:
Schizophrenic sociopath: a joyous autoportrait of Pabaisa
And they worshiped the dragon [the prototype of Pabaisa] which gave power unto the beast [the archetype of Pabaisa]. And they worshiped the beast, saying: "Who is like unto the beast? Who is able to make war with him?"
- The Revelation of John, 13, 4
Pabaisa – the Immoralist, the Antichrist, the Anarchist, everything, that is opposed to civilization, the breaker of codes and rules; the man with the strength of a giant and the brain of a child; the soul contract Terminator and the wish fulfilling Mephisto. Pabaisa imagines himself as a green-skinned, sharp-toothed, bird-of-prey-nosed, hatty, sabotted and with dingy purple dusters, even if no one is afraid of him outwardly and react to his grotesque smile neutrally. The blind, who don’t see the accursed wickedness and consider him as a friend. The feelings of abandonment, terror and lost identity spring from the degenerate’s inner being, his projection of himself as a despicable demon, who looks at his own reflection in pond like Narcissus, and cannot see himself truly, so he rolls away from his Olympian mountain of solitude and seclusion, and engages on a journey through dark, naked forests and barren, scorched deserts, searching for something, which would give him an identity, an understanding and a shelter. The beast does not look aggressively in reality, even on the contrary, like a sociopath, like all the rest, maybe even a perfect replica of a human. The intra-speciary predator is unfazed by the hunters in this regard.
The problem of Pabaisa‘s sexuality: Pabaisa is only partly a man. At least, he doesn‘t perceive himself as one. Due to accidental meiosis and gene selection, his body was born as a man. Pabaisa doesn‘t see himself as a woman, either. There is no hidden desire to be a woman, no secret jealousy. For all he knew, it didn‘t matter, if he‘s a man, a woman or both. Things like sex and sexuality didn‘t matter, from an abstract perspective to life; he could become any with the circumstances. He was a man, but he could easily become a woman any time he wished, if he felt, that the circumstances demanded it. The mastery of disguise.
First metamorphosis: Schizophrenia and split-personality disorder. Five different voices in his head and 1 = ½ + ½, or A = B + C. A as the state before Lucifer gets thrown out of Heaven, like a pure state, B and C as different embodiments of “evil”, annihilators of “good” and destroyers of life, i.e. chimeras and killers with the thirst for power and the hate for weakness. Question: Why? Answer: The man’s becoming a half-man, or two half-men, was prompted by his genius-overman flight to the skies of brilliance, which was replaced by anti-genius, when he flew too high to the Sun, or madness, and burned like Icarus. The absence of identity, family, friends from birth or losing them along the way. Adam without his Eve, or the inability to hide from humanity without his species representative. The Colossus B is Pabaisa’s A part, which doesn’t want an identity from the start, being the universal bodily brutality in the world of objects. The Titan C is Pabaisa’s A part, which wants an identity from all his heart, despite the consequences, being the conscious identity-subjectivity seeker. From appearances alone, one would say that here exists an extreme complex duality and conflicting characteristics, despite this, they both are nihilistic psychopaths, who, due to an open intimacy, love each other more than the lost A, the last connection with humanity, which they forged.
It seems, that monster’s C only goal, like some kind of ambitious animal, who is playing God, is to give others power, or value, maybe he even wants to create a race of snakes. Save himself by saving his saviors? Still, when the vampire extracts and reaches the other person’s zenith of happiness and the height of potential, when there is no place to climb higher, for him that person becomes a bore and he feels incomplete, which makes him act with cruelty and kill the parasitical person from hunger. On the other hand, the giant B is bathing in nihilistic conscious revelations about the indifference of the universe and the relativity of values, by which he tries to justify his murders. Cerber C didn’t want an identity connected to physical activity, which will never satisfy him, but with intellectual; he wanted an identity, which embodies everything he is opposed to, so he searches out the aristocrats.
Second metamorphosis: Narcissistic possession of a Prince. Prince is not as much of an ogre’s fruit of labor, as that, which Nietzsche claimed to be as soul-awareness transformation’s third stage. In short: 1. The camel – memory. 2. The lion – will-to-knowledge. 3. The child - wisdom. In this case, Prince is something of a “second childhood”, radiation of will-to-live and the forging of new values. Prince to the devil is everything, which he desires by his understanding of identity at that time: a status in society, political power, money, reactionary disregard for the sheep morality, wide connection circle, etc. The creature endures his hunger and postpones this inevitability for a long time for the means to an end, but one thing is missing – the War ambition, the natural evolutionary development condition, the only Art form of the ruling elite. The seven-headed, ten-horned and ten-crowned behemoth rises up and swallows up his Father and Mother, the King and the Queen, burning everything behind him and searching for a greater height, a new order within himself, which would shake the whole foundation of the Earth. The barbarian should not be held responsible for the killings of other people, because it is in his nature to be the Machiavellian, to be the blond beast-of-prey, devouring the lives of others.
Third metamorphosis: Re-integration into one person. The need to become singular: the pianist’s cut off arms, the drowning man's oxygen, the thirsty man’s water need. I am you. You are me. We are one. Prince is the outcast. We always were a monster, with a human side, which desperately clung to an identity, to save ourselves from drowning. The dragon with his identity as a Prince and as a Kreator gulps down the centaur without an identity. The active nihilism overcomes the passive nihilism. The monster, with a monster’s hunger, with a monster’s appetite, munching his other half from within. Pabaisa in a poisoned garden of Eden, knowing and wallowing in his own death, was made wild and totally uncontrollable, to satisfy his every desire, to realize his every ambition with unconditional commitment. And only then the Leviathan experiences his second true suffering, - having in mind, that the first one was the absence of identity, - not by killing his family and humanity, but whilst assimilating his other half, his primordial anonymity. The formless, faceless, nameless mammoth of a Prince, in the past only thinking of himself as un-and-in-human, feels a human, an all too human, familiarity with humanity, as if being a slave to the collective unconscious programming, which doesn’t have any uniqueness, personality or individuality, as if all the memory was implanted into his robotic brain – the gargoyle, who achieves cold intellectual empathy, the Satan, who finally kills God and outgrows the nameless humanity and its identity, swallowing it and making it his little, dirty dog-bitch. Ego-centrism as a whole humanity’s ego. Not power through wisdom, but the “real” world’s transcendence, which is denied to the rational mind. My name is Titas, for I am many.
Mutant A, troll B and savage C in the consequence of all the metamorphoses become phoenix A again, who has no identity, because it is stolen from the Prince, and made his own. The achieved pseudo-identity results in an existentialist tragi-heroism: after finding an identity, a meaning of life, Moby Dick understands, that the identity is the reaction between him, the other person and the whole world, that there is nothing, who could call him by his name, his meaning of life effectively disappears. The eternal incognito, a walking corpse and the super-cannibal in the end returns not even there, where he started, but into a negative sequence, because the beauty of the identity has disappeared, leaving only a heart filled with choking terror and disgust. The last man standing syndrome: will-to-life and will-to-power as will-in-itself, the loss to the world is its conquering. And so stands the Prince of princes, saying to himself, that if he is made of the parts and characteristics of dead people, then, basically, he is a person, but because they are dead, he never himself is alive. What scares the most – the paradoxical hunger in Pabaisa’s eyes and a satisfaction with his fake identity. Nobody stands on top of the world, except the highest alpha predator, who doesn’t have any dreams or hopes, who exists alone only to write himself an ending, then he will stop wandering and not knowing eternally his unbelievably mysterious soul, ignorant of boundaries and fears, but constantly fighting within itself. The realization, that you cannot become “a fake somebody”, but you can become “a true nobody”, the last prophet of the nihilistic truth of the universe. The wind became stronger, its screeching howl louder, and the air colder, as the demiurge’s eyes ached, while he was smiling into the Void.
Question: What is meaning of the story? Answer: No meaning. The worthlessness of efforts. To acquire, what is wanted, but to understand, that it doesn’t mean anything. To see, that there is no difference between good and evil, well and bad. Finally, a man can become anything he wants according to his wishes. He doesn’t have to take the walked-out road. He has a freedom of choice… People are like dice, they throw themselves in the direction of their own choosing.
Moral: If you admit your ontological uniqueness, identity becomes unimportant.
Sincerely, your friendly neighborhood Pabaisa.

