Saturday, September 17, 2011

Why I started the blog, and why I continue

The percentage of my personality that my disorder represents is not actually that significant (does anyone walk around thinking "I'm a sociopath" besides fictional character Dexter?). Maybe it's 15%? What do I mean by that? Well, if I was a jigsaw puzzle, let's say, and the puzzle was a small deserted island, the kind that you always see in political style cartoons with two guys stranded on a desert island with a lone palm tree, then maybe the sociopathy is the lone palm tree. It is not the defining feature of the puzzle, although it is part of the defining feature. And how many pieces are devoted to the palm tree? Maybe about 15%. Some of those pieces are completely palm tree, and some of those pieces are mainly island and just a little bit of palm tree, or mostly sky and just a small sliver of palm frond. Add up all those percentages of palm tree against the total picture, though, and you have approximately 15% palm tree.

When I write on this particular blog I almost always write about the palm tree. Sometimes the piece is entirely palm tree. Sometimes there is just a sliver of palm tree, mostly something else. And every one in a while I will talk about the island and sky, inasmuch as I think they inform qualities about the palm tree.

Taking the analogy just a little further, if I think of my life as the process of assembling this jigsaw puzzle (understanding who I am), I tend to focus on one area until I reach an impasse, then focus on another. Or I focus one one part until another part compels my attention. When I first started this blog, I had just been fired from a very high profile and lucrative job for behavior that I believe stems from my more sociopathic characteristics. I had just had several relationships end on very poor terms, isolating me from many more sub relationships. I was having problems with my family, with my personal life, my work life had just gone to hell. I started looking for answers, so became re-interested in a casual diagnosis a friend had made of me years before as a sociopath. As I started doing some browsing of what was out there in terms of basic information, I was appalled that all of it reeked of a particular bias. I saw an opportunity for offering a different perspective that coincided with my own interests at the time, so I started the blog.

This was the not the only time of deep self-introspection for me. My first prolonged one was at University the first time my life really went completely to hell. I didn't have the label sociopath at the time to identify with, but after a long period of unflinching honesty and self-analysis I knew that I was a very manipulative, cunning person, who was unable to connect to anyone on more than a superficial level, obsessed with power, and willing to do anything to get ahead, among other things. To the extent that those things were negatively impacting my life, I tried to tame and control them.

The pattern here is this: I am doing fine, great actually, I get carried away and my life goes to hell, I take a step back and look at who I am, I gradually get better until I am doing fine, then great. Right now I am right at the point of doing great. I've had a couple of recent professional coups and all other parts of my life are growing and expanding. I'm less interested in the palm tree because that's not where the action is. Then again, part of me believes that the reason why I am doing so well is that the blog forces me to constantly consider those potentially destructive aspects of my personality -- to not get caught up in the here and now that I lose sight of the big picture. In an effort to stay focused on that, I'm both going to continue to write new material that I find interesting, but will also repost some older posts that I like and think deserve more attention.

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  1. "does anyone walk around thinking "I'm a sociopath" besides fictional character Dexter?"

    uhhhhh, you?

    are you a part time sociopath, ME?

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  2. The aware sociopath doesn't have much of a choice but to walk around thinking about it. The artificial exterior he displays serves as a constant reminder to him. Every interaction is a reality check.

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  3. The last two sentences made me lol, because they make pretty clear what this post is all about.

    Nevertheless, it would be interesting to compare the comment section today with the one from the past.

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  4. Sometimes I'll have little blips on the radar during the day when I realize I'm being sociopathic. This has of course been post-realization. Before then, it was more a matter of, why are people reacting strangely? Did I do something off?

    You have some good blogs in the archives, but not a bunch. Personal taste, I guess, but my favorite articles are on theory/speculation, and also studies that show(ed) advancements in understanding psychopathy, like the high/low functioning article correlating to brain hemisphere size.

    You do have some classics though, like how to spot a sociopath, et cetera. Not really that old, but definitely good.

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  6. To some the blog is a playground, to other's it's a valuable resource.

    It will be interesting to see the choices that are made by the posters today. Some will be from the original ones. Funny thing I've noticed is the ones that take it more seriously are not taken serious.

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  7. This post doesn't make much sense. In the end sociopathy is just another personality type. I don't consider it part of my personality I consider my personality sociopathic.

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  9. To qualify for a personality disorder, the traits must be constant in your life. For the narcissist, he is constantly self absorbed and seeking narcissistic supply, every time he is awake.

    For the psychopath, they are constantly breaking the norms of society, that doesn't mean they are robbing banks, it could be bullying a younger brother or a parent or downloading child pornography.

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  10. "The aware sociopath doesn't have much of a choice but to walk around thinking about it. The artificial exterior he displays serves as a constant reminder to him. Every interaction is a reality check."

    That's true, but he doesn't have the shame and grief to make him want to change, if anything he will become more manipulative, by learning from the mistakes of other sociopaths, but again sociopaths are notorious for landing themselves in trouble, time after time.

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  11. Its not true. It's so easy to be fake with people out there that I forget myself. Actually telling the truth is a reality check.

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  14. deve is ur laugh and smile fake? do you have a weird snakey smile?

