Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Mask of Sanity: Anna

I was trying to look up something remembered in Hervey Cleckley's "Mask of Sanity" the other day and stumbled upon the hilarious account of the woman Anna.  I especially like his description of his first impressions of her:

There was nothing spectacular about her, but when she came into the office you felt that she merited the attention she at once obtained. She was, you could say without straining a point, rather good-looking, but she was not nearly so good-looking as most women would have to be to make a comparable impression. She spoke in the crisp, fluttery cadence of the British, consistently sounding her "r's" and "ing's" and regularly saying "been" as they do in London. For a girl born and raised in Georgia, such speaking could suggest affectation. Yet it was the very opposite of this quality that contributed a great deal to the pleasing effect she invariably produced on those who met her. Naive has so many inapplicable connotations it is hardly the word to use in reference to this urbane and gracious presence, yet it is difficult to think of our first meeting without that very word coming to mind, with its overtones of freshness, artlessness, and candor.

She had passed her fortieth birthday some months before. Neither her face nor her figure had lost anything worth mentioning. Despite her composure, she gave a distinct impression of energy and playful spontaneity, an impression of vivid youth. In response to ordinary questions about her activities and interests she spoke of tennis, riding, and reading. More specific inquiry brought out opinions on Hamlet's essential conflict, comparison between the music of Brahms and the music of Shostakovitch, an impressive criticism of Schopenhauer's views on women, and several pertinent references to The Brothers Karamazov. She expressed opinions on current affairs that seemed to make excellent sense and talked with wit about the cyclic changes in feminine clothes and the implications of atomic physics for the future. What she had to say was particularly interesting and she said it in just the opposite of all those many ways of talking that people call "making conversation."

As discussion progressed, the picture of a rather remarkable woman became more and more distinct. Here was evidence of high intelligence and of considerable learning without discernible bookishness or consciousness of being "an intellectual." Her manner suggested wide interest, fresh and contagious enthusiasms, and a taste for living that reached out toward all healthy experience. Having a cup of coffee with her or weeding a garden would somehow take on a special quality of fun and delightfulness. Something about her over and beyond her looks prompted the estimate that she would be very likely to elicit romantic impulses, strong sensual inclinations, from most men who encountered her. Here, it seemed, was natural taste without a shadow of posed estheticism, urbanity without blunting of response to the simplest of joys, integrity and good ethical sense with the very opposite of everything that could be called priggish or smug. She showed nothing to suggest she meant to give such an impression or that she had any thought as to how she seemed.

I've never read Mask of Sanity all the way through, only read snippets, but I have actually been enjoying it more recently.  I probably like it best out of all of the books about sociopath.  It is glaringly anecdotal, biased, and suffers from a pretty clear lack of objective, systematic research, but so is this blog, and there is something about his writing style that I enjoy. I like the Anna story because you can tell that he was taken in by her, and I think it is sometimes much better to see source material of people who are taken in rather than hear the same old "superficially charming."  I like the description of her idiosyncrasies: the accent, her artlessness, her eternal youthfulness, her attractiveness that seems to be something more than mere beauty, her intelligence, her charm, even a reference to the Brothers Karamazov (interestingly, later it discusses how she does not have the high brow tastes or prejudices of the typical "intellectual" of her education and breeding, but treats gossip magazines with the same interest as the music of Russian composers).  Later in the chapter on Anna, Cleckley tells how she quite sincerely taught Sunday Schoolvolunteered for the Red Cross, and engaged in haphazard same sex liaisons, one time with a nurse after being universally adored during a hospital stay ("Once while hospitalized for a week or ten days, she left the almost universal impression of being a delightful patient. Courteous, composed, undemanding, and cheerful, she took discomforts and minor pains in a way that elicited admiration.").  It reminded me of my own nearly identical experience charming all hospital staff without meaning to  while stuck there for a week after an appendectomy -- I was a crowd favorite, was called very "brave" and had random nurses ask me to keep in touch.

About this season every year I have a period of introspection and self doubt.  Sometimes I wonder if I believing I am a sociopath is a self-fulfilling prophecy, or distorts the way I see me in the world.  Recently I've been questioning again what I am doing writing this blog or believing that I am a sociopath, whatever that means.  I watch myself interact with others and think, is this what a sociopath would do?  Have I been living a lie these past few years?  It just seems like such a bizarre thing to believe this about oneself, bizarre even to believe that sociopaths exist and aren't just some random assortment of personality traits that occur together solely by chance.  I am sure I never will stop asking myself these questions, but when I read stories like Anna's and see all of the incredible parallels to my own life, including small details or other things I couldn't have known or whose existence in my life predate any awareness of what the term "sociopath" meant, I am just floored.  It's not necessarily the life I would have chosen for myself given an infinite number of options and I sometimes wonder at the improbability of who I am, who I turned out to be, but I really am ok with it.  More than ok, I'm happy.

