tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post191391007050342874..comments2024-03-19T02:19:20.177-07:00Comments on Sociopath World: Female sociopaths and BPD (part 1)Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger29125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-3454406021728498552014-11-13T09:38:40.051-08:002014-11-13T09:38:40.051-08:00Of course a normal person is more normal. What I m...Of course a normal person is more normal. What I meant to say was that it is normal to be more deluted and schizophrenic. It just happens to be more constant and more beneficial for the system, so it is not worth fixing.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-53102360796037553582014-11-13T09:33:10.165-08:002014-11-13T09:33:10.165-08:00Nice post.
Depression may be the cost of not act...Nice post. <br /><br />Depression may be the cost of not acting out. <br />How can one realize the lack of purpose and meaning in life. How can one realize how manipulative most people are, and get away with most things. And yet, put restrictions on one self, despite of "knowing" by logic and by experience how the "world" goes, without feeling depressed ? I can't. In the past I used to comfort myself by pretending my friends where a lot better and above the normality of friendship. Some of them were. But in the end, does it really matter ? I still don't know. And thinking about it makes me "wiser", but generally not more optimistic. It is related to the phenomena of "depression and realism". Depressed people tend to percieve the world more as it actually is. They don't (attribution error) so easily attribute a good outcome to their own personality and efforts. And they don't blame the rest of the world so easily for shitty outcomes. <br /><br />So normal people, are not really normal at all. They just fit better into the machinery that western societies have become.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-16370658750974759202014-11-13T09:17:19.245-08:002014-11-13T09:17:19.245-08:00They have invented subtypes :)
You sound more lik...They have invented subtypes :)<br /><br />You sound more like a "resigned borderliner". Internal turmoil and meaningless of life, but somehow not acting out a lot. The cost for not acting out is ,IMO, periods of depression Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-80649537005218675992014-11-13T09:10:19.019-08:002014-11-13T09:10:19.019-08:00It would depend of the amount of shit he has done....It would depend of the amount of shit he has done. <br /><br />It is hard to justify for instance taking part of the torturing and crap IS is now executing. The only emotional choice of realization would probably be suicide. They have crossed a border. Kind of no return. They need to continue.<br /><br />That is the trick many kid-soldiers in Africa has been exposed to. <br />Blindfolded told that they would have to fire a gun against a person. And afterwards, seeing that it was their own parents or some other close to them. The leaders will make them feel that they have crossed the point of no return. Its shitty and fucked up. Yet it works.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-27258721870550227792014-11-13T09:03:12.837-08:002014-11-13T09:03:12.837-08:00It is mostly the same shit.
One day, if you haven...It is mostly the same shit. <br />One day, if you haven't done something too bad to think about, you'll sit down and reflect over your life. What made you become who you are etc. How childhood affected you both ways. It still had its affect and made you "different". Those moment of clarity you may very well feel that you are a BPD. If you decide to change something in your life, change a reaction pattern or whatever, because it doesn't "feel right". Well, then you have become a BPD over night :)<br /><br />Complex PTSD is a better, but more useless, diagnosis. It just doesnt do the labeling-trick very well. It can be so much and so little. Society dont care about you in general. Some inbetween persons you meet, might care a little above the average, but in general, they just want to know if you are dangerous to them in particular. And for that, easy labels are what they needAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-12527707008379405662014-11-13T08:53:19.929-08:002014-11-13T08:53:19.929-08:00I don't believe you.