302 comments:

  1. on topic of richard kuklinski-

    richard kuklinski was a bullshit artist he didnt kill even the fraction of the people he claimed he did and he wuldnt take a bullet for anyone he was a killer that much is true but he was also a bullshit artist

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  2. Speaking of Jung...
    This is awesome.

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  3. Makes perfect sense to me.

    I must be schizophrenic.~

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  4. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5hkDnqJruWo

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  5. Jung? Can you explain missus kanney?

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  7. i mean seriously 250 victims and all mafia hits get real do the wops even kill that many people combined let alone let some polack do them all? and jimmy hoffa- im surprised he didnt take the credit from kennedy and king as well

    the wops are in the business of making money they dont go around shooting people every day like in the movies the 30s are over and even then nobody whacked that many people maybe in russia or columbia but not in the states

    he was a nobody mediocre killer and a sleezy porn dealer but because he decided to dupe the shrink he now gets a movie or two made of him not a bad deal- i heard mickey rourke is gonna play him

    i wonder who is gonna play me in the movie that is going to be made of me- brad pitt or matt demon? both acceptable options to me i dont want rourke to play me hes too ugly

    its gonna be a lot better movie than the one they make about kuklinski so go see that 1 instead

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  8. When someone asks you to not ever bring up a certain insecurity they have if you two ever get into a fight, for example you're in a relationship with a person who has a physical handicap which deforms him physically and he repeatedly tells you he has been self- conscious of said deformity his entire life, and you say "no dear, you are lovely the way you are, that is physical and superficial" but then when they betray you, you say to them that their physical deformity represents who they are -broken, empty because of where the deformity exists on their body, say, and you also say "But I admire you for compensating your whole life and doing the best you can; I am just pointing out your deformity to tell you how much I 'see' you" , and that is the last conversation you have with the person - they are left with the feeling as if their deformity was the last thing you will remember about them, but you didn't think you were being mean, you thought you were being a humanitarian to them, what would that be?