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  1. And I agree. Loved this anecdote, it makes me think of me in several ways.

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    1. And the last part of todays blog post about having doubts was rather good :)

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  2. I'm glad you're happy M.E.

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    1. If you're anonymous why did you bother to mention that? ...Moreover, why did I bother mentioning this anonymously or at all? o.0 ...Both are pointless I guess and I get annoyed reading pointless things so, like a hypocrite, I added to the annoyance and got tangential as well! Whohoo

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  3. Beautiful writing, ME. Someone as soulful as you could not be a sociopath imo.

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  4. Makes no sense ^

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  5. How to Heal a PDJune 26, 2012 at 4:38 AM

    If someone can fuck with you, they are your teacher. Learn the lesson until the time comes when they can't fuck with you anymore, as you don't care( or very little, as we all are human and will have some level of caring)

    It would be nice if you could sanitize the world with only people who love you, but that would exist in a padded cell, and not even there.

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    1. "that would exist in a padded cell, and not even there"

      What?

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    2. I mean, you can't escape people who hate you, are jealous of you, or just want to be an asshole. You have to be strong *SIGH* I get it

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  6. I posted on the forum, it does seem there is a problem with posts on here. They vanish after you post, but appear the next day. Anyone else have this issue ? Wonder what it could be ?

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  7. Jose ? Where did you go ? I need entertainment...

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  8. @M.E.
    Your last sentence is the most important, and that is that you're fine with the life you live.

    Btw there's no absolute definition of sociopathy, it's not emperical science. Nevertheless I still doubt that you're a sociopath, as I wrote a couple of days ago. You can't go around telling to your surroundings that "you're a sociopath", unless you present it like some rather harmless but a bit nasty characteristic.

    Even Hare's 'without conscience' is biased as the book you mentioned in today's post (which I read for +/- 70%). Hare writes that not all socio/psychopaths are murderers, but serial killers and people acting deranged are about the only characters he writes about in his book.

    Nevertheless his Checklist is interesting and I still think it's an interesting tool to have a serious indication for socio/psychopathy.

    I myself can say that I score about 32 points on the Hare Checklist so far, and that's based on a self-diagnosis done as objective as possible as one can be about oneself.

    I can assure you that when you honestly score 32 on the Checklist, you can't go around telling your friends that you're a sociopath. I don't kill people, but I left so many ruines behind me (and still are making them with much joy) that someone like me has to wear masks the whole time, keeping people at a distance because I have so much to hide, living 'at least' a double life ...

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    1. You're just another asshole, you aren't a socio, just a fucked up wannabe. Shut up, bitch.

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  9. "Sometimes I wonder if I believing I am a sociopath is a self-fulfilling prophecy"

    You are COMPLETELY ful of shit. You are nowhere near a socio. You might be a bitch though. Socio can't feel happiness - duh.

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    1. Finger, what do you come here for?

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  10. Is that right, Finger, socio's can not feel happiness or "Be
    Happy?"

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  11. I wonder, too, why M.E bothers to write a blog at this point.
    Few people actually seems to be influenced by it - or so it seems through the comments. I've been on and off here for some time now... more consistently the last half year or because I stopped doing all my "research" at the library and so I noticed the decline all the more, which is frustrating to many, I assume.

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    1. -Sigh- Please excuse the typos. I can't log in so I can't delete it and fix it. . .

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    2. I found it this year and it has helped me. I needed some serious insight on sociopathy. Apart for turning me into an obssessive compulsive for a while LOL

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  12. I must say, I do wonder why finger bothers to write comments at all, as experience would surely show him tht very few take him seriously and the points he makes are based on the biased view of, not even what a sociopath is, but what a psychopath is. And I'd rather not cause discussion on the similairities/differences there are between the two.

    I would have to disagree with Bright eyes on the pointlessness of this blog. It is true, that there are few who are influenced shown in comments but then again, good chunk of them are full of angst, or are obvious trolls. I think Bright Eyes, that a good majority of socio's or NT's don't comment on this, why would they, because just looking at the forums, the amount of shooting people down is incredulous. Why bother writing when your views are probalbly going to be ignored? (this is a hypothetical postulation as I am aware I am doing this exact thing). Some may also just enjoy the spectacle of petty bickering and view themselves above it all, thus eliminating the need to participate in commenting.

    This is of course merely speculation, unless there is a bar added to this site to show how many people have viewed, and how many people hve commented, any hope of even starting an objective view of this sites influence on people is utterly futile

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    1. I think I recognize those overly long sencentes... Where have I seen them before??

