tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post4984199556280893246..comments2024-03-18T07:07:07.291-07:00Comments on Sociopath World: Teenage sociopathsUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger78125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-84864749636795411042015-05-08T13:20:53.606-07:002015-05-08T13:20:53.606-07:00I understand what you mean about constructing stor...I understand what you mean about constructing stories, in my head I have maintained one story for over 2 years now, first as a distraction while trying to get to sleep but now I slip off into my head any time I am bored (which is an awful lot). I won't bore you with the details but it is a mighty and multifarious work of imagination the details of which take up a considerable amount of my memory and deserves a series of books roughly thrice the size of the Game of Thrones series.<br />I also know how you feel about friends, I have a small circle of friends whose conversation and intelligence I consider sufficient to merit maintaining relations with and any others I merely enjoy toying with.<br />I fell empty without them, and indeed any person to talk to, but not in a sad way, I just use my imaginary story to occupy my time or just think nothing at all (This is essentially the mental equivalentt of being in a totally silent, pitch black room) sometimes for hours at a time.<br /> Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-14245621768090040142015-04-04T05:50:52.032-07:002015-04-04T05:50:52.032-07:00"I consider myself a truth seeker"
Unfo..."I consider myself a truth seeker" <br />Unfortunately this is impossible with extensive history of rationalizing and compartmentalizing. Doing this changes the structure of the brain....into one that literally cannot know truth. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-49810221499005477112015-04-02T17:44:08.222-07:002015-04-02T17:44:08.222-07:00Daima güncel tek film izleyebileceğiniz en iyi adr...Daima güncel tek <a href="http://equisiteforest.com/" rel="nofollow">film izle</a>yebileceğiniz en iyi adrestesiniz.En iyi <a href="http://equisiteforest.com/" rel="nofollow">yerli filmler</a>in hd kalitede bulabileceğiniz ve <a href="http://equisiteforest.com/" rel="nofollow">türkçe dublaj film izle</a>yerek keyifli zaman geçirebileceğiniz bir film sitesi üzerinde çalıştığımızı ve sizler için en iyi <a href="http://equisiteforest.com/" rel="nofollow">aksiyon filmleri izle</a>yebileceğiniz güzel bir site yapmaya çalıştığımızı belirtmek isterim. Kaliteli <a href="http://equisiteforest.com/" rel="nofollow">animasyon filmleri izle</a>yebileceğiniz ve en önemlisi <a href="http://equisiteforest.com/" rel="nofollow">tek part film izle</a>yebileceğiniz bir sistem kurmanın gururunu yaşadığımızın bilincindeyiz. Keyifli zamanlar geçirmeniz dileğiyle.<br />Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15601581897510554988noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-63057698186715233292015-03-31T09:05:59.005-07:002015-03-31T09:05:59.005-07:00All writers have their strengths and weaknesses. ...All writers have their strengths and weaknesses. Chilly Nabokov nailed his characters to the cross through a narcissistic lens and now it's a classic. Humbert Humbert is a mean-spirited cad whose charm, wit and insight (crooked though it is) draws readers into an unforgettable experience. His perception, or lack thereof, of Lolita's suffering, is so appalling that we want to tear him apart. Yet we admire his wit and can't help but agree with most of his views of the other characters and their selfish motives. This type of writer, who can tap into his dark side via a character and present it in a witty, cutting, insightful way, has long been revered in literary history.<br /><br />I guess what I'm trying to say is that I think you've got some of that type of mojo and I would encourage you to do something with it.<br /><br />You're right about 'wrapping around the axel'. Forget all that. You don't need to understand the emotions internally: All you need to do is be able to do is describe what they look and act like and the reader will fill in the rest. Use concrete actions to describe emotions. Example: His white flat lips emitted tiny bubbles of spit when he heard her reply, No! His hands crushed the unopened Valentine card. <br /><br />Not the most elegant example, but I'm sure you see what I mean. We know this guy is mad without going inside his head and without having to explain why. All in a mere two sentences. In a screen play, the above would be even shorter, sans white lips, foam at the lips, etc.<br /><br />Please do give your talent a go, Harry. Talent is a sacred thing, if there's anything sacred at all.