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  16. The irony is that all the ones that are fake in public hate the fake in others.
    And when someone is truthful on the blog about themselves their told how pathitic they are.

    Another thing socio's do in their manipulation is to get someone to act a certain way for them that would normally be against their nature and despise them for it, your always acting.

    It's no win for anyone.

    Do you all have contempt for the one that wants to understand you?

    I think Ukan's wife shows that there is a benifit to having someone who you can be real with. But how would you know since you seem to judge and want to transform everyone that comes into your lives?

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  17. what a boring and pointless story, david. -_-

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  18. http://www.chimpout.com/forum/imagehosting/6674ab1822a339fb.jpg

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  20. There are no sociopaths on here. Not even the blog writer. It's a big show that a lot of retarded empaths are falling for, thinking they're learning how they really work.
    There are no doctors coming here to comment or sending questions in to M.E. That right there shows this place is not even taken serious by the pros. People who come here are the lost generations who live life out online. Someday they'll be diagnosing people with Facebook PD.

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  23. go to hell erin god doesn't want haters

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  24. you don't even leave your house erin. who are these people you hating on?

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  25. @Anon 6:44
    My parents and father of my sons.


    I am wondering something.I have noticed several people with ASPD and BPD say that they think they are evil. I have seen it about 10 times,now.
    My mother told me that she thought she was a monster.

    I am thinking that this distortion may be at the root of it.

    It is a distortion because no one is really evil.

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  26. i don''t really car erin

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  27. @Tik 6.03
    I wonder if you try to understand and accept sociopathic types it makes them feel frustrated, confused and less in control. That is then what drives them to want to destroy. I am still learning though.

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  28. Anon.6:04. 6:56

    You need a enema, something apparently crawled up your ass.

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  29. I like to think of Sociopathy as sort of a necessary evil. If you take into account M.E.'s palm tree analogy, you can think of society as the sands that border the ocean, and the sociopaths as the Palm trees. People take cover under us for shade, and we repay them back by draining up resources.

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  30. Nothing crawled up my ass, Fuck Face.

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  31. http://home.comcast.net/~pobrien48/Control_freaks.htm

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  32. "People take cover under us for shade, and we repay them back by draining up resources."

    people drain resources more than palm trees fuck face

    stupid analogy

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  33. I guess you have never been to the beach anon. Do you live on the beach by any chance? Do you go through the process of photosynthesis?

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  34. @ Coe-D

    Your discription could also be likend to leaches.

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  35. Tik, I guess you and anon don't know what 'necessary evil' is.Must I teach a class full of ignorant kids?

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  36. I think that when ASPD came about as a result of abuse, this is what may have happened.

    The person blocks off his weak side. He vows to never be weak ,again, cuz weakness was what got him the abuse. He WAS weak as a child and so weakness did get him abused.

    So, he casts off the any weakness in himself. As a result, when he sees it in others, he goes crazy; wild and uncontrollable crazy because things do not stay pushed down.

    It can't happen. They will come out,one way or another.

    That explains why Ukan would do something like that to Zwhaq and not stop until Zwhaq is destroyed, to the best of Ukan's ability.

    Ukan enjoys it and feels justified in doing it.

    To an empath, this is way over the top. An empath is not pushing away the "weak" part of themselves.

    I think this is what happened.

    Now, to the BPD, other things happened and they chose,unconsciously, to deal with it, in other ways.

    To the dissassociated person, such as me, other things happened and they chose to deal with it differently.

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  37. Yes Teacher Coe-D. teach away.

    I'm all yours.

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  38. Erin you are incorrect. According to your theory, empaths embrace weakness, and people without a conscious are not weak. You implicitly called yourself weak as well.

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  39. @Coe-D
    I don't understand what you are saying.

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  40. If you're coming to a blog about personality anything very regularly, you're going to be more aware of your own personality in terms of what's discussed there.

    If you're writing a blog on a very specific kind of personality, and posting something every day; I would think that it would monopolize every blog in some way, unless you don't have enough material, or it doesn't come natural enough.

    An expert on a subject, who has made a career of it, probably wouldn't stray much from the bigger picture... but on the same coin, they might not try to post a new blog up every single day, for an entire year... every year.

    In that respect, ME does a very good job. It takes a lot of self discipline to commit to something like that, when "disordered". Most would have already abandoned this project by now.

    I would have for sure. ;)

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  41. Erin, basically by saying that people with empathy consider 'pushing away' the weak part of themselves as over the top, and that people without empathy willingly push away their weakness, you called yourself weak.

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  43. @ Erin
    you cmme to this place expecting truth ? Big mistake.

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  44. Co-D

    is that short for co-dependent?

    you did not understand M.E.'s analogy. he wasn't saying that sociopathy is like a palm tree on a beach. he was saying that he sometimes only writes about a smaller part of the sociopathy picture, instead of the whole picture.

    stupid

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  46. "Comorbidity is extremely common in individuals with Antisocial Personality Disorder. As the person gets older, the APD typically wanes to some extent, and it is common for anxiety disorders, depression and other mood disorders to develop. Additionally, the extensive substance abuse of many persons with this disorder contribute to the development of secondary illnesses."

