Thursday, October 2, 2008


I'm sick and so world-weary today. I often tell people that if I could wake up one day and be 60, I would be very happy. I wish I could take birthdays like I take stairs--three at a time. I don't know whether everyone feels this way, or if it's a symptom of who I am. Usually I distract myself from any feelings of emptiness or pointlessness with games: mind games, power games, money games. It's hard to get excited about any of those things when I'm sick, though. All I feel is a sense of my own mortality and weakness. Maybe I'm just listening to too much oboe music.


  1. yeah, i too would like to be retired tomorrow

  2. Not everyone. Perhaps only the employed.

  3. i wouldnt mind retirement the birthday thing i hate birthdays i dont realy understand y people care so much about how old someone is or ir counting how old somone is and another thing is funerals i hate drive and being with people at funerals they cry and wine who cares they died get over it wa wa ur sad fuck just get over your self


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