<br /><br />This shopkeeper has learned a valuable lesson: Don't work for CEO psychopaths who don't give a shit about employee safety and hire people who wear knives to work. And, Don't try to keep safe those who would dance on your broken bones. Faustnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-30047640200090708682015-03-31T08:55:34.272-07:002015-03-31T08:55:34.272-07:00"I was being sarcastic, but thanks for the em..."I was being sarcastic, but thanks for the empathy" ;)<br /><br />No you weren't, narc. "I'm not upset anymore because you metaphorically raped me" might be a glib, facetious statement- but it is not a sarcastic one.<br /><br />Nonetheless, the pleasure was all mine. <br /><br />Now bend over, you POS. I want to watch you cry, so I can practice my empathy. <br /><br />*That* was a sarcastic statement. <br /><br />Or maybe not. Let's give you another stab, shall we? <br /><br />"But instead I casually played the part of pawn and jumped ship when I had the chance...is what I would have done but I kept showing up late so I got fired."<br /><br />So you wasted your time in a dead end job, working for a bitch of a narcissist, who ended up firing you because you weren't valuable enough for her to overlook your petty tardiness. You didn't "play" the part of Pawn- you embodied it, while fantasizing impotently about taking down the Queen. But she knocked you out of the game before you managed to make a single move, let alone muster the courage to speak your mind. <br /><br />You don't plot for weeks about how to tell someone off if you plan to "jump ship". That is something cowards tell themselves to assuage their egos when they don't have the balls to speak plainly.<br /><br />Better luck next time. ;)<br />Anoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-84804016580640413992015-03-31T04:08:29.209-07:002015-03-31T04:08:29.209-07:00"Anymore? Never let what anyone says here act..."Anymore? Never let what anyone says here actually upset you. About two years ago, this place was brutal. Anyone who took what was said here personally left immediately. Those who stayed were often traumatized. Those who held their own came with tough skin, and left with impenetrable scales."<br /><br />I was being sarcastic, but thanks for the empathy ;). That John guy, from the other day, seemed a little pfffted.<br /><br />"whereas in rl, I am much more forgiving." That and we aren't invincible. Fuck with the wrong person, and they might get you when you least expect it.<br /><br />Or another example, I once worked for a narcissist. She was a POS and I wanted to tell her to her face and watch her cry. But instead I casually played the part of pawn and jumped ship when I had the chance...is what I would have done but I kept showing up late so I got fired.Socio Next Doornoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-39958583184322574072015-03-30T11:42:50.553-07:002015-03-30T11:42:50.553-07:00By the by, it turns out, if I did my math right, t...By the by, it turns out, if I did my math right, there are 255 presentation of BPD (5 of 9 criteria). Not all have to be the weepy, bitch victim - that's just one that gets a lot of press. <br /><br />And that doesn't even address the degree of severity of the presentation of each criteria. Crappy way to "help" people.<br />HLHallerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18050618063787907688noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-40409867653234030472015-03-30T11:37:05.588-07:002015-03-30T11:37:05.588-07:00When I used to become emotional, I would also beco...When I used to become emotional, I would also become a handful. I don't know about your sister in law, but in this mode, just about anything that comes out of the persons/people's mouth(s) is taken as an insult. Every action is seen and taken as confrontation. It's sort of an angry paranoia (it's really unpleasant for all involved). For me, that meant anger and manipulation with little self control or regard to consequences. I expect you can see how that would end in piles of rubble.<br /><br />As long as I keep myself calm and happy, I find that I don't need to "go there" and I've found ways to smooth life out. Letting go of anger (and learning to let go of "new" anger) went a long way towards calming me down. And that's central to my parenting for many reasons.<br /><br />In an interesting parallel, just as hate and anger tend to breed more hate and anger, finding ways to bring calmness and happiness into ones life tends to breed more calm and happiness. It isn't as easy as anger (for me anyway), but the more I work at it, the more I get it and the more motivated I am to be calm and happy.