    I've been wondering about this M.E.
    Just started reading your blog and haven't had time to see your old material. Have you written about sociopaths who develop other disorders, or mental illness as a result of lifestyle? Might be fun to dig into. Like the alcoholic sociopath, or the sociopath who becomes OCD.

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  47. that's because you're a dip shit, co-dependent.

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  48. I believe the correct term is "dipshit", not "dip shit". The ironic thing is that you claim that I am ineffectual, yet you cannot even spell.

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  49. Coe-D-1
    Anon-0

    u fail anon.

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  50. i can spell "boring"

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  51. Dipshit is a slang word, so it doesn't matter how you spell it since slang terms are not considered standard language.
    If you think about it, slang is used to mock language, or abuse it to some extent, so to say that you have to spell it one set way, shows how ridiculous anyone who tries to correct it really is.

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  52. -and I will add that it shows just how much they care about rules. what sociopath cares about the rules?

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  53. Ok anon, since you want to get even more technical, "dip" modifies the noun "shit" when used as "dip shit". It makes no sense unless you put the hyphen between it, or learn to spell the slang word correctly. Now stop wasting my time.

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  54. @Erin
    Your use of grammar is very unusual, and would be even for someone who's illiterate. Did you have trouble understanding your reading assignments in school?

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  55. -which shows even more so, how much the rules matter to you. I don't think you're anymore a sociopath than erin is.

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  56. I think there's just a bunch of geeks coming here who feel weak, and want to feel strong. As sociopath doesn't care about spelling or grammar, anymore than he cares for the other man-made rules.
    You're just a geek, who plays shit like D&D, and cries when his character gets killed, like the only good thing about you, died with it. (:

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  57. No, I just used the rules to make you look stupid, and now you are doing my job for me. Keep it going, this is great.

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  58. "and now you are doing my job for me"

    That's a common cop out used on here.
    When someone knows they don't have it in them to win a debate, they use a cop out to make the other person doubt their own words.
    So I'll just be taking your cop out, as your way of saying that you no longer know how to argue the point.

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  59. Now you're using the cop-out, Anon.

    And correct grammar and punctuation makes you look smarter, I'd care about things like that if I were you. Duh~.

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  60. And what is the point? That I am not a sociopath because I took an opportunity to correct your grammar? Just give up. You cannot beat me.

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  61. That's my point thought Wheatley. You're a geek, not a sociopath. You care about looking smart. Why would a sociopath care about how they look on a sociopath blog?

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  62. -Now watch all the geeks come out of the woodwork, to defend their title.
    I win. (:

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  63. I am smart, that is a fact I cannot help. I naturally ridicule those who are dumber then me, like you anon. I just can't help it, and the fact that you are desperately trying to defend yourself shows me how insecure you are.

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  64. p.s. I was not the anon who misspelled the word in the first place. I just saw an opportunity for debate, and took it.

    College does a body good. (:

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  65. You saw an opportunity to lose a debate and you took it. College obviously didn't work for you. You are still a loser.

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  66. So what think you SW?

    Do sociopaths care about the rules? Do they care about spelling and grammar? Do they care about how they appear on a blog designed for them?

    It's a valid question.

    I don't think they do. I think only self-conscious nerdy types do.

    UKan and Misanthrope make spelling and grammar mistakes all the time, but I think they're smart as shit, and they don't stop to correct someone's spelling, in order to gain the upper hand.

    I think they are real sociopaths, and you guys are a bunch of hipsters. (:

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  68. But I'm not interested in looking smart, Anon. I'm interested in accurately representing myself here, and learning about myself through interaction with others. So I try to present myself here as genuine as possible. IRL I care about grammar and punctuation, so pretending not to to look more sociopathic would be counterproductive.

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  69. This is what this place is about though Erin. It's about whether or not you're a sociopath.
    No one cares about the posts. They come here to prove or defend their title, and disprove what everyone else claims to be.

    So why not debate the concept of proper English, and what kind of personality would concern themselves with it the most?

    English is the most pompous language ever written. It has as many rules as religion, and is as hard to learn as the King James version of the Bible.

    So if you're a big rule breaker, why would you be so careful not to bend the rules of this pompous language?

    It's a valid debate.

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  70. "Are we getting so devoid of interesting stuff, here, that we have to fight about grammar?"


    That's what happens when the sociopaths are away and you just have a gang of nerds.

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  71. Anon. I personally do not care about spelling or grammar. I don't even care about you. The fact that you needed to compare yourself to UKan, or Misanthrope, shows how incapable you are. You think Mis and Ukan are smart as hell, and yet you let someone like me point out your stupidity. You hold them both in higher regard, and I basically took a piss on you. You are a moron, and you should never bother to make an account here, you would get run off like the rest.

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  72. I didn't compare myself to UKan. I am not the one claiming to be a a sociopath, but you are. So that's why I'm asking the question. Are you really a sociopath, or just another nerd?

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  73. Defend yourselves nerds!!!! Do it!!! lol

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  74. You implied that UKan and Misanthrope were the only two sociopaths on SW. Your words exactly:

    "UKan and Misanthrope make spelling and grammar mistakes all the time(sic).

