Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Psycho vs. psychotic (part 2)

The reader explains what it feels like to live the life of a psychotic (which description I'd be reckless enough to call important, particularly as I have traditionally thought of psychotics as the "truly crazy" disordered, when really their worlds don't seem so much more distorted than the worlds of the rest of us).

Based upon dictionary definitions of the word everyone is "psychotic", as etymologically it describes anything related to or affected by psychological and mental processes.

Despite their best intentions mental healthcare providers are essentially tasked with turning down the volume and ensuing productivity. I recently called my boss to task for making fun of a 'crazy homeless man' who was walking around talking to, and smacking, himself. These abhorrent behaviours are two that I perform from time to time; especially during more agitated mixed states when my guard is down and my mind throws open the flood gates to every thought and sensation it can barely handle. The distinction is, of course, that I have a shower and go to work; so my psychosis (and hence burden to society) isn't as bad. 

That I identify as a psychotic is because it fits my experiences between than as a sufferer of a disorder. By choice, but often not, my daily life features conspicuous manifestations of my inner landscape. Some months back I sat on a train biting teethmarks into my right hand, just because. My job involves a lot of running up and down stairs, and when I'm descending my hands contort into talons; and I've felt wings arching out behind me before. Paranoia and the odd aggressive display (including hissing and snarling at people) are possibly less attractive -  and possibly the parts which most people associate "psychotic" with. 

Over time I've come to struggle with the notion of a disease entity afflicting me. For the most part these unusual traits have no baring on anything I'm doing. The brilliant Darian Leader once wrote of a psychiatric patient who was quite sane, bar his vocal belief in a non-existent European country. A fully functional human being was effectively quarantined for a mishap of geography. 

As I'm not a psychopath it's difficult to try and describe any distinction between "you" and "us" (especially since I don't want to speak for anyone but myself). However it is telling that '-path' is tacked on the end there: a more naked disorder classification; though psychotic is a more loaded term I feel. Psychotics are totally out of control; violent paranoid schizophrenics busying themselves with senseless murder while psychopaths (as you will of course know) are all about Debussy and fava beans. 

At a push I think its about how one enters into the world. Maybe psychotics and psychopaths are (consciously or otherwise) naturally inclined to focus on/give credence to their own inner worlds more than "normal" people. Psychotics find little or no distinction between reality, the sensory and the imagined. For us there is no cure, rather a need to determine and discover how involved we can/want to be with others; whereas normals can't even conceive of having any alternatives. 

I've actually being laying out a lot of my experiences as a psychotic out on my own website, particularly in this article: http://causecatyljan.com/2013/08/19/psukhe/.  


  1. Just another idiot. On meds.

    Nothing to see here.

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  2. "Delusional" people are the most interesting. They can come
    off perfectly "lucid," save for their delusion.
    I once knew a very intelligent, seemingly normal young man who
    told me that the reason he got into "trouble," and couldn't progress in his life was because of the unavalibilty of a type of
    Jellow that he needed for his well being. To all appearences, he
    seemed completely normal and functionable. An elderly man told
    me about his younger brother who was convinced that he had
    swallowed a bee as a young boy, and spent the rest of his life in a
    mental facility.
    When I see some of the "net conspriasy theories" espoused, it's a
    wonder that such people can function in a 9 to 5 world, hold down
    jobs, handle family responsiblities or function at all, The most
    dangerous people REALLY are outside the mental hospital.
    That"s why the human race can be divided into three groups:
    Super sickies, common sickies, and self-reflective spiritual

    1. I find it hard to make sense of this word salad.

      This is a good example of the unintelligible noise that is usually associated with a certain type of mental illness.

    2. Your use of the configuration 'word salad' here suggests you have strayed here from a certain militant, psychopath-free cult forum.

    3. You seem to be the only one who is familiar with whatever this forum is that you're referring to.

  3. Capricorn people (the zodiac) have a trait that most likely belongs in the socio wardrobe: a feeling of being "delicate" beyond belief compared to others & to ensure this feeling is genuine everybody in the surrounding must be "degraded", made to look like fools.

  4. The last thing that someone who experiences psychotic episodes on a regular basis will do, is admit that they are psychotic.

    Same as the sicko's. An ASPD will blame anyone else, except themselves. That's about the only similarity between the two conditions.

    1. Thank you. ^ Simply and accurately put.

      bipolar empath

  5. "Empaths have to turn you into a monster, and no method of torture is too cruel for a monster."

    I strongly disagree with the 'featured comment'. Once again, you are confusing Empaths and Neurotypicals. Empaths are literally incapable of hurting a fly, much less torturing people.

    1. I am not trying to argue with you here, but what is the basis of your claim?

      A few months ago a flock of birds were feasting of something in a pool on the side of the road outside where I live. I drove my car over them. I expected them to fly away in the last second, but they didn't. My wife exclaimed; "Oh my god you killed the birds!" I laughed. Didn't feel any wrong with that then.

      Today I was driving her to a doctors appointment. A dove came walking into the road. I thought it would fly away like birds do when cars come at them. It didn't, but started flying right before I was about to hit it. I slowed down and for a few seconds the dove flew paralell with my direction in front of my car. At that point I felt I shouldn't hit the dove with my car, and almost cared for its feelings.

      I can continue these examples endlessly.

      If we are so distinct as just to be empaths or not, then what am I? I always thought we varied.

    2. Genuine empaths are rare. Many people mistakenly think that a person capable of experiencing empathy is an empath. Not so. A person capable of experiencing empathy is a neurotypical. An empath is highly sensitive with an innate ability to perceive others. That's a bare-bones explanation but if you want to find out more, there's plenty of information online.

    3. Yes, that sounds plausible. But on that reading material; I guess you have some sources you could link here that you would prefer to use for conveying the information you are thinking of? I'd prefer the material you picked, if you would be so kind as to do so, or else I might end up with reading something related but different.

  6. "Psychotics are totally out of control; violent paranoid schizophrenics busying themselves with senseless murder while psychopaths (as you will of course know) are all about Debussy and fava beans."

    This gave me a chuckle.

    1. I've heard some very creative and amusing descriptions come from people who were mentally ill. Unfortunately they didn't have the actual writing skills to produce something entirely readable or publishable.


  7. I have said this before about bipolar vs borderline, One is a mental illness one is a personality disorder.
    The same with psychotic vs. psychopathic. They are not even close.

    The end. I find it funny that people compare the two.

    The bipolar empath

    1. @Anon 2:37

      Well said.

      It's certainly odd (let alone funny) that the two are compared. Maybe (definitely) it's because they both begin with the letter 'P'.

      I myself have often confused makes of cars for this very reason...e.g. is it a Ford Focus or a Fiat Focus?

      I also regularly confuse the word 'Cake' with 'Canada', which is especially interesting when meeting a customs chap for the first time. They tend to think I'm insane, when in fact I'm just inane...


    2. Bipolar is a mood disorder. Borderline is a personality disorder.

  8. An identified psychopath from a school mayhem spared folks he "liked", surely this must mean something? Not so cold & cruel after all? If they like you, it will be alright?

    1. Hitler liked plenty of stuff. The arian race, blond women, and more. He was a jolly good fellow obviuosly. If he'd won the war you'd propably think the same.

      Take a look at this exhibition, might enlighten some minds in here:

      I have the impression that there are to many in here that are far from being scholars or historians. More like mental patients =D mental patients might like exhibitions too.


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