    IE: When you see the big picture and voice the symbolism you see because it MIGHT sting the other, but you "kinda sorta didn't know it would" is that fucked up? Or is it only fucked up if they actually feel the sting?

    And is that a socio's technique?

    If your friend, who hears this story, tells you you are gifted in hurting people veiled in sugar, is that not what Eden talks of?

    And if you have to curb this compulsion but barely know you have this power until it is too late, ie: you hurt others not intentionally( it is a defense mechanism, a way to "win") what kind of person would you be if you smiled at the "gift" but do realize you shoot yourself in the foot every time you win--I mean you realize it is grasping for some sort of false control-- is there anything "wrong" with you?

    Would you venture to say that there is nothing wrong with you if you know this about yourself but you control it? If you consider yourself to be a decent person because you would LIKE to control the impulse -SORT of like when a politician controls a gaffe before making one-- ...


    um

    I mean this is a choice whether to be a dick or not, right?

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  9. can someone answer this question for me: if you don't feel any emotions such as 'love, sympathy,etc'. what do you feel? do you go around with an emptiness inside? or is it more like a dull, blank sensation.. or are you walking around constantly agaitated wondering how you should act today?

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  10. Anon, did you forget that "happy" is still a thing? When things are going my way, I'm happy. When they're not, I'm angry.

    People who worry about how they have to act are the kind of people who are fake. Not just fake to the world, fake to themselves. Faking disorders, faking drama, whatever.

    The only time I think about how I act is when I realize I'm about to step over someone else's lines. Either I back up, or I trample over them. No middle ground.

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  11. More relevantly, I enjoy this reader's style. Reminds me of my LSD days.

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  12. so the only emotions you have are "happy and angry"..i find that very sad. something you will never feel.

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  13. Don't be obtuse. And can we all just have done with this "poor unfeeling wretch" conceit? It's getting so tired.

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  14. i dont understand why people here are so disconnected from their emotions that is not healthy

    like me- i can tell somebody that i love them and even mean it at the time- i feel the love when i say it

    but come next day i might not love them anymore and then they will say im dishonest and dont have any emotions but i disagree

    i can be very emotional when i want to

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  15. can someone answer this question for me: if you don't feel any emotions such as 'love, sympathy,etc'. what do you feel? do you go around with an emptiness inside? or is it more like a dull, blank sensation.. or are you walking around constantly agaitated wondering how you should act today?

    Psychopaths don't walk around emotionless like some cyborg. Granted, it is a misconception that's common. They lack guilt and empathy.

    Personally speaking I wake up excited. I know what to do in almost every social situation with most types of people. I don't have a problem socially and most psychopaths are the same in that reguard. In fact psychopaths thrive in the social enviroment usually placing themselves in the center of it all.

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  16. Looks like I'm getting to see your angry side. So much for grownup discussions. Why is it all sociopaths revert to insults when you try to have a discussion which makes them uncomfortable

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  17. Tommy, who's disconnected? The fact that I don't just gush about all the emotional bullshit in my life doesn't make me disconnected, it makes me a private person.

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  18. Tommy is Medusa, fools

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  19. Thank you both for your honest answers. I really appreciate it and it helps me to understand my loved one.

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  20. mean seriously 250 victims and all mafia hits get real do the wops even kill that many people combined let alone let some polack do them all?

    The fact they had him help take out Paul Castelleno, the boss of the Gambino family, shows even being polish they used him on heavy work. Just in 1993 in the United States of America there were 47 italian mafia related murders so you can imagine a life span of over twenty years of putting in work. Especially working with Sammy the bull who murdered almost anyone who did business with.

    Get over it. Actual detectives already covered the case and their confirmation is worth a lot more than your speculation.

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  21. 25 Years of Near-Constant Masturbation: The Tommy Lynn Sells Story.~

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  22. You don't understand your emotions Tommy. You tell someone you love them and the next day you don't is not a feeling of love. Love is a natural instinct that nature put into our species to give human beings reason to protect their pack. What you are talking about is infatuation.

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  23. so the only emotions you have are "happy and angry"..i find that very sad. something you will never feel.

    At least we don't have to feel like you do. Seriously I would hate to be affected like you just were: To be saddened by something that's not even sad.

    When I am angry it is brief. I strike out at whatever it is I am angry at and I am back to being happy again. Sometimes I get obsessed with something that angers me and it fills me with the fire I need to handle it. I don't understand how that is sad. Personally I feel sorry for people like you who are affected by small things that don't matter. Like feeling sorry for someone because they are not like you.

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  24. Tommy Lynn Sells was a muppet that lost it because some old fucker played around with his jimmy. The fact that you named yourself after him shows you to be even more pathetic. A sychophant with no name for himself that adores wierdos. You have spent three or so days talking about Richard Kuklinzki with nobody responding. I find it passing strange that you keep putting down a man doing business, but praise some wierdo who went around offing birds because he couldn't take being molested. Is that what you are? A distraught victim of buggering that has fantasies of showing the world how great you are by shivving a few kids? Pathetic. Go back to the closet your mum locks you in you little twerp. Nobody is impressed by your day dreaming.