    I think they are real sociopaths, and you guys are a bunch of hipsters. (: "

    By your standard, anything not UKan or Mis, is a fake. That makes you a fake as well. I guess that also makes you a "nerd".

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  75. Misspelling wrds makes you look cooler.

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  76. I AM a nerd! lol Never said I wasn't.
    Look back at my posts and try to find where I said what I am, or am not.
    Why do you think I posed the question in the first place.

    I'm just of the opinion that the ones who spend all their time correcting everyone on here like a professor would, are not really sociopaths. I think they're nerds, like me! (;

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  77. Anyway, I'm off to a party. And Anon? You should make an account, I like you.

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  78. Hey thank Wheatley! I like you too lol

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  79. Where did MANIA GO!!!!!!?

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  80. Anon, now you are accrediting me with the title of "professor". I am quite honored. If UKan and Mis are 'smart as shit' and I am a 'professor', that must make you one dumbass nerd.

    I like you to anon. If you make an account, I could run you off just as easily.

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  81. Oh Coe-D

    I wasn't even talking to you anymore. I was using you to have a fun debate with Wheatley. I adore Wheatley.
    I think he is the professor type, not you. You don't even care about spelling and grammar; you're words exactly:
    What kind of professor wouldn't care about that? lol (:

    I win again.

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  82. Now you just contradicted yourself.

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  83. No silly sociopath.
    You just didn't understand the rules. I was just using your remarks to get Wheatley out here to play with me. I was never addressing you to begin with!

    Good day to you sir.

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  84. Why would I care about the rules if I didn't understand them. I am not a sociopath because I follow grammatical rules remember? I think you are trying to use wheatly as your cop-out.

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  85. i like the idea of an SW retrospective. there are some good posts out there.

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  86. You've got it a bit off, tik. The people who come here aren't always very open because of personally identifiable information and the possibility of some of what we say being potentially used against us later in real life. It's got nothing to do with worrying about looking weak usually. Showing vulnerability and honesty here as a sociopath serves it's purpose quite a bit more than lying about important things. You should also take into consideration delivery. You can tell a truth twenty different ways in the shade of deception.

    How have you been, tik? You've been absent for a while.

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  87. @David

    your story got me thinking, and this isn't directed at you personally but... if empaths can behave like assholes, then can't sociopaths behave like ones too? where is the difference between asshole behaviour and sociopath behaviour? and if there is no difference, then isn't a sociopath just an asshole?

    i think the behaviour you describe is not sociopathic or at least not exclusive to sociopaths. one of the risks of labelling yourself as one is that you no longer are accountable for your actions - even to yourself. you can write off any stupid thing you do as something that you can't help, instead of assessing whether it will serve your ultimate goal (whatever that is).

    i've been pressed for time and behaved like an entitled bitch too when being served, then calmed down instantly when the behaviour produced results. this to me isn't sociopathic as much as infantile. it's also behaviour supported by modern society that teaches us all to be greedy entitled little bitches and consume whatever is in our path. i'm sure your sales girl has seen behaviour like that many times before. :)

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  88. And you showed your own vulnerability TNP when you not only failed to 'expose' Eden, but got thrashed by almost every regular here. You once had a purpose, and you blew it because you were incompetent. No matter how hard you try, you will never be anywhere close to important here.

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  89. "Morselllll. Oh Moooorselllll...

    "What? Who's calling me?

    "Come her, little morsel, I have a compliment for you.

    "Ohh, compliments! I feeds on them. Yes, yes, I'll come to you.

    MUNCH

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  90. Oh... Oh no! I won't? That's..... Horrible! Because I so desperately care about being important here.~

    As fas as Eden goes, she's a mother that's not proud or loving of her daughter, she fantasizes about being a whore, and she'll do almost anything for attention and support, including asking people who don't even read her blogs (the ones she deleted, after triumphantly commenting on how she would never delete a blog) to subscribe to help her out.

    Let's not forget the part where she hints that she wished her daughter was dead. You know, her toddler.

    I guess some people have different thresholds on what exposure counts for, and there's only so much you can expose when the dumbass gives you their real name and is an open book. Then it becomes a game of sifting through inconsistencies, lies, and hypocrisy.

    We know Eden wishes she was a whore (and can't even pull that off). We know she wishes her daughter was gone or dead and is ashamed to even mention her. We know she's deleted multiple blogs due to no one reading the damn thing. As far as I'm concerned, that's good enough for now.

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  91. http://www.who.int

    Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders

    Psychology was invented because men wants to understand himself, thus creating what we know today as philosophy.
    If you analyse one person you will only understand what ideas and opinions that person holds to actually understand people in general you've to analyse the whole of man kind.
    Ask yourself the questions no one else asks why was this book invented? What went through the minds of the people who wrote it?
    You will only find yourself following the ideas of others not questioning not wondering not doing a thing.
    Why would an anti-social personality try to understand others? To fit or take to advantage? Or is it something else? But what would it be?
    After all people are people no matter what their personality is or what kind of brain deficiencies they have. We are all capable.

