tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post4873378676098849875..comments2024-03-28T00:33:57.308-07:00Comments on Sociopath World: ContradictionsUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger149125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-18218651645486534662013-09-10T06:49:04.709-07:002013-09-10T06:49:04.709-07:00Where are you? What happened? Hope you are ok. Tak...Where are you? What happened? Hope you are ok. Take care.onewomanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11320973006497715467noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-91122002279401138862013-09-09T17:45:58.187-07:002013-09-09T17:45:58.187-07:00when i say "the devil" it is what you re...when i say "the devil" it is what you represent to me. I did NOT mean you personally. I dont know you well enough to call you a devil, nor do I believe in good or bad. i believe in productive responses to stimuli carefully thrown to destabilize. That is all you represent. I dehumanized you. Sorry.<br /><br />Taking things personally over the internet after claiming you're a sociopath. Get over yourself. <br />Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-1738325398519859632013-09-09T13:53:33.023-07:002013-09-09T13:53:33.023-07:00"Flirting with disaster (you, the devil, the ..."Flirting with disaster (you, the devil, the fucking bain of my existence, someone who wants me but who i will mean utterly nothing to in the end)"<br /><br />Fuck off. I'm not the devil. You should know since you seem to be a friend of his. Stop talking to me.Ndranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-13928513020406446312013-09-09T06:44:36.358-07:002013-09-09T06:44:36.358-07:00Take myself away from you? We never even met, nor ...Take myself away from you? We never even met, nor did you ever actually plan on meeting me. It seems like you simply want what you can't have, but then once you have the opportunity to get it, it becomes undesirable<br /><br />No, i did not want you to invite me out in person. I was hoping that you would not. I honestly just enjoy your conversation here. I like the idea of thinking about meeting. I could have sensed you would ask to meet and stopped you, but i neglected to, probably purposely, to avoid ending the sexual tension. I like the idea that you live near me. It is very nice for a fantasy. <br /><br />You are definitely right about sthg else though. In my off line romantic life, with people who are unhealthy for me, it has been difficult getting to a place i would stop flirting and then declining invitations ...AFTER getting hurt. One of the reasons I am here is to examine behaviours and thoughts i have that cause me discomfort. I give mixed signals to a man like you this way. <br /><br />Here, yes, your reasoning is correct.( I have been thinking that it is narcissism.) I have been thinkng that maybe i have come back to old partners who have hurt me in the past, made plans with them and then declined ( i could not go through with it) not only because i missed them very much, but because I want them to want me to see i am special, and they will change all for little old me. I want them to choose me over their selfish ways. It is a childish thing of mine unfulfilled. THat is one of the things i was referring to days ago....drives that compromise your moral whatever the fuck machempath talked about. <br />The drives left over from childhood wishes unfulfilled are traps. They are addictions keeping a person powerless over themselves. In real life these things waste my time, cause me anxiety, hurt me, cause me to repeat patterns, cause me masochistic pain, keep me in chains. I want to be free so bad, too. <br /><br />Flirting with disaster (you, the devil, the fucking bain of my existence, someone who wants me but who i will mean utterly nothing to in the end) is very exciting to me and if we met, not only will i be stupid (you could kill me..you're a sociopath, right?) I would be ruining myself AND my fantasy. Thanks for helping that along so nice and quick :) Seriously, it has been therapeutic.<br /><br />PS: Haven't you ever met someone in person and it ruined your image of them? Your imagination was better than the real thing? <br /><br />I could say a bunch of stuff to you now that would be insulting to your character, dead wrong, first impression/second impression comparisons. If you are interested in hearing judgmental things because you want to better yourself or up your game and see how you come across socially, i will tell you how i see you. Let me know. Normally i won't do that kind of thing, but as i see you are quite enjoying to dissect my behaviour, and tell me about myself the way you see it, maybe you are inviting me to do the same? I will reciprocate. Would you like that?<br /><br />Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-5831616197749513142013-09-09T01:58:56.641-07:002013-09-09T01:58:56.641-07:00"Then I thought that you were treating me lik..."Then I thought that you were treating me like a person who will fuck for pot or something. There are a lot of narcissists i know who have had gf who are drug addicts. They lured them with drugs and money, thinking that is the only way to their heart. I think i got a feeling you were going down that road with me, and mistaking me for someone who has more interest in money and drugs than human companionship. I think i got offended so then i got attitudey. sorry."