Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Let's play doctor (part 2)

It's been a while since we've had an, "am I a sociopath?" post. I thought this one was interesting. There were several things that I really identified with and other things that I didn't as much (maybe you all can guess which is which), but who knows what that means.


Hey, I've just come across your blog and I relate to your thoughts. I'm a 16 year old sociopath girl. I've always known that I was different from everyone else, and about a year ago someone told me I was a sociopath. I didn't really know what that meant at the time and I spent a lot of time researching it. That person was dead on. I score a 29 on the Hare psychopathy checklist too. The post you had that has a representation of how a sociopath develops from child to adult is extremely accurate, however I only relate to the one about a male, not the one about a female. Let you know this, though: I am a very well-liked and somewhat popular person at my school. I'm sure people realize I'm not quite like them, but they are drawn to me for that reason exactly.

 I am not a violent sociopath, but I am indifferent to violence. I do not truly love anyone although I am attached to some people such as family friends but only for selfish reasons. I think if one of them were to die, i would get over it quickIy. I hate saying "i love you" to my family because I don't LOVE them.

I lie all the time, I enjoy manipulating people, I feel the need to be in control. I do not have empathy of any sort...

However, I've found that I do get angry. Do you get angry? People say that sociopaths don't have any emotions at all, but anger is an emotion.

Also, when you see violent movies or hear about shootings or murders do you feel anything towards the victims? I feel so aloof in my world of other teenagers  because I feel nothing at all. When I heard about the massacre of the children at Sandy Hook elementary school, I didn't care at all. Like at all. Today in my English class we are discussing slavery and before showing us this clip from a movie about the transportation of slaves in the Middle Passage, my teacher said "this is extremely graphic and hard to watch and it's very emotional..." Blah blah blah. When I watched it, the only thing I felt was interest in what would have gone on, I felt nothing for the slaves who were suffering incredibly. Everyone (including the teacher) was like crying and shit and i always find it fucking annoying when people show emotion. It's like this for everything, I only feel extreme interest about violence and crimes. I enjoy reading about all the different stories about all the serial killers and how they went about getting them alone and how they killed them. I would never or could ever do anything violent, but I love to read about it. Do you feel this way?

I am a very high functioning sociopath. I  am very intelligent (125 IQ) and I put on all sorts of masks and know how to behave in all the different social situations. I find it extremely exhausting though. It annoys me to no end and I find myself sometimes just not putting on a mask because its such a low risk situation. I need motivation to act like an empath and when I don't have motivation for something I would gain from acting, I just don't bother. Do you find yourself doing that?

I also am extremely impressionable. When I read a book or watch a movie/tv show where I really like the personality of a character, in the time period in which I like them a lot, I mix their personality with mine. It usually doesn't last long, and I'll find another that I like. People that I've known for a long time never know what I'm going to do or say because I am so impulsive.

Also, I'm attractive and I can have whatever guy I want. The whole game is getting them to like me and chasing them. When I win, and I always do, within a couple months ill get bored and dump them. Ordinary people are just so lame and boring and easy to manipulate.

I get bored so so easily and I have to live my life on the edge without explicitly breaking the rules. I get off on it.

It's a relief to be able to say this all to you because I can't say it to anyone else..

Thoughts?

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    1. playing shrink is more fun (and not over in 2 seconds lol)

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    2. all 16 year old giles are psychopaths just ask men how much power they can weild

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    3. they sould make something like a home selftester for psychopathy
      that thing would sell like hot cakes

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    4. to every one here i get 10% if you make a selftester and make it big

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    5. is your iq selftested2

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    6. how are you at math?
      i'm putting my money on schizoid or aspie
      specialy sinds you never discused annything be being a good girle

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    7. a 16year old girle that can get anny guy she want that is impressive
      call me gain if you still can do that at 80

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    8. everyone knows that giles can't be sociopaths they are called borderline

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    9. i've got some candy for you littel girl

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    10. i always wander if ME lures ppl here to have them be riped to shreds by the animals that live here
      (you to can be a sociopath repsected and feared by all just post on my webside...)

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    11. or if she just makes up these ppl and she's actualy studying us
      o.O O.O O.o

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    12. "i always wander if ME lures ppl here to have them be riped to shreds by the animals that live here"

      Especially cunts like Haven. She explicitly requested more evil.

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    13. Eeevil...!

      Ho0o0oh!

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    14. One does not simply go about requesting Evil.

      They'll definitely need to put an age restriction on Evil.

      'Evil damages your health.'

      'Evil causes cancer.'

      'Evil during pregnancy can
      harm your baby.'

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    1. Yeah. I think creating our own compass helps.

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  3. Lack of identity I suppose.

    I had no idea it took efforts to actually behave in certain ways when you were interacting with people. Unless you're some kind of aspie and fear the next fart that might slip....