I suspect your mind did...I don't believe you. <br /><br />I suspect your mind did a quick evalution of the situation. You turned off the self-pitiness switch to get an accurate evalution. Then probably felt he was just trying to bullshit you and knew the best option was to just stay calm.<br /><br />Rethinking the episode, you prefer to consider yourself being dead calm all the time. But you weren't. Noone is. There is always this very brief moment of evaluation. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-60942542031815362872014-11-13T08:44:51.296-08:002014-11-13T08:44:51.296-08:00I feeling came to my mind. Everyday psychos being ...I feeling came to my mind. Everyday psychos being mostly about no hatred. Some really bad ones a lot about repressed hatred. Although they actually could be an internal turmoil BPD. The BPD male is something in between. "Minor" blow outs now and then, due to emotions, but generally a quite nice fellow.<br /><br />Maybe a consider a BPD more as a "leave me the fuck alone" personality. While the psycho is more the "sorry cannot do that. Trouble has come looking for you", typeAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-39511726044099685162014-11-13T08:37:55.104-08:002014-11-13T08:37:55.104-08:00Im similar but opposite. Also a fucked up family b...Im similar but opposite. Also a fucked up family background.<br /><br />When rationall, im an iceberg and nothing bothers me or is even worth the slightest trouble. When emotional, I just hate psychos who won't leave me alone, and I love to fight the shit out of them. Most of them drops out after the typical "verbal offending game", so most often I would have to go against 2 or more opponents. Because these mini-pscyhos are generally calculating pussies.<br />Btw, western society is one big pscyho too. <br />Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-9418358189617544482014-04-19T03:21:52.829-07:002014-04-19T03:21:52.829-07:00The one thing i will say is that if i do have BPD ...The one thing i will say is that if i do have BPD then controlling those urges is only one part of the problem. The other half with BPD is understanding it since being consciously aware of these thoughts are mentally provocative and intrusive at times. As a result, when i was a kid i was convinced i was an evil piece of shit not fit as a human being. Apparently studying the anatomy of insects through razorblades in elementary school is deviant. i never knew that but other people sure thought it was. to this day i have a strong ability to lie without remorse for the most part unless i have a strong attachment to the situation, event, or person. However, when i get home and my fake ass smile wears off i usually punch a couple holes in the wall , self harm(in my teens), and have an "addictive personality". While i still strive to be clean i dont know if i ever will be because dulling the emotions prevents me from doing things i never want to do. Thing is, my mind and thoughts have always felt more real than reality itself haha. And also i died of laughter when someone mentioned ppl with BOD are attracted to ASPD like nightlights and campfires. Its fucking true. In my own perspective its because we, or at least I, acknowledge my current state of being and mind and wish to have someone who can soothe my intense emotion. I am very keen and pride myself in reading people. I was very unsociable as a child and spent most of my life studying the foreign environment of seemingly normal people thus my ability to blend in with all groups by the time i reached high school. I feel like a chameleon but one that is conscious and stimulated negatively by my ability to do so. I am very self conscious, especially for a guy, and am rather jumpy (anxiety im assuming). I dont even know why im really blogging here but i just wanted my honest opinion for once expressed. If anyone else has better suggestions to coping with my unstable ego that would help. I am very open to logic so as long as im interested. I also become bored very easily. aside from being on two polar ends of logic and emotion, i also feel that i am torn between being anxious/paranoid(changing phones/sims/ always wearing my brim low/skipping court) and being profoundly bored as fuck to the point that i become very sadistic. I had a sadistic phase and i really dont wish to talk about it here. i do not doubt i caused severe trauma on someone completely unaffiliated with me for shits and giggles. i feel remorse sometimes and other times i rationalize the event. At the end of the day no one was crippled (physically) or killed. But i remember that moment like last night every day. it was so calm and serene when i look back at it i convince myself im a sociopath although im clearly very emotional. Regardless i have a very unstable sense of self and am constantly depressed. Just reading the posts on this blog however makes me feel comfortable and not so foreign for once in my life though. its like 6 am and i havent slept in two days, not rare since ive had insomnia since my early childhood(scared as shit of the dark and anything not visible or noticeable to my sensory organs). Probably should sleep but the more i read the more intense my desire to understand more becomes. Nostalgic to my youth when i would spend nights finishing books. never used bookmarks since if i liked a book i would go through it twice in a night. and if i didnt then... well lets just say bonfires were the light of my teens because they were always beautiful in my eyes. no i am not an arsonist but fire just makes me tingle in a warm kinda way. anyways im ranting because my body is tired and thus my writing today is all the fucking over the place aha. my apologies but i hope this