<br /><br />It's not so much a prostitution thing. What it really relates to is my idea of gender roles. I grew up in a house where the father was very wealthy and paid for everything, but he had total control. My mother was not allowed to have a cel phone (neither were I or my siblings, until we reached high school) and he tapped our house phone to keep tabs on what we were doing and saying. My mom on the other hand had no control, but in exchange for taking care of me and my siblings so my dad didn't have to spend any time on us (except for "discipline" - since he was the official "disciplinarian" of the house - it seems to be the only interaction he actually looked forward to with us) she got to have all of her basic needs provided for. But in the end, my father really is a total penny pincher. That's one huge difference between me and him - he has tons of money and won't share a penny of it, whereas I would always share with my friends even if I didn't have a roof over my head that night. I'm definitely more generous than him in contrast... and even when he is generous with something there are ALOT of strings attached, even if he doesn't say it. I do sometimes attach strings to gifts/favors/rewards I give, but I generally make it clear what those strings are when I offer the gift, so they at least know what is expected of them if they choose to receive it. But overall i avoid being unnecessarily demanding of others.Ndranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-9064427358613031042013-09-09T01:48:09.483-07:002013-09-09T01:48:09.483-07:00*there, not their....lol
Although at least I use...*there, not their....lol<br /><br /><br />Although at least I use proper spelling, grammar and punctuation most of the time. To be honest, I was surprised to hear you were twice my age. Based on the way you write, I was honestly worried you were going to end up saying something between the ages of 14-18. So as far as the not taking you seriously thing, I can see why other people don't take you seriously. You should learn how to improve your communication skills, if you do that, I think I could take you more seriously. It's not that you don't have intelligent ideas....but there seems to be a major immaturity about you, and I honestly thought you were my age or maybe younger. I suppose maybe due to rising feminism, females from my generation may be more educated on average (since back in the day, the stay at home mom thing was more common, and now there are much more women in college). Not to say their potential for intelligence is higher, but I feel like in terms of book smarts, it makes more sense that current social changes would lead to women being more intelligen about certain things. Granted, they might not be as good at cooking you dinner and changing diapers, but they may know how to run a huge company, which you didn't see many women bragging about many years ago. I guess if you were at least 18 it would have been cool, but even at that point I wouldm't legally be able to take you out for a drink. And I'm much more careful about breaking laws with sexual partners than some of the other people I have hung around. So these were the things going through my head, and I guess you did fool me in a way - I really overestimated my intelligence when I assumed you seemed like you might just be some troubled teeny bopper. You literally sound like the girls I met in the Child Unit back at the first mental institution I was placed in for a week or two when I was 14 years old. I almost wonder if your just saying your old or something and are really some 12 year old behind a screen. But old dogs can learn new tricks. Buy a dictionary and a thesaurus and start to read and write more. Practice may not always make perfect, but it at least makes habit.Ndranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-23817507120154833442013-09-09T01:35:02.176-07:002013-09-09T01:35:02.176-07:00"I did not mean to offend. Please do not take..."I did not mean to offend. Please do not take yourself away from me so fast. I just want to be friendly. I am lonely. Nobody in real life will want to be your friend if you wear your lack of confidence on your sleeve a lot. I have not learned how to handle myself. I am socially awkward inside myself. "<br /><br />Take myself away from you? We never even met, nor did you ever actually plan on meeting me. It seems like you simply want what you can't have, but then once you have the opportunity to get it, it becomes undesirable. I would rather have you chase me, want me, and not be able to have me than have myself do the same to you. So you can cry all you want about how your lonely and how I took myself away from you. Since ultimately, you never even brought yourself to me despite the fact that I extended such an invitation.<br /><br />Although I do think their may be some manipulative sides to Mach, she in contrast is relatively direct and to the point (I'm not making a sexual reference here, I'm just talking about her communication as a whole). You on the other hand are very manipulative and not very honest. They say machavellian behavior consists of alot of lying, but she must be a really good one if that's the case since she seems to have an honesty about her.Ndranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-32884396327264229492013-09-08T20:48:27.025-07:002013-09-08T20:48:27.025-07:00Ha i must be the narcissist who think she must lur...Ha i must be the narcissist who think she must lure a man with sex to get to his heart . oh well. thank you for helping me see where i go wrong. <br /><br />I wish you so much luck. If i was a younger girl and i didnt know anything about sociopaths and you did not tell me (and before i was so paranoid..) I would liked to have dated you probably. I would have chased you down. On paper you sound lovely, like an exception to a rule. I would have treated you with honesty and been very loving and loyal. I do wish that you find someone to be yourself with. I hope to be able to talk to you again. here. If I see you in another thread i will come out and say hello. My ex husband is Sicilian btw. Not that i am lumping all you mob types together. Just saying.<br /><br />I am not as cuckoo as i seem. we are all cuckoos here anyway.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-46628829817185385372013-09-08T19:28:55.449-07:002013-09-08T19:28:55.449-07:00i am sorry.