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  4. time to administer
    ...THE SPOONTEST....
    (with out warming up the spoon 1st)

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  5. where are you little girl daddy wants to play

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  6. Once it said "I'm a sixteen year old girl," I stopped reading.

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    1. My question to her would be, "Did she have a lot of childhood abuse?" I think that M.E's featured quote would be the case for most PD's. I think all PD's are on the spectrum of dissociation, just different degrees. That is my opinion and I could be wrong, as there is no one definitive,"right" theory out there. You just have to try to formulate your own ideas from your own experience, talking to other people and your own study.

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    2. couldn't have said it better myself.

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  7. Here's a good one: http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2013/01/130122122306.htm

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  8. If you have to ask whether you're a Socio\Psychopath, you're not a Socio\Psychopath.

    Why do these clowns feel the need to be seen by others as 'cold' and 'unfeeling'?
    Running around all day, trying to prove some minor point.

    This place needs an 'Automoted Petting Bot', that gives them all the reassurance that they're looking for here.

    'Who's a bad Sociopath, who's a good, er I mean, bad boy\girl! Now roll over and play dead.'

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    1. Now that I think of it, M.E's using US as his 'Automated Petting Bots'.

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    2. Which reminds me; 'The burden you carry, is the love that you withhold.'

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    3. the burden i carry is the food i bring home from the store (one week's wurth) cople of kilo's

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    4. That's great, hope you bought your veggies, young man.

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    5. 547 If you don't like animals you need SOMEthing to pet. Sheesh.

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    6. I don't think she is trying to make others see that she is unfeeling and cold, but simply trying to understand herself and receive confirmation that she's a sociopath.

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  9. where's the part were you ask the girl to take off there clothes?
    (trust me i'm a doctor)

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    1. and share to pictures/vid with all the perves here?

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  10. How did your appointment go, Ellicit?

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    1. I haven't seen your post yet telling ellicit of your disgust on psychiatrists and how they are as sick as their patients. Why? You lambasted them in the past.

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    2. I am getting humbler ~

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    3. Who is "ellicit"?

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    4. Anon @ 1:47, Ellicit is the "First" poster on this page. She is a long term member and really nice and cool....... She is one of our few "daily posters" here.

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    5. It went well, I think. She had a letter from the shrink who recommended her so had a little background. However, after about 20 mins I thought, This isn't going to work out. Then I thought, Fuck it, I'll cut to the chase. I did and it went really well from there. I realize I can't wait for her to magically divine things. I need to bring them up. She said it will take years, but she is very confident in her methods.

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    6. nice, Good Luck, sincerely. :)

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  11. A fair amount of this sounds painfully typical of a teenage girl. Even if you are a sociopath, you are not entitled to an honest answer from other sociopaths about the matter.

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    1. I disagree.. normal teenage girls do not behave or feel the way this girl is claiming to.

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    2. I used the wording, "a fair amount" for a reason. I didn't say or imply that all of her behaviors/feelings are "normal".

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    3. 1:47......Wasn't that a sweet correction?

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  14. To the 16 year old: I don't see a problem with anything you've described. You're simply not a bleeding heart empath - more power to you. Just because you're a girl doesn't mean you have to cry over babies and news stories and crap. Don't let people tell you otherwise.

    Your desire for control isn't bad, it's just how some people are built. If in a few years you find yourself having problems not screwing people over to the point that you've alienated yourself you'll want to address that obviously, but unless that happens, just enjoy letting guys chase you and being who you are.

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    1. Take your bleeding heart empath remark and shove it. Sideways......

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    2. I would rather be an empath than the Lance Amstrongs of this world, anyday.

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    3. lance is filthy rich and had a rockstar gf ppl hate'm right now but were's the harm in that i would love to be lance (also like sport)

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    4. Rock star gf - he left her when she got cancer

      Filthy rich - he's being sued by 40 people - money will dwindle fast

      Stupid - when on national tv for an interview knowing law suits were pending

      Also, like sport but would honor it in a healthy way

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  15. I'd say to this 16 year old: become a surgeon if you are really smart and unphased by human suffering. People's pain will be your river of money and you'll be considered a hero. You will also get to play God. And, then one day... It'll be your turn to search for God, hopefully not too late. (I use God as a general search for whatever is missing here, not as religious connections)

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  16. Vegitopath is UKan. Knock it off, UKan. If you have something to say, say it.

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    1. You know that was an invitation, right?

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    2. Only an idiot talks to a troll...seriously,why couldn't you have ignored him like everyone else? If you're that gullible you shouldn't be here.

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  22. Who thinks the girl is a sociopath and why?

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    1. she brags a lot. Id think so. ALthough Idk. DO sociopaths brag?? To other sociopaths?? IRL About being sociopaths?? Srsly,

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    2. Well narcs do. My antisocial - MY MY MY MY- antisocial giant narc said how great a "cocksman" he was LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Impotent cocksman lol

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  23. She might be a sociopath. Who knows? It's like asking if someone is a true scotsman. Kudos to anyone that gets the reference. I think our dear poster is likely a borderline, however. My impression lies in the clearly narcissistic undertones to a number of compliments she pays herself, such as on her intelligence and romantic prowess.