provides some insight on someone BPD and not ASPD. (male 20y/o, suburban enviro, middleclass fam) (im the anon above :) i just rant enough to max out the word limit on this blog )Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-82565418825829158612014-04-19T03:21:11.751-07:002014-04-19T03:21:11.751-07:00In terms of sociopathy, my doc told me i had "...In terms of sociopathy, my doc told me i had "symptoms" very early on when i lied a lot to him not that i dont now. After a few years they diagnosed me with depression , narcissism , and GAD while showing many signs of BPD(before 18y/o). Although i can never lie to my councilor quite that well because i am extremely emotional and have developed an attachment to her. Also since she is very keen on identifying my physical discrepancies when lying. I am a little hurt to hear the rage on people with BPD because im very certain i have it. I understand the rage and murderous fantasies which dont go away and constantly force me to question my own morality. At the end of the day im too passionate to give a shit about the consequences. In my lifetime ive probably envisioned killing my parents multiple times though i was never abused severely. I do love my parents i dont really know why and i have never been able to tell them that. And when the one blogger above mentioned phases of extreme emotion and then switching to phases of harsh rationality, my mind went boom. literally from hysterical laughter to a general understanding and sense of happiness knowing i wasnt the only one. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-2994593329817619362013-07-27T17:31:40.289-07:002013-07-27T17:31:40.289-07:00I am a Diagnosed Female Sociopath. I have other di...I am a Diagnosed Female Sociopath. I have other diagnosis but that is the only one that is relevant. The only reason I am posting here is Because I think that all of you are hillarious. I have been searching the net all damn day looking for some type of positive text that I could use to explain to someone else about me. Lets face it, im a Sociopath...most people think im lying, manipulative, or going to kill them in their sleep. This forum however allowed me to see that I'm not alone in being proud of who I am and not hiding my ability/disability from others. I have been married for 13yrs, he will say I'm manipulative but loyal. I feel that the best way to live the life that you are handed is to build it around what you are comfortable with. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05088820449168880817noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-47907910830078579762012-05-16T21:48:14.748-07:002012-05-16T21:48:14.748-07:00A true sociopath is someone who goes out of their ...A true sociopath is someone who goes out of their way to appear above all normal. It's more likely the sweetest most normal person you know than someone who is like a jerk.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-5572829237830154402011-11-11T02:45:22.428-08:002011-11-11T02:45:22.428-08:00Yes, I had a psychology professor who thought the ...Yes, I had a psychology professor who thought the 2 personalities where just male and female versions of each other. I think the confusion arises for 2 reasons:<br /><br />1. ASPD is actually 2 or more disorders. On one side is the psychopath who is devoid of emapthy and other reactions. They have no reason to follow the rules. On the other side of the coin is people who commit anti-social behavior out of passion. The second group came from abusive families, and probably learned that following the rules wasn't the way to survive. There is probably some overlap of this type with BPD.<br /><br />2. People with BPD can often under intense pain forget about the harm that their actions could inflict on others. This could appear as a lack of empathy. However, afterwards they'll feel guilty, but they'll repeat what they've done because they don't any other way of dealing with things. Additionally, things like theft and violence can be used to regulate emotions.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-90314469169238283372010-10-28T20:22:12.479-07:002010-10-28T20:22:12.479-07:00apart from animal torture, which I hate, the rest ...apart from animal torture, which I hate, the rest of this described me. And I am female and have been diagnosed as a Sociopath.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-34055849742617710202010-10-24T13:08:54.068-07:002010-10-24T13:08:54.068-07:00jeez, i thought i had bits of bpd but judging by w...jeez, i thought i had bits of bpd but judging by what's written here, i'm kinda glad my therapist said i don't. my emotions are intense, oftentimes i am clouded, (i'm confident that's the depression), 'i don't know' a common refrain, frequently can see things from both perspectives that it feels like self-annihilation. (but i like that openness, it's rare after all). however, fundamentally, i am a highly sensitive person (HSP) - ie. the opposite of a sociopath. i do have five of the eight traits for bpd, but none of the emotional blackmail and thank god, none of the rage. i do share one of the big things with bpd - inconsistent sense of self. it's crazy, imagine looking in the mirror one minute thinking you look fine, then only five minutes later doing the same only to hate what you see. i have a theory that body dysmorphia (pretty exclusively) happens in those with bpd. so this is a reflection of the fluctuating emotions that are happening inside. why are they fluctuating so so much? <br />also, they studied the brains of those with body dysmorphia and saw that their visual processing is focused on detail, rather than the whole, so obsessions follow. in their perception, the details scream out to them.<br />why do i add this on a blog about sociopathy? cos i have, too bad. :)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-76678986332102031252010-08-10T15:09:49.026-07:002010-08-10T15:09:49.026-07:00I have no idea, go, shoot, how muchI have no idea, go, shoot, how muchEz namnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-48425789535685804392010-08-09T13:26:33.715-07:002010-08-09T13:26:33.715-07:00"Do you have any idea how incredibly vengeful...<i>"Do you have any idea how incredibly vengeful and 'outward acting' somebody with BPD can be?"</i><br /><br />I'll vouch for that.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-2292713987766322892010-08-09T03:43:51.078-07:002010-08-09T03:43:51.078-07:00@no one