I was brought up taught that being f...i am sorry.<br /><br /> I was brought up taught that being flirty is a way to form relationship at first. It does get me into trouble. It is a bad combo especially with low self esteem and fear of abandonment. I have absense of thinking i have things other than my sexuality to offer. <br /><br />I do not think people take me in seriously. . . . But if i do not give serious output then i guess it is my fault. I did not think you were wanting anything with me but sexual encounter. -Sociopaths are very clever at making a woman feel she is worth more than a casual fuck, so i just assumed you were lying about liking anything substantial about me. I assumed you were playing me just for a laugh. <br /><br />Then I thought that you were treating me like a person who will fuck for pot or something. There are a lot of narcissists i know who have had gf who are drug addicts. They lured them with drugs and money, thinking that is the only way to their heart. I think i got a feeling you were going down that road with me, and mistaking me for someone who has more interest in money and drugs than human companionship. I think i got offended so then i got attitudey. sorry.<br /><br />I did not mean to offend. Please do not take yourself away from me so fast. I just want to be friendly. I am lonely. Nobody in real life will want to be your friend if you wear your lack of confidence on your sleeve a lot. I have not learned how to handle myself. I am socially awkward inside myself. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-85451388436221370812013-09-08T17:58:37.310-07:002013-09-08T17:58:37.310-07:00I will email you from here on out. I will only try...I will email you from here on out. I will only try to reach you here if I am having technical difficulties. I will always contact you via this thread so if you are getting radio silence from me, then check back here. onewomanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11320973006497715467noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-78757289504916042572013-09-08T15:38:30.091-07:002013-09-08T15:38:30.091-07:00If your not comfortable with this we can do someth...If your not comfortable with this we can do something else. To be honest, there is something that freaks me out when I think about what it's going to be like to talk to you on the phone. I just really don't know exactly what to expect and I think it will be harder for me to be as open in the beginning. There is something about you that is very comforting though, but even still, I have a shyness about me. Based on my postings you would probably think otherwise, and in some ways I'm definitely not entirely shy.... but when it comes to actually talking about personal issues it's easy for people to go places with me where I just lock up and I just have to tell them to stop talking about it. So just please be respectful of me and don't be too pushy and prying.Ndranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-47600173733926327782013-09-08T14:55:49.886-07:002013-09-08T14:55:49.886-07:00By the way, when I say "parents" I don&#...By the way, when I say "parents" I don't mean they live together. I haven't seen my father in months and I do live with my mom but they are divorced. Although sometimes stuff gets mailed to his address and I can always tell its been opened. He rarely even tries to hide the fact that he opened it.Ndranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-29456116762636387102013-09-08T14:53:43.095-07:002013-09-08T14:53:43.095-07:00Thanks again Mach. I think the mail is not the bes...Thanks again Mach. I think the mail is not the best option. I was living on my own for 5 years in Providence but am back at home with my mom, and my mail is often already opened if my parents see it first. <br /><br />I would suggest emailing an email address I use for junk mail and stuff....shaolinshinobi88@gmail.com send me an email and ill give you my phone number. I'll find a way to verify it's you before actually giving you my number but it will be a simple process - I can explain through email once you email meNdranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-26419058073461887962013-09-08T14:42:42.288-07:002013-09-08T14:42:42.288-07:00Alright, then you can stop being flirty. I was not...Alright, then you can stop being flirty. I was not thinking it was taking you out to dinner that would get you to drop your pants, but I would want to get to know you in a casual setting before having sex with you. I didn't really take this too seriously, but I would have followed up if you were for real. I mean, I could go about it differently, but if I was going to consider any sort of relationship I just think that sort of thing makes sense. And based on your attitude, I wouldn't consider it worth the time and money to take you out for dinner anyway. And I'll have more pot, too (since I won't be giving you the "leftovers") so it's a win win at this point.Ndranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-77816068560799331552013-09-08T13:58:31.491-07:002013-09-08T13:58:31.491-07:00On the contrary! I like machempath for you. I am t...On the contrary! I like machempath for you. I am totally projecting when I say do not abandon yourself . <br />Those are my own issues. When I was your age I would mess up with people who wanted to mentor me...lookingback I see that I was not only not tak7ng advantage of their help, but that I was absndoning myself. I would have liked to have done better for myself. I was projecting and I dont mean to do that . I am sorry. <br />If the machempath is hearing me say this then I apologize to her <br />too. I am not suited for giving advice to others here.