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    2. Hence the "so it seems."

      ...I felt the silly urge to re-address the stupid comments because at one point, years ago, the people like that would be mocked so it would stop and the "insightful" comments would still occur and people would actually make responses worth reading.
      At a pretty steady rate - the trolls are taking over.
      Your speculation is spot on.

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    3. You sound like a fucking rambling alcoholic, shut up.

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    4. Which person this is?! Hence tells me nothing :(

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    5. Finger is one of the most prescient people on here. Go Finger.

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    6. Years ago this place was a cirlce jerk of psuedo intellectuals who sat around exchanging ideas about nihilism and Nietzche. Everyone sounded like Jose Javier. It was one big mental masturbation festival that had nothing to do with psychopathy at all. Just philosophy students trying to be edgey. They all got pushed out of here because when it came down to it they were a bunch of nerds waiting to get bullied. All that manipulation they claimed they had was of not.

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    7. Nothing much has changed, but now there are a few sociopaths that linger long enough to fuck with them... despite themselves people learn more from the emotions the regulars bring out than they probably have from anyone they ever loved or who loved them... most of them are just not strong enough to learn it so they deny and run away. And to deny they use the exact same arguments as others before them.

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    8. Anyone who discusses philosophy or wonder what's going on in their minds or iin other people's minds are not always pseuding or mentally marturbating. Some people can't avoid wondernig, and that is good.

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  13. I've never cared if M.E. was a sociopath or not. This place has been great because of the people it has attracted here at the end of the day. In the years being here there has been very very very few sociopaths, but they all left their mark. The rest have been so much fun to interact with. Borderlines, narcissists, people with aspergers, depressed losers, bipolar people, and of course victims.

    This place transformed into something. People would wonder if they were a sociopath and get dropped into a shark tank where psychopaths and other callous individuals are at each other's throats and people would have to use charisma and skills in manipulation to stay above water. I remember one guy, Randy (Luke), said that there was no way we could figure out who he was just by talking to him on here. A week later all of the regulars were competing in who could find more information on this guy and what they would do with it. He ended up leaving because his family was being attacked by people here. That was all because he lied to us.

    There's a graveyard of delusions shattered in the comment section. A lot of people have discovered something about themselves here. Rarely has it been that they were a sociopath, but they found how they fit into the world regardless. Some people have followed this blog for years just for entertainment.

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    1. Nice story (I mean it) :)
      But I really don't see the shark tank here, what could possibly go wrong in a comment section as long as you have your own opinion? :|

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    2. Maybe we can all turn on you and show you.

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  14. I never doubted I was a sociopath from the minute I read the definition. Before I would call people like me "manipulators" and I would run into them now and again in my line of work. That's how I defined myself. A manipulator.

    It wasn't just the manipulation, it was the destruction that I've caused and the violence. The life I lead and lead for others has never been inside the boundaries of law. It didn't start anywhere and it has never ended. My whole life has been me and trouble on the rise or plummeting taking everyone around me with me. I guess it was easier for me not to doubt because the demonized version of the psychopath that they write about in books is me.

    They say that therapy never helped psychopaths and I can see why that is. This blog stepped me into third person where I can see outside myself at who I really am absent of delusions. Did I pull myself into the right side of the law? No. I became even better at breaking it.

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  15. "Rarely has it been that they were a sociopath, but they found how they fit into the world regardless."

    You ain't a sociopath either, you're just a punk.

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    1. "I never doubted I was a sociopath from the minute I read the definition."

      Same was with me, but I decided that I'm not smart enough, started studying sociopathy and came here. The main factor that got me confused was that the chance of being a sociopath is very very low :/ (not many people are sociopaths).

      I don't know if anything you write is true, but I really like your writting style! Keep it up! :)

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    2. Punk Laugh My Fucking Ass Off and Leave it On the Sidewalk

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    3. Bollocks Mee. You not only doubted yourself you told us you figured out you were not a sociopath and deleted the comment, and came back and said you are now sure you are. This is a daily ritual for you. Self doubt. I think that it may be a ritual you have been involved with your entire life.

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    4. Mee is a young man, UKan. So fucking what, if he is trying to figure out who he is?

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    5. Shutup you cunt, nobody asked for your opinion. You come here day after day talking about improvement but all I see from you is the same weak victim sniveling around trying desperately to get some sympathy. You thought the other day people were sticking up for you which I just laughed at. People weren't sticking up for you. They were talking about how you failed, because not one person on here would have just laid down like you and became a victim.