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  25. I have to admit sometimes I do wish I didn't feel so deeply, but all my memories are tired up to emotions I felt during the time of going thru them. I don't feel sorry for you because you're not like me. It has more to do with how wonderful Love can feel. The sadness part is a drag, but it appears you can't have the one without the other.

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  26. Today's post was a great read. I would love to read more from this person.

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  27. Missy is jealous of Soulful it seems. Even when Soulful had dissapeared from the converstaion she couldn't let it go and continued to make digs and insults at her 'poetic' speech. She then continued to state that she was a designer and loved poetry which apparently means she's in a comfortable position to state that Soulful's comments were vague, predictable and not poetic. She didn't state this as an opinion, which would have been understandbale, she lectured Medusa on why she was right that Soulful was a non factor and why here comments were not poetic. Soulful refrained from rising to the bait which also bothered her as she continued to repeat herself on her OPINIONS of Soulful's comments to try to lure her out even after she accused BizyLizy of being obsessive by repeating her comments.

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  28. *understandable
    *her

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  29. I love my wife, anon. It may not be the same as the love you feel but its there. I have a few people I consider friends but I don't really feel a connection to anyone but her. When we first started dating I told her I wanted to cut her face because of the way she smiled at me. It made me sick. After a while of dating I found a lot of value in her and I'm sure people who have talked to her in here can see why. She didn't idealize me into some poor criminal who had a hard life. She saw me for who I was. A trickster playing games with people and taking what he wants. Her insight into people is valuable to me.

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  30. hahaha ukanned how can ya be so gullible demeo never even heard of kuklinski i guess ya believe he did hoffa as well?

    the detectives nailed him for 6 murders i doubt there was many more than that

    maybe i wuldnt lie so much if people werent so gullible its rediculous i can say anything and people buy every word of it well the same strategy worked for richard

    there is no such thing as mafia hitman if ya think of mafia hitman as somebody who goes around shooting people every day like its a day job maybe in russia or columbia but not in the states the wops do it themselves mostly thats how they get promoted they are expected to whack people

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  31. she lectured Medusa on why she was right that Soulful was a non factor and why here comments were not poetic.

    Idiot, it wasn't about soulful the entire time it was about Medusa. Medusa was using her opinion about Soulful to cause a conflict because she likes to be challenged. Nobody challenges her unless she starts a conflict. She does it all the time. Start reading between the lines and stop looking at the obvious you fucking bobblehead. In that siutation saying that Missus is jealous of Soulful is like saying a lesbian is jealous of a dildo her girlfriend is using.

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  32. Hello Beautiful Cheeks
    Hi Gary
    Harv, man, I don't know what is going on with you, so I will hold my hello until you make yourself clearer, buddy. Is that OK?

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  33. They don't do it themselves they have associates that are not made men do a lot of the hits. You can't be made unless you are italian. You don't get promoted based on how many people you put down, you get made because you have shown leadership and you are a good earner. There's actually only a small amount of people in Casa Nostra. Most of the people that put in work for them are associates not members. That is the same for most organized crime syndicates.

    Stick to worshiping wacko child killers Tommy. Tommy Lynn was a nobody and a coward that could only have power over a child. Anyone can kill a kid.

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  34. how can ya be so gullible demeo never even heard of kuklinski

    You are just plugging your ears and humming. They had Sammy on a federal grand jury indictment for the murder of Paul Castelleno based on the testimony of Kuklinzki. Kuklinzki did it because Sammy was a rat so he wanted to fuck him off. Kuklinzki died of heart failure before they could put him on the stand. They are not bringing down federal indictments on an informant based on flimsy testimony that is not credible. He was there.

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  35. You think your wife has SO much insight ukan and she think eden a socio. and she thinks soulful is not poetry. That's laughable. She will make a good therapy!!!!

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  36. On top of that, tommy, the Gambinos would never put someone they didn't have a lot of trust in to do a job like that. So the fact that his testimony was strong enough to bring down a indictment showed that he was there.

    You're talking about taking out a boss in the casa nostra when they were still running strong (Now they are a bunch of nobodies). That wasn't done in decades without approval by the commission. Do you think Gotti would send some nobody they didn't trust to do a job like that? The fact that he was caught for multiple homicides and he was connected to the Gambinos shows what he is saying is credible. You are jealous of him because he had purpose.

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  37. You think your wife has SO much insight ukan and she think eden a socio. and she thinks soulful is not poetry. That's laughable. She will make a good therapy!!!!

    What's laughable is the fact that you talk like some caveman in a cheesy movie.

    Ugh ugh... Give me stick. Fucking peasant.

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  38. By the way Ami you are just jealous of her because you can't get your 'socio' to love you. You can't figure out that he doesn't love you because you are fucking retarded. Nobody loves retards they just feel sympathy for them. Sociopaths don't feel sympathy so you are out of luck cunt.

    No shite the wv is: amyton

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  39. whatever ukan keep dreaming in your fantasy world i dont want to break your bubble and who knows- maybe the wops some day come banging on your door and give ya a job as a hitman for them ya get to hang from the railings in one hand and shoot dozens of people dead with your uzi in another like that fucking leon guy in the movie

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  40. who wud be jealous of that stupid bitch eden? no one cud luv that cunt. she's just a used up hoe.