<br />I am not wanting to get involved with your relationship with her. I think she is lovely for you... <br /><br />When I was younger I did sthg very courageous but I did not know that it was indicative of my character. Now I know why the incident stands out. I lost that part of me somewhere, or it never came to bloom. I think she doesnt want to see wasted potential. Neither do I like to see that. <br />Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-43113874452714396532013-09-08T13:38:19.609-07:002013-09-08T13:38:19.609-07:00I really liked both the book and movie "Cloud...I really liked both the book and movie "Cloud Atlas" and I suspect you would too, even though I'm not a big reincarnation person. The premise is that a cluster of connected souls keep finding each other in a series of 6 interconnected plots over 600+ years- and the evolution each character undertakes (some for the better, others notsomuch) has ramifications on the future. It's worth googling the trailer to get a sense of if you'd like it or not. <br /><br />Anyway, my point in bringing that movie up is there's a great quote that seems to really apply to your situation. It goes something like this.<br /><br />"Our lives are not our own. Through our choices we are bound to others. In every crime, and each kindness, we birth our futures." <br /><br /><br />http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hWnAqFyaQ5s (the trailer)onewomanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11320973006497715467noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-36827637361808746242013-09-08T13:36:09.528-07:002013-09-08T13:36:09.528-07:00I was wondering when you were going to ask about m...I was wondering when you were going to ask about mystery age. <br /><br />The idea of having sex with someone so young does not turn me on so I like to envision you older. I am probably more than double your age. I am young at heart and you seem older than you say. Sorry I should have said sthg earlier. I did not know you were going to be this excited. <br /><br /><br />I am sorry that meeting in person is nokt an option. It isnt <br />that I fear you would find me unattractive bec i am older, although you might.I would be disappointed. I do not like young men for me. I could ask you to come disguised as a 45 year old ha.<br /><br />But tbh if you were 45 I still wouldnt want to meet.<br /><br />Yes sure I am turned on.....<br /><br />There is nothing nicer than to have someone accept you for who you are. I spend a lot of time editing myself irl<br /><br />Please do not offer me or other potential partners dinner and pot leftovers *rolls eyes* in order to secure company. You are enough. Besides you sound like youre on "To catch a predator".... the predator!<br /><br />But maybe I sound just as predatorial. Sorry I flirted so well. I enjoy it. I enjoy talking to you but I understand if you want to cut contact now.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-80276249962851691322013-09-08T13:29:15.934-07:002013-09-08T13:29:15.934-07:00The way I see it is this:
Every now and then I g...The way I see it is this: <br /><br />Every now and then I get a sense that says "pay attention". That happened for me a few days back when I got the sense I should invite you to church. It's a not a messiah complex, because I am well aware that our life experiences are very different, and I can't just surgically graft a religious experience I find to be comforting on you and expect it to have the same effect. <br />It's more like this: I think everybody comes to a certain number of crossroads in their life that tends to set the direction for where they are going. Sometimes a decade can go by between them, sometimes they come quicker. But they generally correspond to major life choices and the ripple effect of each choice irrevocably changes the pattern of your life. Example: Choosing to get married at the age of 20 was a crossroads decision for me. As a result of that early marriage, I had four children in six years and they are both the best thing that ever happened to me and very much a limiting factor on my free spirit personality. <br />From the ambivalence you express when writing about your family business, I sense you are at a place where you break free or go ahead and drink the kool aid. To be writing about such an intensely personal decision like this suggests to me that you are seeking clarity. <br />I know that I can't give you any answers, so as far as the "this" between us, I want to be really careful not to over insert my own bias into your decision making process. So why bring up Jesus? Well, even though I was religious my whole life, I didn't ever really get a sense of divine presence, but that has changed as I've had to face some dangerous stuff. What you describe is no picnic. My sense is that you need protection on some level that is not entire here in the physical realm. That is why I am praying for you- specifically that you will come to a place of