<br /><br />As to sleep - I've never been much of a sleeper - it's not angst, though for years I thought it must be, and sometimes it is, but not usually. For me it's just that I am "normally" hypomanic. There's just not enough hours in the day for me to do and see everything I'm interested in (one of the reasons spectator sports hold little interest for me - sitting and watching other people do stuff if usually not fun for me). Been this way since puberty - <br /><br />I do have to be careful with my sleep - it's easy for me to run myself to exhaustion.HLHallerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18050618063787907688noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-67498896847728998092015-03-30T10:02:23.224-07:002015-03-30T10:02:23.224-07:00Yeah. I dont know. My relative with BPD is an emot...Yeah. I dont know. My relative with BPD is an emotional basket-case. She is hypersensitive and takes *everything* personally. God help anyone who disagrees with her. She'll cry and foist accusations of insensitivity on whomever speaks to her bluntly. Now, I am rather outspoken and vocal about my opinions. I have "hurt" and offended her on more than one occasion. She once told me that she couldn't believe that her beloved brother ended up with such a grade-A bitch, and that she had waited years for our relationship to end in a gigantic, fiery explosion. (We do fight a lot, lol) Oh well. :)<br /><br /> She is constantly thinking about interpersonal dynamics... About how she feels slighted and victimized by people and things.... I honestly can't relate to her emotional baggage. <br /><br />*Nothing* causes me to lose sleep. I am not an anxious or angst-addled person. We can argue vehemently about something, and I won't even think about it 10 minutes later. She'll carry it around for 10 months- and act passive-aggressively towards me, rather than simply confront me about how I've (once again) managed to offend her. It's always push and pull, push and pull. I cannot fathom carrying that weight around all the time.Anoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-90500343833072255442015-03-29T19:08:25.078-07:002015-03-29T19:08:25.078-07:00Yeah, well... I don't necessarily translate &q...Yeah, well... I don't necessarily translate "good for me" as "what my depraved self optimally wants". If it were up to me, I'd have an open marriage with very few limits. He does not share my preference in this regard. Though I have never misled him, it frustrates and troubles him that I am this way. He thinks I am too flirtatious. (To be fair, I do get hit on- a lot.)<br /><br />In that way, we embody a bit of a role-reversal.<br /><br />I got pregnant very young. I never thought I'd have kids. Even though he denies it- and I do get pregnant very easily- I sometimes wonder whether he did it on purpose, lol. But he has proven to be an extraordinary father, partner, and friend. He has managed to keep me in check- in every conceivable way. :P<br /><br />Most of the time. :)Anoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-66935618105998803012015-03-29T17:53:59.896-07:002015-03-29T17:53:59.896-07:00Yeah - being a guy in this case is different from ...Yeah - being a guy in this case is different from the experiences of gals. <br /><br />I do better with women who aren't at all possessive. Can't say that's I've never "stepped out," but women who need to have a very large share of my attention tend to feel like work. I've always liked the notion that "it doesn't matter where my apatite comes from as long as I come home for dinner."<br /><br />I'm working on a divorce just now - I guess I "chose poorly." (smirk)HLHallerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18050618063787907688noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-68579814226281121292015-03-29T17:35:38.640-07:002015-03-29T17:35:38.640-07:00LOL! JR hasn't done anything to get on my &qu...LOL! JR hasn't done anything to get on my "to do list." But I that's where my compassion ends. Go to town cowgirl! 8)~HLHallerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18050618063787907688noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-43943818569588607632015-03-29T17:29:03.357-07:002015-03-29T17:29:03.357-07:00Like I said, I was always a bit dissatisfied with ...Like I said, I was always a bit dissatisfied with the diagnosis, but I do think she did the right thing. MD had some positive prognosis I could latch onto.<br /><br />I was frustrated with myself and I turned that aggression inward and became destructive - "to myself and others," as they say. In the 1990's anything PD related was more or less treated as a either a write off or a cash cow depending on the therapist. She really did some hard work (counter transference can be a bitch I hear and I wreaked her on a few occasions) with me and the more I think on it, the more a debt of gratitude I owe her (my AA meeting and all that - 8)~).<br /><br />The reason I pick BPD is because of something Dr. G posted that I really liked - she called BPD "Part Time Sociopaths." BPD's can function more of less normally until triggered whereas ASPD's are full time - or so goes the argument (as I understood it - Doc: you lurking? Wanna set me straight?). There is also a lot of overlap between the two. Really, I see the two as points along a spectrum (with some "flavors" ala Milton's Subtypes).