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  41. I'm above working for anyone Tiny Tom and I can honestly say I'm an expert in my field if you were to qualify me professionally. You talk about fantasy world at least I made my own name instead of sucking the cock of some serial killer. Look at yourself you are pathetic.

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  42. haha sure buddy no doubt ya are obama in real world i made my own name as well not wise to use your real name

    everybody here is a bullshit artist so is little ukan so why wuld ya expect me to believe a word that comes out of ya why wuld i care what ya think anyway?

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  43. I dated a guy who was molested as a boy and he had violent tendencies like getting aroused watching torture videos. He once told me the idea of necrophilia was arousing. He fed off my crazy; I 'miss' his.

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  44. and who are ya calling pathetic ya made like at least seven baits just to get a reaction out of me if thats not pathetic i dont know what is

    so ya worship richard kuklinski good for ya- everyone needs heroes

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  45. I was thinking about the discussion, yesterday. The upshot seemed to be the question of how does a sociopath love. What does it look like? Furthermore, CAN he love?


    Harv said no. This made me think that there is a spectrum to what we call ASPD.. There is a bell curve for every part of the human condition, you could say, such as intelligence, athletic ability, musical ability etc. The degree to which one is a "sociopath" should be no exception. There should be a bell curve spread for it, I would think.


    So, if Harv is on the end that cannot approximate anything we, empaths, call love, my friend is on the other end, where she is devoted and self sacrificing to her mother.

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  46. I don't worship anyone Tiny Tom. I leave the sycophant nonsense to losers like yourself. You are below the underachiever. I'm curious, how does that make you feel?

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  47. It was a shame, I left him for no good reason without looking back for years. I haven't found someone like him since. We talk on occasion and the energy can be felt through the phone. Both having our own lives now that are very different, we stay apart.

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  48. I was young then and wanted to see what else was out there now I know.

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  49. You leave people for a reason. Never go back to the same person twice. You dumped them for a reason. You actually progress from break ups if you don't keep dwelling on it like you are.

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  50. why so curious ukan? it doesnt feel anything because i dont care about your opinion no point in getting angry here theres nothing ya can do about it

    but how can ya think ya know anything about me for all ya know i might be zwhawk i culd be medusa i culd be ME everyone fake here so maybe tommy fake too haha ya just never can tell about people and here we all thought tommy was such a nice boy

    all your clumsy mind games will be for nothing- ya are not half as smart as ya think

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  51. Do you honestly think I'm playing mind games with you tommy? You have no clue what manipulation is and I really dont care who you are, because i can change your image to whatever i want. You are just clay. It took you three days of repeating yourself to get any response and the only reason you got one is because I was bored. You are the same muppet that lists inane details of bundy or other serial killers over and over. I'm not angry at you. You haven't done anything but look foolish. Three days of going on about kuklunzki and in one swoop I made a fool out of you.

    You didn't pick a random name. You picked a name of someone you are obsessed with. I know your type. A typical copycat that's too scared to go out there and make a legacy for themselves so you obsessively focus on someone elses. That's why nobody responded after the tenth time of you blabbing on about kuklinzki, because you don't matter and what you say has no importance or even relevance, just like in real life.

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  52. @UKan

    You are correct

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  53. tommy is clearly a troll.

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  54. idiot, ukan. why are you arguing with a troll?

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  55. haha ya have very high opinion of yourself ya think ya can change my image mold me like a clay? good luck with that then

    but ya really shuldnt take everything ya hear or read like words from a bible that seems to be your greatest flaw one day ya will learn words are cheap and talk is free ya have to learn not to be so gullible

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  56. Tommy is young, has attention deficit disorder, is a social outcast, and neglected by his parents. He's a only child and that shows by his lack of social skills. He spends most of his time alone. He was bullied in school and sees these serial killers as heroes, because they did something shocking to the same society that rejected him. He just doesn't have the courage to get his own vengeance so instead recycles stories in hopes to find other deviants like him who will identify with his under achieving pathetic loser hero worshipping life. He thinks he is a sociopath because it would finally explain why everyone rejects him. In reality everyone rejects him because he smells of despracy.

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  57. there we go hannibal lecter is trying to make me swallow the tongue haha

    this has been very amusing conversation to me as im sure to everyone else too watching it

    culd ya make a few more background stories for me as well I can say hotter or colder this guessing game is fun

    not able to be online too much longer but maybe ya can be tommys friend tomorrow as well tommy is so lonely and needs the attention

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  58. I bet you do tommy. Today is the first day of the rest of your life. I'm glad my presence makes you feel you have purpose. Maybe you can sit down with jason and grk and discuss the intricacies of sucking my cock.

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  59. A drug induced, mundane monologue that would have passed off as cool, were I a pancho wearing neck beard hippy that knew nothing of religion or philosophy. So little said with so many words. This must be Soulful's acid dropping nephew.

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  60. ya sound so tense ukan i hope i didnt make ya mad i hate to upset my friends makes me very sad

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  61. tldr

    keep it short reader

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  62. "If your friend, who hears this story, tells you you are gifted in hurting people veiled in sugar, is that not what Eden talks of?"