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    6. Why, oh why did I deleted it, actually just because I thought that Kany's comment was good enough to end that story. And I almost talked about sociopathy in reality, but I didn't, because I was accused of many sociopathic things anyway. Plus you once told me that people can write anything here and I once told you something, you called gold. Well my point of view haven't changed since then, so you would really save your time if you would stop fucking with me. And I had already noticed that old sociopathic wolves are too cool to let newbies to share the name. Furthermore, ignoring the fact that I really look like I am desperate to be sure about who I am, I also know, that labels won't change anything. And I don't want to change anything.

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    7. I know who I am, but I'm searching for words to describe it.

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    8. You don't know who you are you are a confused kid trying to belong somewhere in the world and that's the truth. You told me you manipulate people. Without effort you have been manipulated by this very blog. You don't influence people you get influenced.

      I think you have an idealized vision of psychopaths. The lot of us who have been here for a while are not all psychopaths thats what you don't understand. There's no cool wolf clique that you think exists. That being said, the people who came in here that were psychopaths didn't waste time. They left a mark. Devestating victims, creating a following, and playing games with people's heads. None of them left a self description because they didn't care. They didn't even try to influence people, but they did anyway on accident. Even if they were just terrible people. Look at Misanthrope. He was a good example.

      When I see someone say:


      What Am I?

      Manipulative: Check
      No Emotions: Check
      No Empathy: Check
      No Conscious: Check

      I only manipulate people for good and I only think bad thoughts but I forever struggle with urges to do "bad" things to people. However, I only do "Bad" things to bad people because I follow the code of Harry. So what am I guys?


      When I see that in it's various forms I think confused idiot who is a ready made punching bag. You are one of those various forms Mee.

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    9. Why the fuck do you try to fit into someone else's static definition? Be your fucking self, let yourself grow and change dynamically, let the world suck on it for awhile. I'm pretty sure you will learn, that, if you act socio and fuck someone over and get your ass beat down pathetically, then you'll probably start showing some "pseudo-compassion" eventually. The "Socio" label is someone else's retarded invention.

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    10. Well, Mee is not letting YOU punch him, so you best re-think your dogma.

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    11. who are the sociopaths on here ukan ?

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    12. Dont try to define yourself, especially according to someone's bullshit. Try to feel the best you can feel without harming the undeserving, and you will grow and change dynamically for the best.

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    13. In my opinion Post Modern, Extremity, Raven, Piles, and this guy Misanthrope who no longer comes here. Im missing someone on this list, but I can't get their name off the top of my head. There are some people that have been here for half a year Im not sure about yet, but maybe. I think it's interesting that many people on the blog gravitate towards these individuals despite how obviously they are not playing with a full deck.

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    14. what about medusa ?

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    15. The only thing "socio" means is that the individual can't feel any emotions at all, not all the other shit people try to include under "socio".

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    16. and michael michel martin

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    17. You are going the wrong way UKan :)
      I manipulate people for *my* good and because that's how *I* interract. I do various things to all the people, becasuse that's what I do. And I don't have a Harry's code, but I know what kind of actions I should avoid, because if I won't, I'll be sent to a place, that I imagine as a place, there I shouldn't be, even though I know that being there, getting food and doing nothing is not so bad after all. And I give into them anyway, but I try to be caucious. I haven't idealized anything and I called you old sociopathic (+narcissistic) wolf because of how you act. However I am an idiot to respond, but I always try to finish what I started.

      Finger, I will be myself, whatever the fuck I will do :)

      Monica, sorry, but I am not amused by your bullshit. I only see you as a person, who tries to hide behind a stronger character and, as it seems, others had rejected you. Do you really need a friendly figure here so badly?

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    18. "You don't know who you are you are a confused kid trying to belong somewhere in the world and that's the truth."

      Seriously?

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    19. "Finger, I will be myself, whatever the fuck I will do :)"

      Grow into your best self, not the fucked up one.

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    20. But only you decide what your best self is.

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    21. No, Mee, I don't need a friend but I do form bonds with people, as that is how I am. I have formed bonds with SW people, which I still have. However, if someone doesn't want to form a bond with me, I move on.

      There are lots of wonderful people in this world and I open myself to those possibilities, wherever I may be, here included.

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    22. Velcome to the shark tankJune 26, 2012 at 1:01 PM

      The water's lovely. And they take all the hard skin off so you're baby-smooth :)

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    23. I never thought tnp was. Martin michael might be. I'm not sure about people who haven't been here long like I said. Whatever is up with Martin I think he's a twisted individual.

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    24. Raven and Piles? No..there's a difference between a sociopath and what you think is cool

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    25. I can no longer understand you :|

      Finger, by grow the best self you mean tailor myself, which means change my act, which doesn't change me..? And what if I like myself the way I am? Honestly this seems weird.
      The strange thing is that you seem to be caring, finger, what have they done to you?