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    1. she doesnt say she's a moody little bitch.. ...

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    2. I actually am extremely moody haha just for the record.. -the 16 year old girl

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  24. She sounds like a narcissist, reading the sociopath symptoms and trying to convince herself that it fits because "sociopaths are so cool"
    And she can't get any guy she wants, those guys are 16yo, any decent girl offering them sex will get the same results.

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    1. ^ This. Sociopaths are so fucking cool. That's why I'm one. Seriously.

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    2. I never said in my post that I was offering anyone sex. That isn't true at all actually. I just chase the guy, and soon after he likes me I get bored and then move on. -the 16 year old girl

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    3. Discover how much power a brand new perky set of tits and ass grants you, and you're drunk with power. You're test driving yourself over and over. You'll get bored with yourself soon enough, too.

      -Ur cunty mother

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  25. I am like a parfait ice cream sundae that is layered with the strawberries, whipped cream and pretty cut-out pieces of fruit added, just so. I am one layer, at any given time, but I can slip into the other, in a flash. I can be a tyrant, as sweet as pie, or have selfish, pouting face you want to slap. It is a matter of cycling the layers. If you can do that, you can be happy and you can be sane.

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  26. My worn out self image goes down the drain like swirling water, as you wash your vegetables for dinner. They were a vise-like grip on my testicles(if I had testicles) They gripped me so hard that my voice rang out mezzo soprano.

    When they were not needed to cement me together, they washed away like water on the shoreline eroding the beach, only to come back again, the next day. Hope springs eternal or where there is life, there is hope. One or the other. At any rate, I am being reborn.

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    1. mmmm. testicles, they never dropped. Like a puppy sent to the vet to get "fixed", but doc cannot operate. Cannot find! For, said testicles morph, hide and appear, reappear, and grab onto strong peni STUCK ...in land of Clitori.

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  27. I was just waiting for my imitator You even made the same Capital F which is a mistake. Well, I may have to get an account but we shall see ^^

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  28. Yeah dude, I can definitely relate to your story. I even found humor in some of it, like the part where everyone was crying about the poor slaves, and you were not giving a shit. Don't crying people just look like weeping little weaklings? People in love are just as bad, acting like babies with each other and shit. I would never want to feel like those people, their emotions make them act retarded.

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  29. I feel like reading about myself. Just my IQ is ~120.

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  30. I get a sociopath "vibe" from her. I know what she means about needing to live on the edge. One of my best friends is a sociopath and he is extremely similar.

    The only thing that causes me hesitation is her indifference to violence. But, there are so many types of sociopaths, just as there are many different types of empaths. So, this "abnormality" (if there is such a thing in a case like this) would not make me say she isn't a sociopath. From her comments I definitely wouldn't say shes an empath.

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  31. I think i understand where your coming from, because i share the same characteristics but honestly it was hard for me to be sure i was really a sociopath because we are excellent lairs. So good in fact that i had begun to fool myself until i thought to examine my behaviors and impulses. For example a few months ago back when it was still summer i had thought to go buy a lighter but the elderly lady( LIKE 60'S) REFUSED to sell me one without i.d. and that made me extremely angry to the point that i had planned to set her car on fire using another lighter i had already had just because i cant stand to be told no( the image of her car burning as she runs outside and me slowly walking away saying just loud enough to be heard but far enough away that i could run to avoid law enforcement "Bitch, I can do anything i damn well please its not like you can stop me" . The impulses along with my general Darwinist reasoning, i agree with the majority of social programs instituted by the nazis i dont believe there is any reason to exterminate the jews but the end of all state aid and forced neutering of cripple and mentaly disabled people makes perfect sense to me, i would further justify that point but anyone who thinks similar to me would understand what i mean. The point i was actually making though is that i dont really enjoy dating people who arnt like me, i find myself looking for my counter part in a mate because no one else in my opinion is really good enough to be with. I can get girls that has never been my issue but i cant talk to them, not really because what i actually think scares normal people and if not my thoughts then my actions, I once planted a gram of marijuana on a girl who the previous day had told me ridiculed me in public( i very much dislike being ridiculed especially in front of a group) she almost got expelled and i got a laugh out of the whole thing im also prone to find kids with my handwriting style and erase their names on turned in papers its how i have made it to junior year im 17 btw but i what i think i really want a girl like me one who i share who i really am with and not have to deal with the withdraw and abhorring looks normal people give me when i let them in... thankfully my occasional synical comments are taken as joking usually :)

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  32. Wouldn't saying I love you affirm their innate need to love you, thus making them feel appreciated, and making them more open to suggestion?
    -Chelsea Grin

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