    Um... what? That whole story made me dizzy.

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  63. It as if the Regulars shit don't stink and the trolls do.

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  64. As for the post: Way too fucking long.

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  65. You are delusional tom if you think anything you said got me mad.

    The only people I know who name themselves after famous people on the internet are teenagers, because they don't have a identity yet, Jason. You always think you are clever because you change the name on the screen. When will you learn. Anyone can do that. It's not what you do it's how you do it. If you can't change get someone out of character you failed. Congratulations on wasting three days to do absolutely nothing.

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  66. @TNP

    "This must be Soulful's acid dropping nephew."

    My nephew is an engineer. Mr. Notable Honey
    Badger-path.

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  67. My wife thought it was interesting. She is a sucker for symbolism. Me, I thought it was boring. Ramblings of a confused drug addict with a identity crisis.

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  68. Jason, you and your muppet alter egos that you juggle are more pathetic than Ami ever was. Harv, lol. Let's not forget Coe-D, the cheap Ukan knockoff. You're going to be in your thirties by the time you lose your virginity -- a dead hooker you strangled after twenty years of pent up rage.

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  69. Only one nephew, and probably a only/oldest child at that?

    I pity your offspring, Soulful.

    You'd enjoy an acid dropping nephew. You live vicariously enough as it is.

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  70. You're going to be in your thirties by the time you lose your virginity -- a dead hooker you strangled after twenty years of pent up rage.

    Ha ha ha.

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  71. LOL i wonder what would happen if i set my cats whiskers on fire

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  72. @TNP

    I pity your mood. Under fed on sadistic supply? Not enough flesh on these poetic bones. Move along.

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  73. I am not a fucking troll. I am a irregular.

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  74. @TNP

    Get ye another creative writing outlet/project.

    Anything in the works?

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  75. My mood is great. I'm content, relaxed, and enjoying myself.

    Someone doesn't have to be in the funk to mess with you, Soulful. You're par for the course for hippy ramblings.

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  76. @Eden

    Plath?

    Your favorite poem or book of poetry?

    Or was it her life which draws you?

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  77. I resent this, in a mighty way.

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  78. Relax, Harv. It is not what you're eatin, but whats eatin you.

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  79. The only thing you resent is your pathetic existence. Everything else is just icing on the shit-cake that is you, Jason.

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  80. @TNP

    I expect more creativity in your messing. Your contentment then has caused you to lose your edge.

    Did I hear between the lines that your are . . . happy?

    You have disappointed me. You were so much more fun when you were going through your existential ramblings. Let my inner hippy throw you some rose petals.

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  81. You created an entire muppet show that fooled none. You've invested time and energy into a fake romantic, a fake crooked cop, and a fake sadist. You're a walking white-washed stereotype who'd rather play in a digital doll house than become something. To end your life would be a mercy to you and your family.

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  82. I'm not going to pretend I understand what he's saying, but I like it.

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  83. I don't need an edge when you're already bleeding. I just need to pick at the wound which is your fragile ego.

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  84. @Wheatley

    Lovecraft, why? The short answer.

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  85. Identify Said People KnaveNovember 21, 2011 at 4:02 PM

    You created an entire muppet show that fooled none. You've invested time and energy into a fake romantic, a fake crooked cop, and a fake sadist. You're a walking white-washed stereotype who'd rather play in a digital doll house than become something. To end your life would be a mercy to you and your family.

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  86. Being an engineer doesn't stop someone from dropping acid.

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  87. I'll try.

    It's the way he unintentionally romanticized the uncaringness of the Universe.

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  88. @TNP

    That was much better. More thought. Even poetic in your own predator way. You have restored my faith.

    Keep writing. You have a gift with language. Especially when you use your emotions.

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  89. Scientists For Dropping AcidNovember 21, 2011 at 4:08 PM

    Yea Mon

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  90. Jason, there is only room on this blog for one puppet show me and me muppet

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  91. @PMS

    Yes, but an engineer would see the logic in experimentation vs. lifestyle.

    Are you studying engineering?

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  92. muppets and puppets make the world go round eh baby

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  93. Puppet and Muppet are Eden.

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  94. I can't believe you almost left me for a fake cop ya ho

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  95. I am not a fucking troll. I have a trust fund.

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  96. @Wheatley

    "It's the way he unintentionally romanticized the uncaringness of the Universe."

    Is that not the purpose behind most works of art and creations of culture?

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  97. I can't heads nor tails of that article? Could someone explain it to me?

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  98. A Muppet is a Muppet, Puppet but you are the only Puppet for this Muppet, Puppet

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  99. I think I just sprang a button, Muppet. look what you do to me!!!!

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  100. Not gonna work, Soulful. Flattery and pseudo-submission will get you nowhere with me.

    You expect to be praised like the false oracle identity you cling to. You're nothing more than a collection of cliche. At least you aren't so delusional that you don't see it. You get off on being the Matriarch of the Ami losers of this world, and scurry meekly around those who see past your bullshit parade.

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  101. I like putting on shows with you Puppet, some people don't get, it or don't want such a thing.

