Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Sociopath or not?

From a reader:

Hi, I was wondering if you could give me some kind of answer on whether or not I have sociopathic tendencies? Honestly I'm pretty concerned with my thoughts and emotions and I was hoping you could give me some kind of advice if possible.

I'm a 14 year old female and from a very young age I've been known to be aggressive and both verbally and physically abusive. It has calmed down slightly throughout the years but for a while now I've been having both suicidal and homocidal thoughts. I have no intention with carrying out with the actions but at times they're so overwhelming I get frustrated. I'm no longer in schooling for the moment because of my outbursts and anger, I have no talent for being patient and although I had numerous chances, I was unable to change my behaviour and how I reacted to things. It got to the point where I could barely make it through a whole class.

I've researched the signs and symptoms and I could honestly relate to some. I'm going to point a few things out which I lack and if its decided that they're one of the primary traits of being one, it'll make the rest of this email irrelevant. 

"Animal cruelty" is beyond what I could do. If I were in a situation where I could either choose a human or a dog to live, It'd be the dog all the way. I don't take much interest in animals and it doesn't bother me that most die but there are around 3-4 certain animals I couldn't tolerate dying. I'm rather fond when it comes to the common house pet. With all of that said I still wouldn't mind slaughtering something, maybe even dissecting.

"Lack of empathy", I'd be lying if I said a severe lack of it. I'm to the point where I'm not exactly sure if I lack it or not. I care about my family and would do anything to attempt to prevent danger but I'm not too sure if its love. I recently attended my nan's funeral, of course my eyes got watery but I couldn't cry. I wanted to, I really did considering I looked like a heartless bitch but I couldn't. Over the last two years I've been gradually losing it. 

I believe I'm quite smart, I'm able to spot things that most people couldn't. I've been told numerous times that I'm manipulative but not as straight forward as that. I could change someones opinion within minutes of talking to him/her. Sometimes I get so caught up with thinking about myself that I over see reality and wonder if I'm enabled to some kind of supernatural ability, I believe that I could do many things, anything I want to do. 

I'm just going to run over some things that would possibly be needed to judge and provide your opinion. In the past I've done drugs and have drank alcohol, well whenever I go out. I'm really anti-social, I can't stand being around others for more than an hour at most. The first time I smoked was to try it out, the second time was an attempt to calm down and since I've been smoking. Sometimes I enjoy laying in bed and thinking of ways to end people, to end myself. I've made plans in my head that I couldn't follow through with. Honestly, I'd love to follow through with them but there's things that stop me. Simple things like the outcome of it, wasting away in a cell where I couldn't fulfil my ambitions and become something better then everyone else. I couldn't do it for simple things like that, including what my family would go through because of me.

My old school suggested that I have ADHD, the one after suggested I had some kind of severe anger problem. I often get irritated and angry and when I do I say things that I wouldn't normally say, I take my frustration out on walls and objects in the house and when at my worse I'd lash out without even thinking. 

I'm not too sure what else to say or if you even took time to read this but if you did, thank-you.

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  1. Interesting. I am not positive that I would classify her as a sociopath. My vote would be young teenager of above average intelegence, and hugoungus trust issues. I Think she is to young to tell from her text giving. While reading it if seems more like a cry help and understand, comming from a place of emotion rather than logic. however even though it is to soon to tell if she is a sociopath or not, I would say she would be interesting to study greater length. Perhaps with a litttle bit of help and being pointed in the right direction the truth could come out. To the girl who wrote this message. Patcience is key. You need to tackle that first. Anger and rage are fine to have as long as you can control it. Pacience opens the door to refining your anger and rage to be focased like a laser on your target. It is your inability to control you rage that makes me think you are not a sociopath. A sociopath hides in the shadows planning and biding their time looking for the right moment, not bblunderingabout in the open. I think that t the moment you have sociopathic tendencies but you have yet to refine yourself, mostly because your young. Instead of self hate, and wasting time planning your demise, go on the Internet and study the arts of control, manipulation and how to observe paterns in daily life and people. If you can not learn to control and harness your anger then I would suggest running to a professional for medication, because then you will know you are not a sociopath. Just my opinion and advice.