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  92. @TNP
    You are gonna have to do better than that
    Waiting...............

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  93. TNP, I in no way wanted to imply you were weak but that your one of the few who take the time time to give an answer to the pots in an honest way.

    Also I had certain people in mind that post on here to make themselves feel important and imposing when others do give insight.

    I'm sorry to see summer end, it's been hectic. Shoot me an e-mail so the self proclaimed bored ones on here won't have to deal with any personal chit chat.

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  94. And you tried to draw attention to yourself TNP, by threatening to "expose" her. You thought that everybody was going to rally behind you and cheer for you, instead you ended up looking like a fool, a jackal, an idiot. You thought you were going to be important, it really mattered to you because you tried so hard to show Eden for the 'whore' she was. Even your most valiant efforts failed. You are a failure, and you will never be able to beat Eden in anything.

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  95. "if there is no difference, then isn't a sociopath just an asshole?"

    An asshole is bad, a sociopath is evil.

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  97. TNP, why just a few days you ago you boasted about having some information that was going to 'expose' Eden. Where is the information now? When did that suddenly change? All you are doing is regurgitating information that she put up publicly. I mean all you did was try to insult Eden, and you couldn't even do that. You try and continue to try to be Notable, and you even suck at that. You shouldn't be so transparent if you are impersonating Not able.

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  98. does it socio or does it gossip girls?

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  100. Uploading empathy at 1Gb hopefully Erin will get the file.

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  101. TNP

    Are you trying to expose me as Casey Anthony? Where are you getting this idea that I want to kill my child from?

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  102. He is taking shots in the air because he has nothing else to go on. The only thing he can do now is redundantly spew the same shit, like an annoying parrot. It's a form of an internet temper tantrum.

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  103. You can only bring someone down if that person has inflated himself.
    If that person is not lying to himself, you have no power.

    Eden has no mask for you to pull off and expose.
    She is what she is.

    You are out of luck, Buddy.

    Go to the shooting range and get your aggression out with some blanks.

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  104. SW-13
    TNP-0

    TNP fails so bad.

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  105. You're transparent Eden. Your own self boasting and protection here is laughable. You're expecting me to believe people will come to your defense on a sociopath website? That's pretty funny. They'd do it out of spite or for laughs, if anything. No one here thinks you're strong, and you know you aren't.

    At this new "Coe-D" (great name by the way, have you left your white suburban mother's house yet?) I'm not pulling anything out of thin air. She knows what I'm talking about. If she doesn't, that's even better. I love it when they forget their lies...

    It's great to know I didn't break you, Eden. You sound like you're doing fantastic, what with your anonymous army. You're just proving how pathetic you really are. You need to lie to have people support you to feel better about yourself. That's incredibly sad.

    Are you going to bring back those blogs you deleted that you would never delete? From the popularity of your current blog, and the content, I wouldn't encourage it. You should probably invest more time in raising your daughter instead of playing tough girl and fake sociopath online. Autumn needs a mother, not someone who lives in a fantasy land. Then again, a Narcissist like yourself probably wouldn't grasp such a concept without some help, let alone utilize it.

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  106. You suck, TNP
    Go step on an ant

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  107. You know TNP, for someone with a name like mine, I seem to be doing a lot better than you. Random people are even calling you fail, that says volumes. You go as far as to even resort to hypocrisy, how dare you call Eden a liar, and you lie about having top secret information to expose her. As soon as you expose Eden, people might begin taking you seriously again.

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  108. TNP's Foreign ShrinkSeptember 17, 2011 at 12:49 PM

    Shrink says: TNP why you put down woman you no know 'cept in computer?

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  109. A new persona pops up and the first thing it does is correct grammar, has anonymous cheerleaders who say things like this

    Anonymous said...

    Coe-D-1
    Anon-0

    u fail anon.

    Which someone's been trying to do to me since I pissed in Eden's cheerios, oh, and low and behold, antagonize me AND defend Eden

    What a coincidence! Someone has a big crush on her :) That is soooooo cute. Was it her picture where she looks like a meth head that enthralled you, or her charm? Hahahaha

    That would be rich. She actually thought she had support from people when its probably been a horny Internet White Knight.

    This is so rich. I love it. HAHAHA!! I need to stop smoking, the laughing is going to kill me.

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  110. TNP's Foreign ShrinkSeptember 17, 2011 at 12:53 PM

    Why you no pick on man like Ukan and Mis, strong mans?

    You afraid of strong mans, TNP?

    You know you are Beta male, TNP!!



    You are whiny baby.

    That will be 100 in American dollares.
    Gracious and Beaunas Noches

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  111. You seem to be the one with the crush on Eden.You have been trying for days to tell us all how awful she is, and we still haven't gotten the message. It just goes in through one ear and out through the other. It seems you have an even bigger crush on Notable. It was funny at first, but now I think you are just a disgrace to what it means to be Not Able. You are the trash the lines the bottom of the bag. Not even trash. Give up.