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  102. Like wise Muppet, let the haters, hate

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  103. Christ, we should all stop creating anything because it's all the fucking same, shouldn't we, Soulful?~

    Purpose is an illusion. And how can the purpose of art and culture be to do something unintentionally? Seems a curious way to do anything.

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  104. You get off on being the Matriarch of the Ami losers of this world, and scurry meekly around those who see past your bullshit parade.

    Ha ha ha. Nice one.

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  105. we should make a show, puppet, perform something out of Shakespeare

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  106. what are ya thinking muppet

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  107. "Not gonna work. Flattery and pseudo-submission will get you nowhere with me."

    Geez.

    PMS said it best

    "Christ, we should all stop creating anything because it's all the fucking same."

    Bored of my bullshit parade?

    Fine and dandy.

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  108. "Is that.. of culture."

    Is it? Societies are just a different kind of organism, and cultures are the patterns and conventions that the individual pieces of a society are governed by, and make it differentiate from other societies. Kinda like DNA in us 'regular' organisms. Art is just the different mutations that occur naturally.

    When you say that all art romanticizes our meaningless either means that you're overestimating a lot of artist, or that you mantain a pretty narrow definition of what 'art' is.

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  109. Hamlet would be neat

    "There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so".

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  110. of course yer codependent ass would pick that line, Muppet. PATHETIC

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  111. omg omg POSTMODERN is back! Yays. :)

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  112. Christ, I should've proofread after editing...

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  113. Eden

    I actually saw their documentary it was retarded LOL

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  114. Or is it: 'proofred'?

    Anyway, I tried to formulate some kind of closing argument, but I couldn't focus. There was something coherent forming, but I lost it. That and I'm trying to stop staying up after 12 p.m on school nights...

    It'll have to wait until tomorrow.

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  115. Random Eden.
    I tried to watch this shit a few weeks ago and felt my brain shrinking. They had some hot trash up in there though, I was always a fan of the fupa.

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  116. If you do Romano and Juliet, can I be Romano?

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  117. I loved that movie. Classic West Virginia.

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  118. Frank, Muppet is my Muppet. Last time, she went around your crew, she was all over that cop Buddy of yours.

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  119. Gary is sexy no homo

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  120. **batting eyelashes @ Gary**

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  121. Muppet, get backstage, NOW!

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  122. I rule. I have the trust fund.

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  123. Why do you take everything and everyone so seriously UKan?

    Why you always piggybacking on yesterday's news, TNP?

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  124. Frank, I can't, believe this. Is a Muppet supposed to be this much work?

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  125. Why are you always asking why, Medusa?

    :p

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  126. Frank has not had the best luck in the woman department. Lets ask that stud Gary.

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  127. Frank, dont listen, to Puppet. He is no gem ,to deal with either.

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  128. So I get woken up today by housemate giving updates over the phone to fiance about what large stuffed animals she has surrounding her in bed and in what position they are in. In little girl intonations.

    This seems to be a daily thing.

    He does not seem to mind this.

    I do, because it wakes me up, every time. Makes me want to come here and stab people.

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  129. Making him jealous, keeps him on his toes *giggle*

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  130. You are going to be the death of me Muppet.

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  131. "Makes me want to come here and stab people."

    Why doesn't it make you want to stab her first?

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  132. Why don't you stab the Psyche Forums idiots instead? They're more plentiful and pliable.

    Stop stabbing the ones you love ;( What are you, some kind of psycho?

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  133. Eden, because I live here.

    TNP, because that is waaaaaaayyy too much work. I almost did a few minutes ago, what with the "evolved sociopath" over there and all.

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  134. Evolved sociopath?

    I don't even want to know.

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  135. I can't bear creeping the forum anymore. It's like listening in on a slumber party full of 12 yr old girls.

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  136. Don't knock that Eden, some twelve year old slumber parties get pretty kinky!

    Story time: A couple of weeks ago I was with my new mentor, and we were discussing my history and some of the things I have done in this field I am in. Two of the subjects that came up was knife play and fire. So he asks when involved in knife "play" what techniques did I use. I was confused, I wasn't aware there were techniques, so I told him, "I took the knife, and cut them." He frowns, and asks about fire "play". I stated, "Get a flame, usually a bbq lighter, and place it against their skin." He was obviously disgusted, though he chuckled nervously, and said I am doing it wrong. How else would you play with fire and knives when involving people?

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  137. Yeah, today was the first time I went in a long time, and left after the first click and the word "evolved".

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  138. Lol Piles.

    I think 'play' means more like the thrill of a threat, not the actual following through of the threat. At least not to the point of any real damage.

    Otherwise it's more like "knife job" than "knife play".

    I don't really know, though.

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  139. I would think knife play, would be when you give the victim a knife too. That way they believe they have some small chance.

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  140. "Otherwise it's more like "knife job" than "knife play".

    LOL

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  141. It's boring, tonight. Want to ask Frank a personal question?

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  142. Eden wants to fire play with Frank

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  143. Frank will answer any question you always wanted to know about the manly race.

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  144. flame kissed welts

    stinging bite

    the rising sun ends

    the painful night


    --------------------------------

    crazy beeper

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  145. When were you gelded, Frank?