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    1. "A sociopath hides in the shadows planning and biding their time looking for the right moment, not bblunderingabout in the open" - that is such bullshit. Are you a sociopath or do you know what a sociopath is? They form opinions that explode into anger all the time and it's both in the home and outside. Uncontrollable aggression IS a sure sign of the trait.

      I think there is a strong chance this girl IS a sociopath. Even thought they can't feel much empathy, there are empathic feelings. In fact lots of feelings, but they are more signals producing a very small or no response rather than change your whole behaviour, mindset or life as they do empaths. You might be someone who has not been badly abused as a child and therefore your defence mechanisms are perhaps not as strong. You have those feelings but you don't do the gross shut out and shut down process of a more violent psychopath.

      Those harming urges are about POWER. Something is harming you inside, so you have to harm something else to overcome it. Is there a way you can make some positive associations with these things or people, or at least look at something non-threatening like a botanic garden?

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    2. In response to your question, I'm not too sure. I've came to realise that I either feel aggression towards something or someone or nothing whatsoever. For the past few years I've had no "privilege" to truly feel any other kind of emotion, I can put on a laugh, smile, whatever to satisfy someone to avoid questioning but I feel as though its impossible to feel otherwise. Honestly, its an advantage I'm fond of.

      Thank-you for your opinion.

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    3. Hello Everyone, I am Daniel Steve by name and i live in Texas USA, i will like to talk about the goodness of God in my life after so many months of trying to get a loan on the internet and was been scammed so i became desperate in getting a loan from a legit lender online. But as God would have it, i saw a comment from a friend called William Ken and he talked about this legit loan company where he got his loan fast and easy without any stress so he introduced me to a man called Mr Mason Diego who controls a firm called Diego Loan Company, So i applied for a loan sum of ($170,000.00USD) with low interest rate of 2%, so the loan was approved and deposited into my bank account in less than 48hrs, that was how i was able to get my loan to keep my broken business running and also to pay off my bills so i am advising everyone of you who is interested in getting a loan fast and easy to kindly contact them via email: { diegoloancompany@yahoo.com } to get any kind of loan you need today, thanks as you read the greatest testimony of my life.

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    4. VEGITOPATH MADLY IN LOVEFebruary 4, 2015 at 9:46 PM

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    5. Is Vegitopath vegetarian or empathetic towards veggies? lol

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  2. Borderline Personality Disorder

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  3. Agreed. A sociopath is a wolf in sheep's clothing. That's how they do their
    harm. That doesn't describe her.

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  4. I was really looking forward to the new post on SW but have to say, the "based on these few instances, am I a sociopath?" posts are my least favorite kind.

    First, ME is not a psychologist. Neither are the vast majority of posters here. We can debate how well the instances in a post line up with Cleckley's list, Hare's adaptation, or Dutton's research- but in the end it is just shooting the breeze.

    If we were to take a stab at answering the question, we would have to take all the information provided as true- and are caught in a paradox. If the girl in question is a sociopath, we are forced to accept some or all of her information is likely to be untrue and so her status cannot be validated.

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    1. I'm going to start this off with saying I only sent this to gain replies and opinions of other people. My family has a history of varied mental illness', from depression to my uncle being a "psychopath".. If you'd like to call it a mental illness. The only reason why I came to this site was because there isn't exactly a way for a teenager to ask their parents such question.

      Whilst typing this out I had gone through it numerous times to make sure I was as truthful as possible, which makes it quite accurate. Anyway, I appreciate your comment.

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    2. I agree with HLHaller. You're on the "path path." Don't embrace being a sociopath, yet. Instead, work on becoming rational with a little bit of empathy. Although I enjoy many of the traits that come along with being a sociopath, I recognize that with ignorance comes bliss.