These periods can last from a few weeks t...@no one<br /><br />These periods can last from a few weeks to a few years. I must say, however, that as I've got older I have learned to integrate the two to some extent. I suppose it makes me wonder:- could a 'bona fide' sociopath wake up one day and feel remorse, does this ever happen? As for 'another ratty nut job cutting herself in the corner....' that made me laugh. Do you have any idea how incredibly vengeful and 'outward acting' somebody with BPD can be? It's not always about self harm, it can often be about making the pain inside transfer itself to other people - 'I'm not going to feel this I'm going to give it to you instead' and they can be pretty good at doing this!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-75573972495823536922010-08-06T19:27:21.855-07:002010-08-06T19:27:21.855-07:00I am not trying to punish myself for sh*t nor am I...I am not trying to punish myself for sh*t nor am I confused... I think this is probably what sets a person who is antisocial apart from a BPD. BPDs seem as though they seem really confused and extremely disorganized. As for childhood trauma that's not something I think of so much as trauma. I think of it more as it was a character builder.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-76721783684259288662010-08-06T18:15:07.925-07:002010-08-06T18:15:07.925-07:00Which is why I stick with my initial idea; MAYBE B...Which is why I stick with my initial idea; MAYBE BPD would be applicable if I had feelings of inadequacy, fear of abandonment and low self-worth. However, since those very vital traits are obviously absent (other than the self-mutilation, of course, but I've made it pretty clear I didn't/don't hate myself), the diagnosis seems just a little far-fetched. My childhood? I've moved on. Anyone else?Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-67384702178927345122010-08-06T17:38:50.237-07:002010-08-06T17:38:50.237-07:00BPD mimics bipolar disorder very closely. As far a...BPD mimics bipolar disorder very closely. As far as it being associated with ASPD this is the first I have heard of it. There is no similarities between the two... however in a world where the diagnosis of ASPD can keep you from doing somethings like... getting a crypto or other high risk security clearances.. which means pretty much your hopes and dreams of working in the pentagon are dashed if you have this disorder... it's probably best that they hand out BPD diagnosis rather than ASPD because no one cares about BPD. Just another ratty nut job cutting herself in the corner with razor blades crying about how badly her childhood sucked or how she was raped when she was two and she just ... can't ... stop... the ... nightmares.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-76792512679170816642010-08-06T02:50:42.355-07:002010-08-06T02:50:42.355-07:00I just read that really fast, and then went back a...I just read that really fast, and then went back and realized how long it was..WTH? Maybe the way it's confined makes it look longerAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-58491322558182059202010-08-04T17:31:28.002-07:002010-08-04T17:31:28.002-07:00However (and it's a big 'however') I c...<i>However (and it's a big 'however') I can go through long periods of feeling nothing at all, no guilt, remorse, no motivation other that alleviating boredom and then the world suddenly crashes in on me and the guilt is catastophic.</i><br /><br />How long do these periods typically last, Anonymous?no onenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-47739281160993673472010-08-04T09:26:36.163-07:002010-08-04T09:26:36.163-07:00One other thing I neglected to add was empathy. Un...One other thing I neglected to add was empathy. Unlike the person above me, 'empathy' doesn't have it's own on/off switch because it's simply never there. About half a year ago, my sister's ex-boyfriend held her at gun point, and while, I guess, any 'normal' person (by normal, I'm going by societies standards) would have probably felt angry and/or hurt, I felt nothing. Nothing evil, nothing good. Just nothing. I more or less thought, "Wow, how irresponsible of him." But, mostly because there were children present during the situation. One of many examples I could give you, but that one seemed the most significant.TheSecondWriternoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-628748600098131100.post-52453406153769635872010-08-04T09:11:10.414-07:002010-08-04T09:11:10.414-07:00Unipolar depression. Wouldn't that imply low s...Unipolar depression. Wouldn't that imply low self-esteem somewhere? Correct me if I'm wrong. In any case, low self-esteem is definitely NOT one of my many traits. I don't vary from feelings of adequacy to low self-worth like I've seen most of these 'labels' insinuate. So, you may want to consult the books again, but, by all means, do continue. I'm interested to know what your conclusion boils down to.TheSecondWriternoreply@blogger.com