tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post2543919593402610103..comments2024-03-28T00:33:57.308-07:00Comments on Sociopath World: PowerUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger203125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-33206012517549164692012-10-24T06:49:00.788-07:002012-10-24T06:49:00.788-07:00Oh, that makes sense. I am afraid to give up contr...Oh, that makes sense. I am afraid to give up control.That makes sense on many different levels. Thank you.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-32730149944634317402012-10-23T10:34:57.525-07:002012-10-23T10:34:57.525-07:00It's a control issue, anon. You're trying ...It's a control issue, anon. You're trying to "make" it fit, tell yourself what is true, change your perceptions to make them fit the truth. As you say, you just end up confused because you are so busy trying to control your existence you are no longer experiencing it. All you're experiencing is the struggle, rather than allowing yourself to just BE.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-2867049798474461462012-10-23T10:00:07.183-07:002012-10-23T10:00:07.183-07:00I do not think it has to be "weakened state&q...I do not think it has to be "weakened state". I even think I can take advantage of this state because I know it has happened by accident. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-81471177805736825722012-10-23T09:42:49.083-07:002012-10-23T09:42:49.083-07:00I have slept on this. It is drama. I am drawn to t...I have slept on this. It is drama. I am drawn to this trying to fit square into round because it keeps me busy. If I was a dog I'd need a cong filled with peanutbutter treats to get me through the day without ripping up the furniture. I need to be challenged with unsolvable obstacles. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-40358981925231819442012-10-23T09:33:36.599-07:002012-10-23T09:33:36.599-07:00http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=903Rcq-KJS4http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=903Rcq-KJS4For Lunarnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-50161668035641711212012-10-23T05:16:15.414-07:002012-10-23T05:16:15.414-07:00I like a good dancing partner, makes the music sou...I like a good dancing partner, makes the music sound much sweeter. Lunarnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-9546518196454647162012-10-22T22:21:33.793-07:002012-10-22T22:21:33.793-07:00i should have edited that . sorry.i should have edited that . sorry.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-69021219123206746332012-10-22T22:17:59.808-07:002012-10-22T22:17:59.808-07:00Hmm no I really hold 2 thoughts in my head at once...Hmm no I really hold 2 thoughts in my head at once almost all the time, sometimes 3. I go back over a situation over and over and I don't know how I should feel about something. I just know I want to make "it" work. But I choose the lie so I can give myself permission to do something that is not quite healthy. THen I check in with people because I don't trust my judgment. It's like I'm a retard. I ask strangers or doorman what to do and they assess right away, saying i try tofit square peg into round hole. I want my life in such a way but what I want does not exist unless I go to great lengths to change my perception. -I want my wishes, and I want my perception to be the truth. <br /><br />So I will tell myself something is the truth so I don't get disappointed even though I know deep down it isn't true. It is lying to myself purposely. I know deep down I will get disappointed. it is playing with risk and makes me feel like I am floating to the point I might as well be dead. -- Nothing is what it is because by the times i am done with it, I am confused. Then I feel like mush and even welcome other people deciding for me. I go from caring about a situation to not knowing if I should bother to care. It is a weakened state. I only know how I feel about it until after the fact, until after the rollercoaster, until I have made a mess. This is why I don't trust myself with my feelings with others anymore. I am not consistently one way or the other. I don't know how I feel and I get confused. I have to force myself to do nothing. It is the only way to avoid mush.<br /><br />This is conitive dissonance?Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-63732807034645633452012-10-22T21:34:19.456-07:002012-10-22T21:34:19.456-07:00"I think some sociopaths secretly do want to ..."I think some sociopaths secretly do want to "meet their match" and get beaten too." <br /><br />Yeah. It's not a good relationship unless you're killing each other a little bit everyday.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-65916040109477359072012-10-22T19:26:05.484-07:002012-10-22T19:26:05.484-07:00I don't want to leave people in the pain of a ...I don't want to leave people in the pain of a PD, to the small extent which I can struggle to climb out of it.<br /> Leaving someone in that struggle is not love. It is not truth. It is seeing someone in a garbage heap and walking by.<br />How To Heal a PDnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-89170294718148361592012-10-22T18:40:36.590-07:002012-10-22T18:40:36.590-07:00It makes me sad that people can't just have a ...It makes me sad that people can't just have a place to be themselves without someone that doesn't know them, trying to fix them. <br /><br />Generically. <br /><br />Without getting to know their individual problems or the origins of what caused their PD in the first place.Havenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06219816721347558501noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-1586227419253275512012-10-22T13:05:38.275-07:002012-10-22T13:05:38.275-07:00Sounds more like a problem of cognitive dissonance...Sounds more like a problem of cognitive dissonance that you're trying to make fit flexible self (and also like you're still trying to hard b/c that's not how flexible self with BPD works) . <br /><br />That's never really been my biggest problem. I certainly haven't had a problem with that in ages.<br /><br />I'm not DID, I just flex to fit my situations, not forget who I am. It's not like putting on a suit, where I am only certain things in my business suit, and others in my party suit, and another set of things in my home with family suit.