      Ultimately, do whatever the hell you want to do. None of us really care. But your situation is the only thing I'm capable of empathizing with.

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    3. VEGITOPATH MADLY IN LOVEFebruary 4, 2015 at 9:47 PM




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  5. This stuff gets old. As do I.

    Let's see if the terrorists chopped off any heads or burned anyone alive. Aren't we human beings lovely creatures?

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  6. When did just out of teen years begin this insight thing? Seems rather odd.

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  7. Well kid, it sounds to me like you are on the "path path" from what you write. You sound like you have generalized aggression (I can relate - less so as I close in on half a century) and you aren't put off by the usual stuff that can upset your peers (again, I was the same around your age).

    Given your penchant for cigarettes, I wonder if smoking is common in your home? There are some links to aggressive/anti-social behavior as I recall - a genetic effect. Could be another mark in the "for" column. I've managed to break that cycle - I think...

    As has been mentioned - regardless of your "pathology," getting your impulses under control will be the thing that will likely determine your success in life. Anger and rage are useful if you can channel them - otherwise, they are likely to undo you. It's not the sort of thing that will be easy, but eventually it becomes a habit and you get better at it. I don't know of anything other than "mindfulness" for this - that's all that's worked for me.

    Having said all of that, you really ought to make sure that there isn't anything else going on with you that can add to your symptoms - at your age there may be some hormonally driven issues (e.g. ovarian cists) that can cause you act out. As a matter of not going down a rabbit hole, make sure there isn't anything amiss with rest of your biology before blaming it all on your brain.

    There are good reasons that the labels aren't applied to people under 18 (I would argue 25 would make more sense biologically) - there's a lot going on. You may have some latitude to choose where you end up.

    If I had the choice and information at your age, I might have done better in life -

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    1. Daughters of AnarchyFebruary 4, 2015 at 6:07 PM

      Well said my HL friend :))

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  8. insidiox,

    You certainly show signs of grandeur and very high opinion of your abilities to achieve anything you want. Is any of that substantiated? Have you done or achieved anything so far that shows you do have high intelligence and capability? You're locked out of the school system, that's as low as it gets at your age fo a woman, other thanbeing incarcerated or committed suicide. How much of your thinking is in fantasy and how much in reality?

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  9. Clearly not a psychopath. Emotionally unstable (=borderline) at worst.

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  10. no real diagnosis can be given while the subject is on mood-altering drugs. It pays to remember there are shades of gray and variations in everything, especially true when it comes to female sociopaths, and if I am correct one has to be 18 to be diagnosed as anti-social personality disorder. I would recommend reading the third part of the book "The Psychopath Test" (the first two parts in my opinion are crap) where the author interviews the first editor of the DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual) from which all these disorders are diagnosed. When you read the haphazard and sloppy way in which these disorders are compiled it will shake your faith in psychiatry a bit and make you realize you are an *individual* with individual experiences and tendencies that overlap in several (or many) categories. No one should take the diagnoses in the DSM as carved in stone, because they are arbitrary, debatable, and not carved in stone. I would guess that having the level of empathy for animals that you do is a huge disqualifier. Wanting to romanticize anti-social traits into a disorder such as sociopathy may be appealing while young but could severely impact the rest of your life. If you read M.E.'s book, she has many criteria of abuse and neglect in her childhood that probably caused or at least contributed to her disorder. I did not know until middle age that I had been raped and brutalized as a toddler. There may be very legitimate causes for your emotional reactions that you don't yet have access to. As time goes on psychiatry is leading more away from labeling and more toward the issue of causation and also real treatment, such as DBT for borderlines. If you are like me you want a cut and tried label but since every person is unique such a thing literally doesn't exist for most of us, especially females. Honestly some of your traits also fit the profile of high-functioning autistic or asperger. What you need at the age of 14 is help with coping mechanisms until you get old enough (and stay clean long enough) for a clear cut diagnosis, which certainly no one on the internett can give.