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  112. "I am smart, that is a fact I cannot help."-Coe-D

    Alright, Alright, Coe-D.... Nice name by the way.... This place doesn't need another person whose gonna pick fights with anons about grammar. It's white noise. You're taking up too much god damn space when people could be talking about something real. Why are you wedging yourself into TNP and Eden's conflict? You seem to think that everything you say is some golden observation that everyone needs to hear. You're correcting the grammar of anons and then proclaiming that you're smart and you can't help it. Fucking look at yourself... gees.


    For david.... I read hare too, (without conscious) and while it was entertaining, I'm surprised that you felt it was a very accurate description as it applied to yourself... or i think that's what you said at least... explain more if you want. And being rude and then nice to costumer service people is something that many many people do. Especially here in mmmerica

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  113. About today's post.... I'm not a huge fan of lame ass analogies. I almost feel that M.E. is joking around or something. Either that or it is a response to the people here doubting his/her socio status.... hmm.

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  114. This place doesn't need another attention whore like Erin, Sexpuppy. Your name is Golden. I butcher people like you, people who willingly degrade themselves. People like you cry and jump when I poke and trudge around into your insecurities, it's great fun.

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  115. Go eat Cheerio's and fart

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  116. Okay.

    First, show me where I call myself a sociopath.

    I believe that more than once, I've denied that I am... even when being accused on here.

    Then, show me boasting about myself. I come on here and play... and laugh... and joke about my own nature... That's not boasting, and being honest about it, is just that; me being honest. Knowing that I'm a tough girl, doesn't make me a narcissist.

    Next, I have talked about being a mother on here more than once. Just not to you.

    Why would I talk to you about motherhood. A self proclaimed sociopath.

    Idiot.

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  117. You butcher people like sexpuppy and it's great fun? HAHAHAHA

    Look at you, killer. You're here for your frist day and you're already playing Internet White Knight while trying to juggle badass sociopath.

    You should just delete your profile and start over later on. Better luck next time, champ.

    Eden, I'm not going to do your own work for you. If you want to defend yourself, do it yourself. Feel free to ride the heels of your socio e-boyfriend. Or maybe, it's a girl? Oh, forbidden love. Look at me, I'm getting all emotional.~

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  118. oh... and I never said I don't delete blogs. I said I don't delete my poetry no matter how bad people may say it is.

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  119. TNP's Foreign ShrinkSeptember 17, 2011 at 1:45 PM

    TNP
    You 'fraid of organ music?

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  120. TNP

    What are you talking about? I've not ask a single person to defend me. They probably don't even like me. They just hate you more, and so they're using your beef with me, to have more fun with you.

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  121. Haha TNP, all you did was basically prove that I have more balls then you. You see, unlike you, I stick to my word. I never say stuff and then withdraw it. I have no fear, that's why I made this account in the first place. I don't care what people think about me. I am not some pathetic sap like you, who has to use someone else's name to post. That alone shows what kind of caliber you are made out of.

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  122. I actually expected to be attacked by a lot of women hating people, once you went after me... but it didn't happen.

    What has been interesting is that you attacked me about a day or so, after I made that little joke to you... do you remember? The one about how even with my good memory, I forgot someone... and told you, that you could be Mr. Fingers, in out little porn production?

    You acted all pissy about that. Went on some weird rant about the role you'd really being playing.

    Why can't you just admit that it got to you? For once there was a big commotion going on around here that was just about fucking around and laughing, but no one thought to mention you.

    It was a dull day. I wanted to stir up some fun. People on here were having a good time. It was about sex... it carried over to the next day, which was also a slow one.

    It was never about who I am... it was about having some fun when no one was saying anything on the thread. Why is that so disgusting to you?

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  123. TNP's Foreign ShrinkSeptember 17, 2011 at 1:59 PM

    In our last session, you said you love woman in computer.

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  124. Anyone who bothered to give enough emotional investment into hatred for me is just another idiot I got worked up.

    I especially like your cop-out answer, it sounds just like Bella/TN when she said that she didn't have a shitty blog, and her defense was not agreeing with fecal matter being part of its description after denying she had one.

    Oh, little Eden (well, not her fat face at least) is trying to cover up her lies. Don't worry, kid, no one, including myself, is trying to bully you out of here. It's all for fun. You're just another victim who wants to play with their ex abusers. Enjoy the attention.

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  125. TNP's Foreign ShrinkSeptember 17, 2011 at 2:01 PM

    TNP is afraid of Eden.
    Tnp is Beta male worse than pussy.

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  126. whats ur profile picture coed?

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  127. TNP, you are a delusional moron. Nobody is wasting any time hating you. Nobody is worked up because of you, don't you get it? You have no value. Today just happens to be a slow day, and you are just the entertainment. Don't place anymore value on yourself than you deserve. You are nothing more then a flea crawling on fecal matter. Something that can be squashed at any moment.

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  128. Obviously Coe-D you have been on here under anther name or Anon, you sound just like Ukan and using his same strategies of reputing th same phrases of I win you lose, without any substance to your argument.

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  129. So far TNP

    You have failed at exposing any lies I've told. But it Has been fun playing with you, I must say.

    Because one thing that you have managed to expose, is that I was wrong about what I believed you to be when I first got here.