      UKan, it's bollocks! I mean, isn't this "belonging" only a thing then a lost prince from a fairytale finds a place where he belongs, therefore feels okay? Then I think that I belong where I am and I will belong in any other place too. Well I am not happy and not sad about it, I simply am alive, what more could I need? So what do you mean by saying "You don't know who you are you are a confused kid trying to belong somewhere in the world and that's the truth."?

      Also, acording to your writting about psychopaths, you wouldn't be here too. I am here, because I like the atmosphere of this place. What about you?

      It would be nice if our savior from above would care to give her/his faithful servant one more sign, because right now I still believe that I am a sociopath. Well I am, what else can I say. I will not try to explain my actions to you anyway, because the only reason behind this I can come up with is that I saw a comment section and couldn't help myself but to write something and since I never liked internet chats, I thought that you could give me more input on sociopathy.

      Well I'm a little bit sleepy, so I'll read this all again later :3

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    26. And I almost forgot to mention, that 1:01 PM sounded nice and cosy for some reason (?!) :)

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    27. So let me get this straight, Mee... You've always know you were a sociopath, and yet you came here for like a month or two straight, asking for people to help you figure out if you were a sociopath or not?

      Here a little helper-outer for you (just for future reference)sociopath don't look for validation about who they are. They think they know better than anyone else, anyway. If you knew what you were from the start... you would never have come here asking.

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    28. It's complicated :p

      If I wouldn't think that I'm a sociopath, I wouldn't even be here.

      Yes, I really asked people their opinion about me, why shouldn't I? Just to make an impresion, that I know better? What would I gain from that? More input... no! :)

      To add, I know that all people are different and all socios are different too, so it's really interesting to see how you guys think, it's like a new, undiscovered playground for me.

      And sometimes I like to hear what others can say if they are talking about a subjet I like/am interested.

      Also, I would do more to prove this, but I see no gain from it. Visit a shrink, share more stories, just because then some online blog character UKan (don't get this wrong, I don't say that you shouldn't do what you do) would believe that I have a label of some kind? Pathetic, only a week person with no self-esteem would seek for a validation so badly. I can chat, share and so on, but there are limits :)

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    29. Also, thank you, Mee. I will fake it till I make it.

      :)

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    30. I manipulate people to make them think I care about them. Sometimes I do it too much and sometimes not enough, I think. It is not a joyride to be so very self aware, but I never feel like anyone's bitch.

      I do not feel this is delusional or like a wannabee sociopath, or anything in particular.

      sometimes I even think I am an uber-empath lol.

      I was just reading about them and the relationship if any they have to bpd.

      i just feel like I should smoke more dope but the more I smoke the more I am in circles.

      This place is nice for relief of the brain spinning.

      I come for Themes's horns.

      That ok with everyone here?

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    31. Velcome to the shark tank, L O L !

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    32. CEO sociopathworldJune 27, 2012 at 5:47 AM

      Will someone make this cunt their bitch, for fuckssake?

      Zoe? You have those socio dimples. Get to work.

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    33. Grrr Fake Monica
      Don't blame me for all these fakes, for God's sake.

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    34. I don't feel like a wanabee too :)
      -Mee

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    35. "Finger, by grow the best self you mean tailor myself, which means change my act, which doesn't change me..? And what if I like myself the way I am? Honestly this seems weird.
      The strange thing is that you seem to be caring, finger, what have they done to you?"

      Socios are fucking cads, and I'd rather be dead then one of them. I mean that, if you are willing to do whatever the fuck you want, long as you dont harm the undeserving, fucking do it, your way, slap fuckheads out of the way at every turn, take shit from NO ONE, not your fucking boss, NO ONE, bow to NOTHING, NO ONE, nor figments of GOD, and take fucking control, by beating ass any way, AND ALL THE WAY you need to. Though, to do this, you might have to "tailor" yourself into a fucking precision instrument. Your main goal is to pleasure, enjoyment, and happiness near and long term. So what the fuck is stopping you? Maybe you have some points or areas in your psyche, that are a source of vulnerability, or consternation, that are getting in the way. You do your best to fix those, and then go for the goal just mentioned. Of course, if you do this over time, you WILL grow into the power that you want to be.

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  16. I live and I love. It is amazing life because now, I accept that there are people in this world who represent the dark and evil, and it is not my place to fix them; it's a huge load off me. If you try to con me, I will cut you dead. And I largely know when you are trying to con me. I
    no longer have empathy for everyone in the world. I have learned to be discriminating. Nor, in the present, do I want to perpetuate the drama of having been victimized by this sort.