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  11. Dear writer: In childhood, it is called Opposistional Defiance Disorder (ODD). In the teenage years it is diagnosed as Conduct Disorder. In adulthood, it's called Antisocial Personality Disorder on the mild end of the spectrum, and pyschopathy on the worse end of the spectrum.

    A person can have ODD and Conduct Disorder, but never become a sociopath.

    I would reccommend searching Conduct Disorder and I'm certain you'll find that it fits.

    Also, if you are interested in relieving some of your turmoil, google sociopath and meditation for some ideas on how to help you find balance.

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  12. Hello Everyone, I am Daniel Steve by name and i live in Texas USA, i will like to talk about the goodness of God in my life after so many months of trying to get a loan on the internet and was been scammed so i became desperate in getting a loan from a legit lender online. But as God would have it, i saw a comment from a friend called William Ken and he talked about this legit loan company where he got his loan fast and easy without any stress so he introduced me to a man called Mr Mason Diego who controls a firm called Diego Loan Company, So i applied for a loan sum of ($170,000.00USD) with low interest rate of 2%, so the loan was approved and deposited into my bank account in less than 48hrs, that was how i was able to get my loan to keep my broken business running and also to pay off my bills so i am advising everyone of you who is interested in getting a loan fast and easy to kindly contact them via email: { diegoloancompany@yahoo.com } to get any kind of loan you need today, thanks as you read the greatest testimony of my life.

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  13. Interesting case. I love to speculate. My first guess would have been narcissistic or histrionic, but not even I could bet my money on that.

    I've read what you wrote several times now and think you might have quite normal behavioral tendencies if you were more intelligent than average. (my own destructiveness in your age were likely at least to some extent because of that.)
    Frustration can lead to aggression. Repeated frustration can lead to repeatedly aggressive, more easily provoked aggression. If repetition over a long time frame is given, easily evoked aggressive behavior becomes a habit. Do you feel frustrated by those that cause you to lash out?

    ADHD looks different to me... one of my childhood friends had that, and although he used to be impulsive, often times lashing out due to minor reasons, he would still not be able to put that in words or write it down like you did, let alone read through that letter more than once. Another point against ADHD, at least compared to that individual, is that the whole spectrum of his emotions were horribly exaggerated when mixed with excitement - you wrote you have no real strong emotions.
    Anger issues? Surely sounds like you got that. But that's just a symptom, nothing more. Like sweat drops on your forehead when you a feverish flu.

    That thing with the homicidal/suicidal thoughts is interesting. Could you elaborate on how you feel about that? Do you get sad or melancholic when you think about killing yourself, or is it positively exciting? Do you feel rather anger or scorn when you fantasize about killing people? Are the homicidal thoughts specific or unspecific in terms of choosing a target? Do you have a theory of what the underlying motives are of these fantasies?
    Without those background information I don't see a point in speculating on those. All neurotypicals have such thoughts as well from time to time, difference between them and pathological minds is merely that they put it aside and don't think about it in circles - as far as I know it's normal for people of your age to think more than normal about stuff like that. Or to think about stuff longer than normal. Or both. Your brain is currently under heavy development, don't forget that.

    Just because I'm curious; What are those 3-4 animals? And what is it that you couldn't tolerate about their death? I personally had problems coping with the irrevocability of their absence, but had no problem watching their death struggle. Found that interesting, actually. Can you specify how exactly you feel when you think about one of those animals' deaths?