<br /><br />Likewise, I enjoy your posts - your experience does seem to have some parallels to mine and it's fun reading your...critiques. (smile)HLHallerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18050618063787907688noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-3501419977013273772015-03-29T17:24:45.500-07:002015-03-29T17:24:45.500-07:00Your misbehavior on the forum isn't atrocious....Your misbehavior on the forum isn't atrocious. :)Damagednoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-61407684868028705072015-03-29T17:03:48.360-07:002015-03-29T17:03:48.360-07:00...A little something for everyone. :D...A little something for everyone. :DAnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-25854794518699398862015-03-29T17:01:57.262-07:002015-03-29T17:01:57.262-07:00...Now that you have clarified what you meant by &......Now that you have clarified what you meant by "depression"- which really doesn't sound like depression, to me. At least, not in terms of how I have heard it described by those I know who struggle with it.Anoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-1590326622848074692015-03-29T16:58:07.053-07:002015-03-29T16:58:07.053-07:00"I was always angry and I would react with ag..."I was always angry and I would react with aggression towards any trigger. When I got (get) overstimulated, I shut down emotionally. In the past, I would do some of my worst acting out in this mode - I was trying to feel something - anything - in this mode. I was trying to discharge the aggression. Becoming less angry and learning to ignore "inappropriate" anger was a big part of what I worked out back then."<br /><br />^I *really* relate to this. I mess up in this area a lot. Sometimes, the extent to which my reactions are impulsive, harsh, and disproportionately aggressive catches me off guard- and yet, there is a part of me that always remains rational and emotionally detached from my reactions, regardless of their severity. I can go from hot to ice cold, to smiling with good humor in a matter of seconds. Family members have told me that it's "creepy". :P<br /><br />Aggression and conflict do not traumatize me, but the part of me which should empathize with those for whom it does is numb, so I am not always cognizant of the emotional damage I am actually causing.<br /><br />I agree with you re: labels- but what you describe sounds more antisocial than BPD-ish to me.<br /><br />I am interested in anything you have to say, because I find myself relating to much of what you write.<br /><br />Anoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-61721789726345980692015-03-29T15:52:59.185-07:002015-03-29T15:52:59.185-07:00Sexual impulsivity and depravity are what I strugg...Sexual impulsivity and depravity are what I struggle controlling the most. Ironically, I married a very possessive, strong, dominant man. He's good for me in every way. :PAnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-62577598946689235532015-03-29T15:43:05.155-07:002015-03-29T15:43:05.155-07:00"I'm not even upset, anymore, that you me..."I'm not even upset, anymore, that you metaphorically raped me the other day haha."<br /><br />Anymore? Never let what anyone says here actually upset you. About two years ago, this place was brutal. Anyone who took what was said here personally left immediately. Those who stayed were often traumatized. Those who held their own came with tough skin, and left with impenetrable scales. <br /><br /><br />Luna's SC forum maintains a bit of that dynamic, but it isn't good for me to be there. I invariably "misbehave" atrociously- and it can get a bit obsessive. :P<br /><br />"I do love to systematically break someone down who is arrogant or to put someone together who has a low self-esteem."<br /><br />Me too. And yeah, it is kind of like an amusing hobby. Online, I tend to choose my targets, and how I will play with them, impulsively and arbitrarily, whereas in rl, I am much more forgiving. Everyone has exploitable strengths *and* weaknesses. :)Anoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-17858767749829864732015-03-29T15:08:45.302-07:002015-03-29T15:08:45.302-07:00@HL: I won't.
So... You walk around in a sta...@HL: I won't.<br /><br />So... You walk around in a state of constant awe? I don't care what New Age variation on ancient Amerindian mysticism you've been swallowing- that seems rather unsustainable.<br /><br />::Jay-Z opens a can of tomatoes to make black bean chipotle chili:: <br /><br />**Gasp!** <br /><br />"These are so mundane, and yet! Each of these floating red masterpieces consist of billions of atoms, which, in turn, are comprised of mostly empty space!"<br /><br />Several hours later, having eaten said chili, nature takes it's course. As Jay-Z rushes to the bathroom to take a shit, she ponders, in a state of dumbstruck amazement, the advent modern plumbing, the cycle of life, and the glory of the human body. <br /><br />Suddenly, the telephone rings!<br /><br />**Gasp!