stillness inside so that you can tune into what you already know, deep down. <br />Sometimes working from within an organization is most effective. In other cases, you must flee a culture that infects you on a soul level. Because I have no first hand knowledge of what you are up against I can only pray that you are "delivered from evil". <br /><br />My role in your life is not something either of us needs to over think. For now- I want to confirm that you are not crazy. You think and write well. I've heard it said that to be well adjusted in a sick situation is a sign of mental illness. Your distress fits with an overall pattern of sanity, IMO, given what you have described. My reaching out is about me wanting you to understand that I give a shit. Nobody should have to face what you are describing alone. At the same time, I have no illusions that I can fix anything for you. You are at a crossroads and you are going to need to find the inner strength to choose your path. <br /><br />I'm not against talking to you on the phone, but I won't publish it to this wall. If you have a P.O. box or other secure mailing address, I actually had something I planned to give you today, and if I pop it in the mail I can include my phone number. That being said, I am under no illusion that I have any answers for you. You have some serious stuff the wrestle with (once again I think of the story of Jacob wrestling an angelic figure- there is no consensus who that angel was- just an angel? God? Lucifer? - you have similar uncertainty, and yet you wrestle on..."<br /><br />onewomanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11320973006497715467noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-15311005630476758112013-09-08T12:49:34.480-07:002013-09-08T12:49:34.480-07:00And again, how old are you? I am 25.And again, how old are you? I am 25.Ndranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-51399455837307736462013-09-08T12:47:20.552-07:002013-09-08T12:47:20.552-07:00Even if we meet and I committ to you, please don&#...Even if we meet and I committ to you, please don't try to manipulate me into not talking to her. I really think she might be a positive influence on me. I don't think she wants anything sexual from me. <br /><br />What do you mean by abandoning myself? And can you give me your email address or something? I also have AIM (AOL Instant Messenger). I do have facebook but I only give it out to people I already am well acquainted withNdranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-19185853097633642792013-09-08T12:29:54.273-07:002013-09-08T12:29:54.273-07:00I just read that you missed your appt with machemp...I just read that you missed your appt with machempath.<br /><br />I saw that you were afraid she will abandon you. Do not be afraid of that. Be more afraid of abandoning your self.<br /><br />I hope thatbu continue your discussions with her outside of this comment board, unless you do not care about people like me interrupting your flow with her.<br /><br />It is more important to her that you do not abandon yourself than u not abandon your self. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-84369290357606442122013-09-08T12:28:46.098-07:002013-09-08T12:28:46.098-07:00To be honest, you're getting me really excited...To be honest, you're getting me really excited. And although you say your just flirting, you also mention you live a few hours from me. I'm sure turning the fantasy into a reality must have crossed your mind.... I wouldn't be surprised if reading that last sentence just started getting you horny :-P<br /><br />I am a sweet guy, and I also tend to be very generous to those who I appreciate. I do have a scary side, but few people see that, and those are people who are predatory and simply had it comin. You have to realize that I have never been able to have anyone accept me for who I am and have a sexual relationship with me, the fact that you are turned on by the idea of it makes me especially interested in you.<br /><br />I think at first we should just find a way to talk online or on the phone or something, and we can talk about some sexual fantasies.....and if you want to meet we can do it anywhere you are comfortable and I'd be happy to buy us dinner. You said pot makes you horny, so I'll bring a huge bag of pot to smoke and leave you with the leftovers so you can smoke and fantasize about me further once I'm gone :)<br /><br />But believe me, if you can keep up with me, and especially if you can make me actually feel cared for I will be back for more. I won't just abandon you if you are fun to be with. In the world I am in, it's hard to trust most women, and many women who know of me are intimidated by me. What is so bad about being a dominant man? I don't want to hurt you and I might not even deem you fit to be a sexual partner, but if you are a good fit I figure - why not? I don't want to lead you into anything, although I would not lie about whether I would commit. If I would have to commit to have sex then we should simply spend time getting to know each other before doing that. I don't want to rush anything, but you seem cool and I would set aside some time to get to know you.