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  17. "no longer have empathy for everyone in the world."

    Good post. Most people are garbage.

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  18. Most people are garbage: fat, ugly, stupid, and think they aren't, slow, and socio.

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  19. It's interesting when people contradict themselves on the same page within a few hours.

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  20. I think their are a lot of cluster B type personalities that come here, and they idealize psychopath/sociopath as the strongest and best on the spectrum, cluster B should be considered the "psychopathic" spectrum, but there is a DEFINITE demarcation that separates psychopaths from the rest, its tiny, but its totally there.

    I have studied someone first hand for years, at time I've been back and forth as to whether or not they are a real socio, and even though I've come to the conclusion they are borderline/narcissist, there are A LOT of commonalities. I think the extremeness is the main thing that distinguishes the "real deal" from the "weaker wannabes." Its clear that ME is a weaker wannabe, sociopath is not a "professionally" recognized or accredited term, it seems like sociopaths are something of covert malignant narcissists.

    Anyway, just to share my theory, I think we are facing a species wide neurological retardation, and its like a tree, the more severe, the more it looks like psychopathy. But its a dendritic shape so you don't always get psychopathy, sometimes you branch out and get something like OCD instead, or maybe a little bit of bi polar or schizo- disorders. People eat like crap, breathe toxins in all day, participate in a maladaptive society and social interactions are often maladaptive, and ofcourse people are not getting the nutrition they need. If one thinks the human species can live such a dysfunctional existence and not become spiritually/mentally/emotionally/physically/physiologically/ etc. fucked up from it, one is a obviously a retard afflicted by this disease!

    A good book that fits in with this theory is "Left in the Dark" by Tony Right. Its left brain./right brain theory of the brain and says that our brain has been retarded, our left side has become more retarded and it is has become the dominant side even though the right side may be the side that is supposed to be dominant. Psychopaths seem to possess more indications of being left brainers, but because the retardation, its still dysfunctional. For example, I've seen a lot of psychopathic people use faulty logic, they are seen as logical but it is actually a pseudo-logic that is defective, so its that TYPE of thinking but its faulty.

    People think it has to do with genes, but the truth is that certain genes are either active or inactive based on different environmental factors, like diet. Genes have been described as seeds, you can plant them but that doesn't mean they will grow, they need the right conditions. A psychopathic person may have more primitive genes, they may be more inclined to seek status and domination, but the expression, or over-expression of these genes could be psychopathic while the more functional expression of the genes may be possible if given the right conditions.

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      I highly recommend the book "Left in the Dark" it basically discusses the massive impact of diet on our biological system. If you only eat raw fruits and vegetables, you notice a HUGE change in your experience. I'm sure someone will try to accuse me of proselytizing like an alcoholic or drug addict would to anyone suggests a clean lifestyle is superior, but I just want to propose an interesting theory that I see as being very legitimate and very worth exploring. I'd LOVE to see what would happen to a psychopath put on a fruits and veggies ONLY diet, my guess would be that a decrease in aggression and impulsivity would occur.

      Think about the potential damage that generational nutritional deficiencies could have on an animal, the brain could become malformed or less formed due to a lack of proper building materials. Try building a house with paper walls instead of bricks, that basically what people are doing by eating nutritionally dead foods.

      Also, ukan seems to be the only active psychopath on here lately, you other posers are pathetic and I can feel it like I can feel the disgusting qualities of real life narcissists, its like their emotional aura contains toxic muck that one can sense. A psychopath doesn't really feel like anything, which makes them incredibly mysterious and interesting if not magnetically attractive, its like being sucked into a black hole, you just think "Hmmm, there appears to be nothing, but that can't be so! Lets investigate!" and then all you hear is *SLURP* as you are devoured.

      Monica has the disgusting sensation of a victim who continues to create their own victimhood, its just as icky as the narcissist but in a different way, its like horse shit and cow shit. I've lost empathy for these people because they often make others around them suffer in the same way an intentionally malignant person would, plus any empathy or sympathy towards them is a waste and they seem to be emotional/energy vampires who feed off it, and I refuse to willingly let others vamp me.

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    2. You hate all those people. Who do you like?

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    3. It is pretty fucked up how fucking complicated all you fuckers up in here make things. You are essentially undefined, so don't be thinking around and around in circles trying to define yourself, it's impossible.

      Life is pretty simple

      Have pleasure, enjoyment, happiness, and make money too, anything at all you want, without harming the undeserving. If you have trouble with this, fix it the best you can. Socio can't do this, they can't feel any emotions.

      If someone fucks you over, drop them from your ife for good.