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  146. What is gelded? Frank is not very educated, TNP.

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  147. No can do, TNP. Franklin may be dumb. No offense, Frank, but he values Little Frankfurt.

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  148. I am NOT a troll. That Frank person stole my identity.

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  149. All this talk about knife play has got me thinking...

    Eden, has anyone ever attacked you with a knife?

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  150. Makes me reminisce, I have had four people come at with me with knives if I remember correctly. Once, there was this crazy pregnant chick who though I was after her man ( I wasn't). Kinda random...

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  151. Jason's kind of cute. For a Nigger.

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  152. So the harv Gary frank opposing identities of one person haven't melded yet into one flat character? Why don't they just come out with it already. They aren't amusing enough to stick around this long... like ukans alter ego. No depth for the sake of entertainment.

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  153. There's this new intern at my work... she's 17. I love young people!

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  154. young people are amazing to me because they're what they are before the issues of their training start to affect their decisions dramatically. they're amazing! All temperament and potential that could go in any direction! I have always loved teens. I want to teach secondary school. Watching people obtaining information to develop them into who they are is amazing.

    UK an, hey fucker, I am not a sucker for symbolism... I am interested in symbolism. As pms said, its like an acid trip... and it very distinctly relates to several archetypes.

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  155. I love you bunny...
    Fyi, the cinnamon rolls were a success!

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  156. and to whichever anonymous posted the synopsis of my emotional breakdown yesterday... you're retarded. That's why people don't let you speak.
    But its OK that you scored so low in reading comprehension.

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  157. You're just butthurt Jason. You lost all credibility so you resort to taking it from others. I've barely made a handful of comments and you're already immitating me.

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  158. regarding this post, one of my favorite things is watching crazy people's minds work. I tell my husband all the time I love watching him function. It fascinates me that each person is merely a stones throw away from another. I can see so many levels of this persons consciousness that adhere to regular social traits, and yet, they're so broken. The connections between his ego and his conscious are broken. The aspects of personalities fly around wildly unbridaled inside his head. You can see where he misfires. There are difficult boundaries unestablished between his conscious and subconcious. Its fascinating. There are so many direct references to symbols, as well. As if he finds it difficult symbolic interpretations from cognitive or conscious thought. I love to watch someones mind work like this

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  159. To separate symbolic interpretations...
    I never tire of watching people like this think, as you can understand so many aspects of how a psyche develops.

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  160. I am not a troll. That fucking Frank person stole my identity.

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  161. You have no identity. And you have no reason to exist here. You're worse than the anonymi. Their ambiguity gives them benefit of the doubt. You amuse yourself... you're inconsequential.

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  162. Lol. Insignificant is the word I was looking for.

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  163. LOL what an asshole you are.

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  164. Harv, don't listen to fluffy cuz i amuse my self all dez time!

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  165. Fluffy can kiss my ass.

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  166. Its not my fault you're trite and dull.

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  167. i only listen, to the voices, in my head fluffy is, not there

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  168. need a pet Missus? im fuzzy

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  169. Missus, you are a retard. You were outed yesterday and kept making hit and misses at Medusa. You're so intimidated by the anonymous because it has you looking over your shoulder. You can't pin point an anonymous and place a label on them so you have no defence against them. And what does this mean, "That's why people don't let you speak." Who are these people? And why are they not allowing others to speak? Furthermore, why are you addressing an anonymous? You've said on numerous occasions that you would not address an anonymous because they were not worth being addressed.

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  170. Harv defines all that is not dull. Only losers would think Harv was dull.

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  171. Harv, you define excitement. Frank is in awe of you, man. Can Frank borrow 50?

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  172. Everyone of Missus paragraphs are trite and dull Harv. It usually starts off as, " Lol. My husband.."

    Or, "Lol. Oooh you're so amusing anonymous. "

    Or, "Lol. Victims, my husband, anonymous, bunny, cinnamon."

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  173. Ukan Name The VictimNovember 21, 2011 at 8:46 PM

    Hehe...We all know the real victim here is Kanney....After her husband almost drove her to suicide...How weak.

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  174. My cinnamon buns are better :-)

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  175. Sure Frank. I love you so much, buddies. Hey, want to go to the Chinks, tomorrow?

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  176. She's jealous cause she hasn't a poetic bone in her body whereas Soulful can at least entertain the idea that she's poetic. Now she's trying to crack Medusa because her crackhead hubby has a bone to pick with her.

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  177. hey medusa will your roomie take it a fuzzy anon

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  178. WE AINT GONNA TAKE YOURS SHIT NO MORE MISSUS

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  179. Ukan Name The VictimNovember 21, 2011 at 8:51 PM

    Kill yourself Kanney...You know you want to....We've played this game before, dear...You'll do anything for you dear old Ukan..

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  180. I am salivating for Chink. What are you going to have? Pork flied rice? We can each get a different dish and dig in to each other.

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  181. People who try too hard to hide their victim status:

    Missus Kanney.
    Zhawq.
    ........

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  182. Holy crud! That's embarrassing! You're on the list with Zhawq, Kanney! Good luck with that..

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  183. Of course, no homo. Frank is homo erectus he he he

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