    I actually believed you were smart and capable.
    Glad you cleared that up for me! Thanks for showing me the error of my ways! lol

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  130. Good People
    Eden
    Tik
    Mania


    Bad People
    Co-D

    Insignificant People
    Sex Puppy

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  131. My profile picture, for people interested is a criminal from batman.

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  132. i've been pressed for time and behaved like an entitled bitch too when being served, then calmed down instantly when the behaviour produced results. this to me isn't sociopathic as much as infantile. it's also behaviour supported by modern society that teaches us all to be greedy entitled little bitches and consume whatever is in our path. i'm sure your sales girl has seen behaviour like that many times before. :)

    This is why I think all pd people, budding or not, need to go get waitering jobs and see what really makes people tick. Grade the waitstaff, grade yourself.


    I had a guy march us over to the bar after the martinis because they turned out to be over $20. He wanted the bartender to "work" for having charged us so much by serving us water and enduring his evil eye. That shit was weird. But you could tell, the bartender had seen it before. He stared right back. I was mortified/amused/entertained.

    What is that? That's some crazy entitlement behavior. What do any of you think about that?

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  133. Why are you guys so worthless? You worship UKan and Mis like Gods, and they do nothing but turn around and attack you all. I find it sickening and revolting. It's like one of those weird masochist sluts who want me to spank them as hard as I can until their cheecks turn red, and they start bleeding internally. It's perverted and weird. It's like they hand out abuse, and you guys lap it up and repay them with worship. I can't stand it.

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  134. another nerd playing pyschopath. go back to ur comics coed u fat nerd. stop playing ukan and get some sunlight. you look like a beached sperm whale. fat pale and sweaty

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  135. Hi,

    You are most likely not a sociopath, my friend.

    In truth you sound more like an emo-kid or any other person trying to blend in.

    Being a sociopath means mimicking others so you can live with society without trying to destroy it.

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  136. haha, watch the blue-jays cry.

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  137. pyschopaths cant feel disgust. ur just a fat angry nerd coed. go back to playing batman

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  138. I think the fact that I pointed out how pathetic most of you on here are, has struck a cord. Nobody said a negative word about me until I swirled around and called everyone cock-sucking sadist-worshiping cunts.

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  139. do you have the first edition plastic wrapped copy of batman anal bash #143 coed? the cover must stained by your nerd sperm

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  140. I,King Ukan Speak
    I am Coe-D
    I am Ukan and Coe-D
    Wrap your minds around dat shit.

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  141. He probably plays World of Warcraft with Zhawq roflmao!

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  142. "pyschopaths cant feel disgust"

    Not true. They can feel all kinds of things. Just like any other beast.
    You guys have just been brainwashed by zwang, and all the others who would have you believe they are not affected by anything, and are invincible.

    Maybe you should start doing some real research and stop believing everything you read here.

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  143. oh zawqng, cum and cuff me you dirty bat ;)

    i cant coed. i dont have enugh for my knee surgery and aspie pills to come play with you :[ i hav to sell my body

    its ok my mums allowance will cover your costs to cum see me

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  145. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-WdfNmQ-c8

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  146. coed is jason acting like ukan acting like the king acting like zwang acting like jason. rap ur head around dat shit

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  147. KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

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  148. if curious little teeny weenys mess with evil they might get hurt

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  149. Ive only been here for less than a day, and people are already trying to figure me out. I haven't even given any details about my life, and I am a fat nerd who reads batman. This is golden.

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  150. i hope i become so infamous that a b grade rapper makes a song about my work.

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  151. dont forget the part where no one likes you coed

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  152. @sexpuppy

    you wrote; "For david.... I read hare too, (without conscious) and while it was entertaining, I'm surprised that you felt it was a very accurate description as it applied to yourself... or i think that's what you said at least... explain more if you want."

    I also read 'without concious', that was a couple of years ago when I started reading about sociopathy on the net and realized that was the definition for my personality.
    As I wrote here before on this blog I send him an e-mail because he says most sociopaths aren't killers and child abusers, but the most cases he talks about in his book are. I just got a reply from his assistent that he was on vacation, he never replied. So I read the book to learn more about sociopathy but I cannot say most he wrote 'applied to myself' as most sociopaths he wrote about were physical abusers and I haven't ever used physical violence until now.

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  153. Coe-D said...
    Ive only been here for less than a day, and people are already trying to figure me out. I haven't even given any details about my life, and I am a fat nerd who reads batman. This is golden.

    September 17, 2011 2:49 PM

    Since ever people analyse each others, is a basic instinct.
    You are forced to. When you dare not to do it, people will look at you like you are a idiot, and they are the cleaver ones. probably they are right, who knows.

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  154. didnt ukan have an old identity called the king? hes very bored or someone is obsessed with copying him. both are sad realisations

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  155. I King Ukan of Ming Dynastry

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  156. Was Saddam hussein a psychopath?

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  157. saddam hussein i don't have idea , but not every people who try a murder are psychopath.

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  158. I, King Ukan have word wisdom you.
    Be good to wife.
    Wife bury with you in tomb.
    Wife nag in Hell.