      Duh.

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    4. 127, I like myself, my dog-friend, nature, and thats about it. I don't like humans, and I don't like that I don't like humans, but I blame them for that.

      "I don't like any of you!"
      "why??"
      "Because you are shallow and uninteresting, you have negative qualities and not many positive ones, and I'm not convinced you are a areal person, I think you might be fake and I may be stuck in a virtual reality/matrix"

      I'm at least 90% sure I'm stuck in "the matrix" but I don't know how/don't have the resources to get out. Can you blame me for thinking this way? Look at the world honestly and objectively, and tell me its not fucked up and dysfunctional on a GRAND scale. At the very least, modern techno-society can be seen as the matrix and the jungle the real world, and no its not that easy to move back to the jungle/nature which is constantly being destroyed.

      Finger, money? Really? This is the type of shallowness that I'm talking about. You're nothing but a crass narcissist and a wannabe cult leader...

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    5. I like money, and always will. I like having scum like you serve me at the local fast food shit holes, bitch.

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    6. Finger, you are a first class loser that wouldn't be able to get a job at a fast food shit hole. Even they have a minimum IQ requirement. People like you who have to wear a helmet and adult diapers aren't eligible.
      Your weakness and stupidity are the reason that sociopaths always fucked with you. You can't see a way to stop getting your ass reamed so you are putting on this brave act to make yourself feel better. Nobody is buying it.
      This is why you are so bitter and spend all your time hanging around a sociopath blog being a retard and trying to redefine sociopaths to suit your needs. Are you Jose?

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    7. I like to kick wannabe bitch loser socios like you around, as I've already mentioned before, you fucking faggot.

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    8. Finger has style.

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    9. Name one person on here that your retarded ramblings have had any impact upon. Besides making them roll their eyes or laugh at you, that is. You have never kicked anybody around in your life. You just pretend to be strong and brave to cope with the fact that you are a pathetic bitch who gets fucked with by everyone, but never fights back unless it's from the safety of your computer. How very sad.

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    10. You are a stupid fuck, that is all I can say. You're fucking "diagnosis" is wacked as I beat ass.

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    11. Look out, we have a BADASS over here!

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    12. I fucking love Finger. Y-E-S.

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    13. Yes he does. He has that special style that clings to so many. Homophobic, blind narcissism, feigned indifference but real ignorance, coupled with inability to shut the fuck up. Non-rewarding career. Not to mention a shitty car. They told you that you could be anything you wanted. Now you know they fucking lied and it hurts. Congrats finger, you are an average American.

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    14. You love Finger? Are you Monica and missing your mum fingerbanging you?

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    15. No, I just love me some Finger.

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    16. Themes, Finger needs a song. Get on it, GURL.

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    17. Homophobic = gay. For me bitches asses, pussy, and tits are just too juicy and nice to be fucking gay. I just can't do the gay thing, even if I tried, I would hate it, unlike you, who really are completely fucking gay, so shut the fuck up. Narcissism = a little bitchy fuck = you, again. Ignorance disguised as indifference = Low IQ = you, again, obviously. The car and the career things I could care less about, I do my own shit, right now, I don't follow the gay-ass rules you and your co-workers do, I do my own thing, and that is to make MAJOR FUCKING CASH.

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    18. Just realized Finger must be Jewish. No worries, there are many here it seems.

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    19. Kill me for asking, but why Jewish?

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    20. Yo finger, you stink at your use of your/you're.

      Hint : If you're an a-hole an you know it clap your hands.

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    21. There's a difference between playing at victimhood and being a victim. One has to be able to explore what is might be like to be a PerPEtual victim, really get behind the eyes of one.

      Is my opinion. Mine is all that matters.

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    22. Go "Monica" GURL

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    23. Jesus had issues, he was obviously psychotic, and a narcissist, the good thing about him was he was defiant, just like homos, blatantly defying bullshit rules. He fucked up when he got himself into a heap of trouble and thought god would bail him out. Dead wrong. You got one life, a gift, your time is right now, this moment, and your only goal is pleasure, enjoyment, and happiness, near and short term, so don't let it slip through your fingers, All you fuckers, hoist your fat fucking ass out of your shit-sweat stained recliner, and go after what you really want, if anyone gets in your way, slap them the fuck down, or work around them, and then slap them in the back of the head. Most people need to be slapped, like you.

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    24. Finger, you should go into pastoring.

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    25. You should go into sucking cock.

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    26. Veggie anon, I suggest another diet based on antideppressants. You start seeing things into a different life, and Earth's scum is hidden under the carpet and then everything gets easier. And then you die. It's fucking great.

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  21. UKans the one true sociopath yet he was never even diagnosed?