    You likely already know that, but I'll repeat it nonetheless. You're definitely too young for a diagnosis, and in my opinion too young to talk about tendencies as well, at least if we're not talking about extremely strong tendencies - which I frankly don't see.(Your soul can still be saved ;p )

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      Some advice from me (self-identified psychopath/sociopath) :
      > Introspection. Sit down and observe your inner workings. Don't value what you see, just look. It'll help, no matter who or what you are or what you want to reach.
      > Impulse-Control training. Can actually be fun. Start small: Think about something that upsets you until you slightly feel that negative excitement, then calm down again and simultaneously tell yourself a signal-word or sentence. Repeat until you manage to calm down faster than it took to get upset. Then do the same with something that upsets you a bit more, and so on and so forth. I think you'll get what I say.
      > Focus. Find yourself a hobby, something that keeps your mind busy and your thoughts channeled into a direction you like. If you're not sure what you like, just try a bunch of different activities regardless of whether you thought you like it or not. Go on a demo, ride your bike, paint a picture, train your dog, learn a new sport, memorize random information, drink a perfect cup of black tea. Though it's probably not a good idea to do that all at once...
      > Find people you can talk to. I personally dislike to be around most very emotional people, or a lot of people at once, but having someone you can openly talk to about your concerns is very helpful sometimes. Probably try to talk to complete strangers, which aren't connected to your life and therefore can't have negative impact on you. (demos are perfect for that, but the bus is good too.)
      > Actively change your thought patterns: You are the master of your thoughts. If homicidal or suicidal thoughts concern you, stop them right away and start to think about the clouds in the sky instead. It's really hard in the beginning, feels almost like breaking through a physical wall, but once you got the hang of it, it gets progressively easier to do. Just don't lose your patience. Lines up perfectly with impulse control training.

      Hope I could help, if you got further questions don't hesitate to ask.

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  14. I'm still wondering how ME one day tweeted something I said in a private conversation on the phone.

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    1. Did you say it to her? D'uh hahaha

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  15. Definitely not a sociopathic. May ne unfitted with normale people (I'm the esame) bit it's a very different condition. Tale it easy and a deep breath too!. You are "connected in" even if confuse with yourself. Sociopath are not.

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  17. Antisocial personality disorder. That's what my depression therapist said I am not. She also asked, "Are you a Jew?" I said, "Yes, but that category has no meaning for me." She did not like my saying that because as she said, "My parents were Holocaust survivors." In the interests of peace and not getting arrested or at least thrown out, I let the matter go, but probably if you go back to "Biblical times," what the Jews did against their neighbors was ethnic cleansing at the very least and perhaps genocide at worst. Every major religious and political group practices evil and murder and mass murder. For example, most of the killers in Rwanda were ostensibly Christians. Everybody's got their knickers in a twist about the beheadings and cage burnings by ISIL, but Joan of Arc was burned at the stake by other Christians.

    This web site (as am I, but less charismatic) is sinking fast and demonstrates why we generally don't let sociopaths and libertarians and crazy people run the world. Thought probably we do. And probably, if THE SIXTH EXTINCTION is correct, humans will be extinct by 2100, with perhaps a few pathetic remnants dying on Mars.Too bad that I live close to the end of the human species, but as I am antisocial personality disorder, do I care?

    Not much.

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  18. $1.50, unless u have a better offer on the table. This seems about right for a desperate hoodski

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  19. what's the point? you know yourself, you know your problems, and in this website, you can find many many good posts about the ways to improve some of the things you mentioned and are similar to sociopathy. isn't that enough? it's not like we're community with benefits if you pass the test of being a sociopath. it's just a name, the point is, to know yourself and your problems and your situation better, and try to improve. and try to find out what works best for you. for ex, i know i get bored, and that's a part of sociopathy, so I search what are the best jobs for a sociopath, because they'll be the jobs for someone who is not emotional, and gets bored, and is antisocioal (me) and I choose from those jobs. you have some of the symptomes, and here are some solutions. just use them and focus on getting better and improving. don't end up a jerk or a serial killer, even if you don't understand why that's bad. try-to-understand-and-improve. it's the whole point. we know what's wrong and what's right, we just don't understand it.

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  20. wow... at your age...why don't you do all of us a favor end your miserable life before you start destroying innocent peoples life...

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  21. This is just hilarious...we have to click i'm not robot button for our views to be published...how does psychopaths publish theirs? since you are sub-human, other species very close to robot? ohh I know, you LIE as usual...

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