<br /><br />And answer this queston honestly....how old are you?Ndranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-70714096171998093992013-09-08T12:07:20.064-07:002013-09-08T12:07:20.064-07:00"I do feel that Amsterdam has the right idea ..."I do feel that Amsterdam has the right idea in decriminalizing prostitution because it creates less of a dynamic for exploitation by third parties like pimps who get their girls mostly under sketchy circumstances- plus there's the whole underage thing"<br /><br />I agree. To some extent things need to be regulated, but by outright forbidding them there isn;t really any control over it at all. I think it should be controlled, but by simply ignoring it, or punishing people who are trapped in it and feel they can't escape anyway, isn't really going to help solve the problem. This is why I also believe in liberty. I don't really refer to myself as libertarian, I don't associate with any specific mainstream party, and I'm certainly not an anarchist (an anarchic state of society can be useful temporarily for the purpose of creating a new one, but an anarchy is simply unlikely to ever really last very long as social groups form after the destruction of the old order, so you would want to have some influence over where things go after the temporary period of chaos). <br /><br />I will figure out a way for us to contact each other online in a way that is less viewable by the public. To be honest, I would be totally willing to talk to you on the phone too, although I sense you would find this to be too flirty and/or invasive or something. But it's cool, I have my quirks, and you have yours. :)<br /><br />I really do feel like I'm so crazy for really pursuing this, and I know you do too. I guess we really are a little crazy. But I feel like we both have something there that is truly special. If you know what I mean then you know what I mean. Ndranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-29254043940403736852013-09-08T11:59:16.088-07:002013-09-08T11:59:16.088-07:00Wtf? That post just got screwed up. Let me redo it...Wtf? That post just got screwed up. Let me redo it:<br /><br />Correct. I was going to send you some links. I often appear to be stupid and saying too much in some circumstances, but even when I take risks they are extremely calculated in a meticulous way. So, although my communication appears to be loud, I have come to find that I am often able to preserve my secrets even better when people think I've already told them everything there is to know. Some of my asian friends are simply quiet, but alot of Italians are very loud in some ways, although there are definitely certain rules, particularly regarding legal issues. Being loud is very effective in getting more people to hear you, but when more people hear you, you must be more careful. This is why everything I say you can already find somewhere else, so for the record, everything I say I simply heard somewhere else. As the saying in the old 'Ndrangheta song "Omerta" goes: "I am dumb, deaf, blind, and even mute" this is an english translation of a lyric written in the dialect of the 'Ndrangheta, which is a mixture of Italian, Greek and Spanish.<br /><br />But yeah - so don't worry too much about other people worrying about things I have said here. It's all just copy and pasted. After all, when I was in that psyche ward, I was diagnosed as being a paranoid and delusional schizophrenic, despite the fact that I lacked hallucinations. And although me and all my friends disagree with the diagnosis (as well as pretty much all my family members, including my father), I have technically been diagnosed with that disorder and it's perfectly plausible that I have no ties to anything shady, it could all be some figment of my imagination. I suppose you would have to spend time with me day to day to really know. Nudge nudge, wink wink ;)<br />Ndranghetanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-874243455480354882013-09-08T11:57:06.202-07:002013-09-08T11:57:06.202-07:00"I spent last night doing some research and c..."I spent last night doing some research and can confirm that everything you've written appears in secondary sources."<br />Correct. I was going to send you some links. I often appear to be stupid and saying too much in some circumstances, but even when I take risks they are extremelI spent last night doing some research and can confirm that everything you've written appears in secondary sources.y calculated in a meticulous way. So, although my communication appears to be loud, I have come to find that I am often able to preserve my secrets even better when people think I've already told them everything there is to know. Some of my asian friends are simply quiet, but alot of Italians are very loud in some ways, although there are definitely certain rules, particularly regarding legal issues. Being loud is very effective in getting more people to hear you, but when more people hear you, you must be more careful. This is why everything I say you can already find somewhere else, so for the record, everything I say I simply heard somewhere else. As the saying in the old 'Ndrangheta song "Omerta" goes: "I am dumb, deaf, blind, and even mute" this is an english translation of a lyric written in the dialect of the 'Ndrangheta, which is a mixture of Italian, Greek and Spanish. <br /><br />But yeah - so don't worry too much about other people worrying about things I have said here. It's all just copy and pasted. After all, when I was in that psyche ward, I was diagnosed as being a paranoid and delusional schizophrenic, despite the fact that I lacked hallucinations. And although me and all my friends disagree with the diagnosis (as well as pretty much all my family members, including my father), I have technically been diagnosed with that disorder and it's perfectly plausible that I have no ties to anything shady, it could all be some figment of my imagination. I suppose you would have to spend time with me day to day to really know. Nudge nudge, wink wink ;)<br />Ndranghetanoreply@blogger.com