<br /><br />Situations where there's overlap between two groups that don't usually interact and I'm not sure how to be, that can get awkward. But if someone mentions that I seem to be acting different I usually just make up an excuse or explain it away as an anomaly. I notice it now, but before when I wasn't as self-aware I didn't even realize anything odd was going on at all. I wasn't an active choice, it just happened based on instinctual perception. I've never felt like mush. <br />Havenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06219816721347558501noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-38211785515089709322012-10-22T08:42:27.562-07:002012-10-22T08:42:27.562-07:00TnP cannt appreciate things other people appreciat...TnP cannt appreciate things other people appreciate. He is not tolerant and has little patience for other people. He should go to slaughter.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-46400904896023336552012-10-22T08:36:29.094-07:002012-10-22T08:36:29.094-07:00I don't think one can find oneself entirely. i...I don't think one can find oneself entirely. i believe that this is the beauty of my life. I will never experience every situation, however Every new situation will define me more. ANd i still may do the opposite thing the next time. <br /><br />I think this ^ is a problem for people with trust issues and projective identification. <br />Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-56722278376573507992012-10-22T08:15:22.986-07:002012-10-22T08:15:22.986-07:00that's funny. I thought you were making fun of...that's funny. I thought you were making fun of me.<br /><br />I have noticed that if you fuck around too much here nobody will take you seriously. THis is part of gaslighting too, imhoAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-54231101190950381222012-10-22T06:50:43.730-07:002012-10-22T06:50:43.730-07:00I did like it, because I understood the point you ...I did like it, because I understood the point you were trying to convey, sans the bullshit.Payam Darvishhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02027312104152494932noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-43668559899188953102012-10-22T06:48:13.899-07:002012-10-22T06:48:13.899-07:00“Someday, somewhere - anywhere, unfailingly, you’l...“Someday, somewhere - anywhere, unfailingly, you’ll find yourself, and that, and only that, can be the happiest or bitterest hour of your life.”<br />— Pablo NerudaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-2797913393548871772012-10-22T06:10:04.484-07:002012-10-22T06:10:04.484-07:00Anon 5:36
You were not making fun of me? I though...Anon 5:36<br /> You were not making fun of me? I thought you were. Sorry.How To Heal a PDnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-4465203480824982762012-10-22T05:36:31.290-07:002012-10-22T05:36:31.290-07:00The how to heal a pd at 3:08 is not the one I was ...The how to heal a pd at 3:08 is not the one I was addressing, or else it did not understand/was intoxicated . <br /><br />I wrote the truth. I appreciate Healy's efforts. The stabbing pain is death and love at the same time and it is sacred. It is real and I am living it. <br /><br />Don't LOL at healing. <br /><br />I don't like anything woowoo. It isn't.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-79404381398800325492012-10-22T04:43:03.629-07:002012-10-22T04:43:03.629-07:00You picked it apart and then said that you liked i...You picked it apart and then said that you liked it, TNP.How To Heal a PDnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-50593927901475910192012-10-22T03:55:19.468-07:002012-10-22T03:55:19.468-07:00Still too long =/ I really need to figure out the ...Still too long =/ I really need to figure out the character limit for the display of names in the forum...Payam Darvishhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02027312104152494932noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-74484575765923677632012-10-22T03:33:05.118-07:002012-10-22T03:33:05.118-07:00The Nutty ProfessorThe Nutty ProfessorMɵᴅʊsahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13217438537249025614noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-49608768842219380912012-10-22T03:23:56.344-07:002012-10-22T03:23:56.344-07:00"First of all, if you see a jerk, you have to..."First of all, if you see a jerk, you have to know that the jerk is doing the best he can with what he has."<br /><br />Bullshit.<br /><br />"The strength of your own boundaries is the only way."<br /><br />Bullshit.<br /><br />"The body tries to maintain balance, as best as it can. Even a dreaded disease such as cancer is a homeostatic mechanism, if one looks at it from a homeopathic point of view."<br /><br />Bullshit.<br /><br />"The emotional make-up of a person is the same as the physical when it comes to trying to maintain balance and the best health possible, at all times."<br /><br />Bullshit.<br /><br />"If you see a person with a PD, that person has twisted and warped from outside( and inside experiences)"<br /><br />Bullshit.<br /><br />So like I said, most of it is bullshit. I do like the gist of the explanation though, it's the details that are lacking.Payam Darvishhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02027312104152494932noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-86959584486506182592012-10-22T03:08:20.358-07:002012-10-22T03:08:20.358-07:00LOL good oneLOL good oneHow To Heal a PDnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-48098554447368836432012-10-22T00:22:17.645-07:002012-10-22T00:22:17.645-07:00How to Heal, I am afraid.
I am doing well cryin...How to Heal, I am afraid. <br /><br />I am doing well crying then the next day feeling relief. But I am afraid this cycle will not end. I think my friends think I am getting very healthy, which is a good sign, and I am preparing to go for my dreams again without so much fear and resistance. But I am terrified I will give upon myself again. <br /><br />But I feel great stabbing pain inside which feels like love for myself. <br /><br /><3<br /><br /><br /> Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com