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  159. I don't know David, maybe the reason why the stuff didn't apply to you is because of the fact that you aren't a sociopath, just a wannabe weirdo who spreads his cheeks for sex addicts all day long.

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  160. What sociopaths eat for breakfast? And what color is their crap? (the last question interests me especially)

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  161. @Coe-D
    Well we all have to make a living, sorry if you have a problem with mine because you're so ugly nobody wants to fuck you without being paid and I remember you of that.

    Bonne nuit to all.

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  162. Psycholoverchick with big titsSeptember 17, 2011 at 3:28 PM

    OMG I love you guys! Do you work out? I like big muscles and bald heads.

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  163. I make a living just fine Dave. The difference between me and you is that you have to sell your body, and I don't have to do shit for anyone. Everything I do is self-serving. If I am ugly, other people obviously don't think so because both males and females hit on me. I have done it so many times I have lost count. I think the reason why you feel you have to prostitute yourself is because you cannot get over the sexual abuse you suffered as a child. You felt helpless when your dad was molesting you, and your mom sat back and did nothing.You are a pathetic chap.

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  164. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yusub0h9vuo&NR=1

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  165. Coe-D
    You are a pimple on David's ass.

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  166. if ukan is sociopath lite and coed is ukan lite what does that make coed?

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  167. from the wasp sadists page -

    "Well to say I was just ur average boy , would be a lie. I'm unique in every way, I have a wicked sense of humour which would be just plane weird to some."

    sociapath? sounds like it.

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  168. hoiw much do you charge to let pimple be popped on ur ass david?

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  169. Coe-D comes out when David has a bowel movement.

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  170. coed
    When I got molested and abused? That must have been the cheap crack prostitute you visited last time and gave you that std. If you think you're gonna analyze me with your cheap and stereotype crap then delete your account and move to some blog for retards where you can score with your inferior intellect.

    You'd be the first to ever put hands on me coed, try it. I'll pepperspray you like a real coward and then smash your head against the wall till your face is unrecognizable. I've fantasized about that many times, maybe you could have the honour to go first.

    If you'll excuse me now, I need to go to sleep.

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  171. Coe-D comes out when David has a bowel movement.

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  172. You know why you fantasize about it Dave? Because that's the only way you could feel good about yourself. You are at the bottom of the chain, so you dream about bashing someone's head into the wall or some shit in order not to dread your existence. That's why you came here in the first place, that's why you do things like drink and smoke. I use to make pocket's full of bills from losers like you. Everyone knows that only weaklings have rape fantasy. Don't ever think for a second I would entertain you, even tho you wish I would. You want me to dominate you just like your father did. It's the only way you could see another male.

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  173. Do sociapaths ever get diarrhea?

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  174. Coe-D is ukan, it's so obvious it's pathetic.

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  175. @Anon 356
    Yes, I just had a shite on Coe-D, it was extremely fluid. I think he looks better now.

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  176. Coe-D is a Smelly LogSeptember 17, 2011 at 3:59 PM

    Coe-D is the log in David's toilet

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  177. I bet you are scared to go to sleep because you have nightmares of your father. Question Dave, why didn't you kill that old perverted fucker? Why did you let him ruin your life? Why are you so pathetic? Why do you let yourself be somebody else's bitch?

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  178. rofl it can't be that obvious

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  179. "Well we all have to make a living, sorry if you have a problem with mine because you're so ugly nobody wants to fuck you without being paid and I remember you of that."

    There it is again: The vanity angle
    TNP uses it, Erin uses it, and David uses it.

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  180. The vanity angle always works hon.

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  181. Coe-D
    You're just a loser with empty pockets who projects his own miserable youth on others. Your trailer trash father beat you up so hard you couldn't stand it anymore and had to run.
    You don't know how it feels how to use other people coed, you only know how it feels to get beaten up. Tell me, who's your boss these days, who's telling you what to do now you're all grown up? Feeling so miserable these days you thought you could have some power over some virtual world, a blog? Feel free to do so, I'm sure you're so desperate you need it.

    I'll give you the last word so you'll feel all empowered for a moment in your miserable existance, for now, I really need to go, I need to feel fresh to fuck and screw some desperate folks like you tomorrow.

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  182. King
    Why you be someone else?

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  183. Without narcissism we'd have a world full of goths.

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  184. and radiohead fans.

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  185. David uses the vanity angle because he has no other angle to use. He as already admitted countless times to being lonely and worthless. If I were lonely and worthless, and told everybody that I was, I would use vanity also. It's his way of saying he lost. Dave, you bring dishonor to every man, and nobody could look you in the eye and respect you. Not even your own father respected you, and he gave you life. You need to just kill yourself. You are a mental case.

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  186. King
    Why you pretend to be other person?
    You be King.
    Would Elvis pretend to be Coe-D?

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  187. it's misanthropes new name. doesn't mean he is hiding.

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  188. Since everyone thinks I am a king. I will change my name according.

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  189. Why did UK-Ann change her name? That's not because I made some UKan accounts in a few homosexual forums, is it?

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  190. YES It is Mis Not KingSeptember 17, 2011 at 4:17 PM

    Coe-D is not King
    It is second King

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