    You guys are idiots.

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    1. Have you not witnessed his powers in transforming idiots into believing/behaving like that they themselves are sociopaths?

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    2. That must be you saying that Ukan. what powers?Every asswipe here showed up that way.

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    3. You obviously don't pay enough attention to what goes on around here.
      Are you to absorbed with your anger issues?

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    4. What goes on around here?

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    5. Open your eyes.

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    6. If I can't see it now then I won't see it later. Just telling me what I'm not seeing.

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    7. UKan is not the only one here that people follow like disciples. People are blind because they want to be.

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    8. If your not on the level to see, you never will.
      It is not my place to tell you anything more.

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    9. I might be able to see if you had anything to show me, but you don't. You don't have anything to back your claim. Keep your dumb opinions to yourself.

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    10. No I don't praise myself with anonymous accounts you idiot. I don't need to.

      I didn't come on this site to prove I'm a psychopath. I came on here to fuck with peoples heads.

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    11. Oh, but do tell us what it is you're seeing, anonymous. I'd love to hear all about UKan's powers of persuasion. I'm sure you already have a list of these people as well. Let's hear all about these mindless followers. Why keep such wisdom in the dark?

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    12. "People are blind because they want to be."

      Not all people are blind because they want to be. Some of them are just plain stupid.

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    13. I'd like the list too. I didn't know I had a cult.

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    14. hahaha! You have a cult, and apparently I have a fan club, some anonymous stalkers, and Curious.
      Marry me anyway, Alia! :D

      Back in NM, I had a friend who called me "The Cult of Eden". It was his pet title for me after I started my first blog. I even re-named my blog that... and no one was even offended by it. They thought it was awesome!

      What I thought was interesting about the whole phenomenon, was the fact that my posts were so arrogant, cocky, and grossly self-absorbed. No one cared about that either. The more twisted the posts, the more they ate it up.

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    15. That blog you deleted just recently?

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    16. No. It was the very first blog I ever wrote. That was back in 2006. Before that, I rarely ever used the internet. haha! Look at me now!

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    17. If there is a cult of ukan followers I'm cool with it. As long as all I have to do to stay in power is sit on someone elses blog verbally abusing people and humiliating them.

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    18. I guess i should of added a ~ to the end of my 7.26 post. lol

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    19. You got my fucking hopes up anonymous.

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    20. UKan Cult i VateJune 27, 2012 at 9:29 AM

      I have my own cult following wherever I go. I don't seek it. It comes to me.

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  22. Theme for Finger by request from my fans

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  23. No one cares about your gay Themes you dirty cunt!

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  24. Bunch of wankers trying to prove they are sociopaths. Pathetic. Who cares? Everyone is fucked up in one way or another... what makes you more special ?

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    1. My tits have eyes instead of nipples.

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    2. I watched Tom Cruise bite off a whore's nipple last night.

      Is this what happened to you?

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    3. LOL Anon 5:47

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    4. Is that from Interview?

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  25. I found this interesting http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2011/02/110209105556.htm

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    1. Yes, very. In my experience, diet/"nutritional supplements" can effect testosterone levels.

      Get off the socio diet, peeps. Eat ur carbs and stop being retards with small dicks and fat necks.

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    2. For Anon's interest, I eat a raw diet. You can't make a theory about stuff or some victim will come along and prove it wrong.

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  26. Is anyone else reminded of john malkovich by me?

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    1. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=82GUjPConiE&feature=related

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      DAMN that is good. I kept thinking one of those guys was UKan.

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      Hahahaha!! You made my day.

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    4. ^^^^ We have our own fun clique

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  28. Monica's Friends CliqueJune 27, 2012 at 8:52 AM

    No UKan allowed.

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  29. You're not a victim Monica. You are the most cunning person here. I'm on to your strategy... :b

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  30. R.E.S:P:E:C:T to Me a.k.a Greeneyes

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  31. If you eat a raw diet make sure its low fat and you eat enough otherwise you'll fail. That article is interesting (6:15), Tony Right (Author of "Left in the Dark") mentions testosterone and its retarding effects on the brain and how men suffer more from the neurological retardation. Humans are really only suited to eat large amounts of fruit and certain types of greens. If you can't eat it in its natural state and enjoy it and make a meal of it, its probably not human food.

    Eat like a retard, become a retard. As finger indicated, they eat fast food, its easy to see the results. "ME" once said they were made of mostly cheeseburgers, and I've noticed a lot of sociopathic people eat like crap and are big meat eaters.

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    1. Big meat companies are trying to stamp out empathy so they can eradicate vegans!

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    2. ^^^^^^ Best comment here, anon 1259.

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