**<br /><br />Amazing! The miracle of modern telecommunication, you ask? No. That anyone should call Jay-Z, and manage to coax her out of the closet. ;)<br /><br />What manner of skeletons are you hiding in there? Come on. You can share your dirty little secrets with me. <br />Anoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-29940629288449497722015-03-29T13:55:52.260-07:002015-03-29T13:55:52.260-07:00They are fetishes.. if you go to fetlife.com you w...They are fetishes.. if you go to fetlife.com you will find abuse neglect and manipulation on there im pretty sure.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-70234321162984548412015-03-29T10:24:29.918-07:002015-03-29T10:24:29.918-07:00Thank you Faust! With encouragement like that I m...Thank you Faust! With encouragement like that I might have to make a run at it. <br /><br />I took particular interest in technical writing as un undergraduate realizing that being able to write clearly would distinguish me from many other engineers - that has proven to be a good investment from a career standpoint. But I think it's also one of my barriers - I'm very conditioned to a style of writing (impersonal, active voice, present tense, etc.), Working through that might be helpful.<br /><br />Actually, I have an adaptation (a pretty bad one) of Rendezvous with Rama that I did a couple of years ago. I came to realize that, for that project, I would really need to either "commit" or find access to a bunch of graduate students (various fields) to pull it off with anything that wasn't a sad derivative of a great story. But, I found writing the characters there a whole lot easier - because I didn't have to worry so much about their internal dialog. I could focus on describing what the director would want to explore.<br /><br />Maybe RwR was a bit ambitious for a first go... (smirk) <br /><br />I am also less clear as to how I would go about shopping something like that around. My ex is familiar with book publishing, and she would be willing to help get it in front of people. <br /><br />The idea I outlined is really set up more as an essay at this point - I may have to give some thought to making it into an actual "story." I need to give some thought to the idea of describing emotions as actions - I may just be all wrapped around the axel trying to understand them internally. That's the very trap I fall into.<br /><br />Glad to hear the "shopkeeper" is somewhere where they will be doing less damage. Hopefully, the PTSD treatment does some good. Gotta chuckle tho - is this one of those "cycle of violence" things? They are being a jerk because someone else was a jerk to them?HLHallerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18050618063787907688noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-34502291443063482272015-03-29T09:57:55.702-07:002015-03-29T09:57:55.702-07:00LOL! Fair enough - I'll step off JR. 8)~LOL! Fair enough - I'll step off JR. 8)~HLHallerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18050618063787907688noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-89450655652839075902015-03-29T09:53:36.866-07:002015-03-29T09:53:36.866-07:00It was more aggression and impulsivity. That'...It was more aggression and impulsivity. That's why I would question the diagnosis from time to time - didn't really feel like a complete picture.<br /><br />There's the old saying that depression is anger without the enthusiasm. <br /><br />I was always angry and I would react with aggression towards any trigger. When I got (get) overstimulated, I shut down emotionally. In the past, I would do some of my worst acting out in this mode - I was trying to feel something - anything - in this mode. I was trying to discharge the aggression. Becoming less angry and learning to ignore "inappropriate" anger was a big part of what I worked out back then.<br /><br />When I "crashed" it was after a rather a long aggressive bender and I would still not feel any better but I would have made one hell of a mess of things. That cycle got to feeling rather pointless and I lost enthusiasm - <br /><br />I understand what you mean by, not seeing sociopathy and BPD as similar, but that may be more my personal view that all of those labels are poor and imprecise. <br /><br />That's been the bee in my bonnet of late - I am coming to see the labels and being more of a barrier to progress than helpful. I usually insert some caveat like, "people will disagree with me,"<br /><br />Unless you're interested, I won't go into detail, but it's a bit of a math problem - for BPD (a similar argument can be made for ASPD), five of nine criteria need to be met to qualify - I'm too lazy to do the cypherin' just now, but that is something north of 100 different presentations. Crappy definition - even the APA knows it.<br /><br />That's why I've been on the "anti-label" campaign of late. 8)~HLHallerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18050618063787907688noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-83193337159203753062015-03-29T02:23:46.069-07:002015-03-29T02:23:46.069-07:00A, I hide in my closet. A, I hide in my closet. Jeliza Rosehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03976114169941577450noreply@blogger.com